Hello everybody! Long time, no see! So, here's the next installment of the one shots leading up to Take A Breath. It's our favorite Good-turned-bad-turned-good Spy. Oh, yes. She's alive! How could I kill her? That would make the sequel so boring! Here's What I've Done...

"What I've Done"

In this farewell
There's no blood
There's no alibi
'Cause I've drawn regret
From the truth
Of a thousand lies

I'm Standing to the side, hidden in a grove of trees. It's a surreal moment. I'm watching my friends bury me. Well, at least, what used to be me. I'm not her anymore. But still, there's no body in that coffin.

So let mercy come
And wash away
What I've done
I'll face myself
To cross out what I've become
Erase myself
And let go of what I've done

I'm somebody new. I have a new name, a new identity, a new home. Thank god for some of the retired agents who worked with Grandfather. They risked their reputations to help a teenaged spy who, if caught, will be stripped. I'll lose everything. And I'll have ruined grandfather's name. No, I'll let the old me be put to rest.

Put to rest
What you thought of me
While I clean this slate
With the hands of uncertainty

And Alex? Maybe someday he'll know. Maybe he'll find me. And then again, maybe he won't. It won't matter. It doesn't matter. Nothing matters, except the one way bus pass to California that's in my pocket.

So let mercy come
And wash away
What I've done
I'll face myself
To cross out what I've become
Erase myself
And let go of what I've done

I ruined everything. I should have known that Casey was behind everything. I should have known that trying to get revenge would only backfire. I wish I could take it all back. But I can't undo anything. It's all set in stone, a cold slab of granite with the words "Meghan Anne Blackstone Beloved granddaughter, friend, and confidant. 'Forgive my grievances and live for the day'" I have to forgive myself. Being angry clouds your judgment and I can't afford anymore of that.

For what I've done
I start again
And whatever pain may come
Today this ends
I'm forgiving what I've done!
I'll face myself
To cross out what I've become
Erase myself
And let go of what I've done

Meghan is forgiven, but will Shane make the right choices? I can only hope. This is my second chance. This is my last chance. I've got to make it work.

What I've done
Forgiving what I've done.