Epilogue
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Wow, it's been two years since I last wrote hasn't it? Whoops. Sorry.
I've been busy.
I just reread the last bit and it really made me smile to remember. I was so tense about how I felt for Victor in those early days I wouldn't even try to describe it or puzzle out in my own journal…tsk tsk :)
Oh well, I didn't write because just a few days after my last entry we left for Seattle where the mutant community had more support at the time and where Victor had a house out side the city and a business inside.
It was hard while we were setting up our little home. I didn't have a job and I didn't know how to do house-wifely things so I felt like a burden, but I kept trying and once Victor realized that's how I was felling he made sure to go out of his way to show me how useful I was and how much he wanted me there.
It kind of took me by surprise though when he asked what kind of wedding I wanted. He'd always just seemed so content the way we were-well of course we both wanted it to be more physical but I was afraid we'd end up like my parents. But after a few weeks (probably a month and a half) of living in the same home we started planning out wedding. My parents did freak out but they never really understood my mutation so they used that as some sort of reason. Of course that's one of the things I love about Victor, he's like me and he probably won't die on me anytime soon.
The wedding was smallish because I didn't want to deal w/a lot of crap; I just wanted to be married to Victor (and he wouldn't let me elope). My family came and so did Rogue, Bobby, Peter and Dale. Of course Logan and Johnny came too, that was a bit awkward…And Magneto was there as well…It was a v. strange mix but everyone seemed to manage to stay calm for us. –It was weird, Logan and Victor used to work together, and since Logan had his mind unlocked (I think partially Rogue's fault hee hee :)) he remembered what good friends they used to be. Everything was very simple but Victor surprised me with how nice everything was. He had stored up quite a bit of money in his life time…It was sort of unnerving until I got used to it.
Now I'm going to U of W and Victor and I are planning a family. He wants a 'cub' so badly, and so do I. I know I'm young, but I'm ready.
I did get pregnant about four months ago but we lost it. I had just started to feel something (of course Victor had smelled the change way before I could feel anything) and then my period came, just as if the cub never existed. It was really hard at the time, but we're getting through it and trying again.
Most of all I've been too busy settling down into the swing of my own household…and enjoying the love I feel for Victor and that he (miraculously) returns to me. It took me forever it seems to let my guard down, to believe him when he told me he loved me, but as soon as I did, all of this…emotion came spilling forward like it had just been waiting for me to accept how much I love him.
I was worried at first that maybe I'd been too hasty making decisions, but through it all, I would never want things any other way.