Disclaimer: I don't own 'Twilight' or any of the characters, I do, however own Annastasia :D

This is my second fanfic (check out forever yours plz!) I got some of my ideas from Adabellacullen's story 'A Mother's Love' (LOVE IT BTW ) Please review! Love ya!

BPOV

I'm Isabella Swan. Formerly Isabella Black. I'm twenty four years old. Six years ago my life was shattered by the only man I have ever truly loved. Don't get me wrong, I loved Jacob, too. Just not the way I loved Edward.

Edward left me a few days after my eighteenth birthday. He told me he didn't love me anymore. But really, how could I have expected anything else? He was amazing. He was handsome, caring, loving, funny, smart, rich. Everything a girl could dream of. And I was just...me. Plain old Bella Swan. There was nothing about that me could hold his interest.

It's been six years since he shattered my heart. After he left I was nearly catatonic. I know it's an extreme reaction over a guy. But he wasn't just a guy. And I didn't only lose him. I also lost my best friend, Alice. I lost an entire family. An entire future.

Eight months after Edward left me, I decided to let Jacob into my life as more than just a friend. Two years later when Jacob turned eighteen and I turned twenty, we got married. But not before I got pregnant at seventeen.

Little Annastasia Alice Swan. Her last name used to be Black, but I changed it when Jacob left. She looks like me. She's pale with brown hair and green eyes.

She never looked like Jacob. That's probably why he denied her so often.

Every other week he was accusing me of cheating and saying that Annastasia wasn't his.

I would've denied it except for the fact that he was right. Edward was her father. He never knew because he left me before I got a chance to tell him.

Jacob and I would still be together if he hadn't left me for that whore from California.

He promised me that he wasn't leaving because he didn't love me, he was leaving because he imprinted on little miss Califorina sunshine.

So I've been on my own with Annastasia for two years. Anna is now six and we're living in a loft in Seattle.

I'm a writer which makes my life easier because I can work from home. Anna is my miracle, my little angel. She makes life bearable and is the only thing that kept me from going insane.

I still cry every night for Edward. The hole is still there. It hasn't gotten any better. I found my CD, the tickets to Jacksonville, and the pictures, hidden under my floorboards.

I listen to the CD every night as I cry myself to sleep. I still have the nightmare. The one where I wandering through the forest behind Charlie's house where Edward left me, looking for him and coming up empty. I muffle the screams now for Annastasia's sake.

All in all, I still miss Edward. I still love him after all he's done to me.

EPOV One year ago

"Alice! Get out of my room!" I shouted at my annoying sister.

"But Edward! I saw her! I saw her!" she said excitedly.

"Saw who?" I asked quietly.

"Bella!" she shouted.

I cringed. Thinking about her is painful. I miss her so much. I went back to Forks to beg her to take me back, but she was gone. 'Ran off with Jacob' Charlie had said in a smug smile.

"Alice, I told you not to-"

"I didn't! It just came to me! She's miserable, Edward. My vision was of her crying herself to sleep as she listened to the song you wrote for her."

"Her lullaby. She found the CD and the pictures." I realized, "She's with Jacob. She doesn't want me anymore."

"There was no one else in the vision! And you think Jacob would let her sit there and cry without comforting her? I don't think they're together anymore."

"That doesn't matter.She obviously doesn't love me anymore." I said sadly.

"Yeah. She's crying herself to sleep over memories of you because she doesn't love you anymore." Alice said sarcastically.

"Just go, Alice. And stay out of her future." It hurt to think let alone say her name.

Alice sighed and walked out of the room. As soon as she was out of sight I closed my door, sliding down it, and began to sob.

How could I have been so stupid? How could I have left her? She loved me despite what I was and yet I took that for granted and left her.

Maybe Alice was right and she did still love me. I wish Charlie would have been more specific when he told me Bella had ran off with Jacob.

We were back in Washington now and that was taking it's toll on me. It was painful being here when it held so many memories of her.

If only I could have her back in my arms.

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Thanks again to Adabellacullen!

Love you all!

BELLA