As I sit here in my cold dark room, my back against the bed post with Sai's right arm around my waste, while his head was faced down on his white pillow. I hope he suffocates…I told myself bitterly. Why I was so bitter towards him now left me in a mystery. I know that whenever I would see him, my dearest, deadliest friend I would smile. However now? Now I look upon that face and gag at how disgusted I am with him now. Though Sai had his bad sides, there are times, once in a blue moon, where he'd have his good points about him too. I was such a naïve little girl, to be fooled by a face that once held such passion in his eyes, but are now drained, lifeless, dead.

I raised my left arm to rub one of the arms that bind me to him, rubbing it softly. I could feel his skin underneath my touch tense. Amazing…even in sleep he has his guard up. I continued to rub his arm softly, comforting the nightmares that bestowed upon his dream world. It wasn't his fault that I promised to always remain beside him. It wasn't his fault that I promised to be his wife, to take care of him in sickness or in health. No matter what everyone says the real person at fault here is me. Because I sacrifice everything to make everyone happy, even if it means my heart.

"Listen. Stupid. Seriously, you must be stupid Sakura. It doesn't matter if a person is wealthy, rich, a king, a person or from a high or low society. If two people love each other, they'll do whatever it is they have to do to be together. Even if it means going up against the family, friends, jobs, even the Gods themselves. And you…you Sakura, your letting a promise. A fucking promise. Stand in the way of you and the person you truly love. Let me tell you Sakura. You were not put here on this plant to be some mother to a pitiful man who is so weak he has to bind you to him by a fucking promise. Let me tell you another thing Sakura…promise are not meant to be kept, there meant to be broken, but don't listen to me. While your in your misery I'll and everyone else will be living happily with our own husbands and wives."

Neji's words continued to haunt me this far into the night. He was always one to talk to the ones he cared about in a sort of cruel way, just to get his point across. Even for my sake he would break down every thing that I thought I was doing right and make me see that It was all wrong. A promise it meant to be broken right? I told myself softly looking at Sai with soft eyes. If I broke my promise to Sai, and live my life in happily with Sasuke what would become of Sai? He has no one, he would be left alone again. I couldn't dare leave him by himself, abandon him like everyone else had. Everyone deserves to be loved, even if its just a friendship love would Sai accept that? I could still be near him as a friend…

"Since you promise Sakura that would always be near me, stay with me, never leave me…marry me. Become my wife when we come at the appropriate age. Be mine and no else's."

Who was I kidding? Even at a young age Sai had always been the one to bluntly say things. Try to take charge of everything, he was even so demanding, he hadn't changed since that day we were kids. He's probably still a kid at heart, since I been spoiling him with what I thought was love. I bit my bottom lip hard, when a picture of Sasuke came into my mind. An image of us laughing in the lake, and sharing a deep kiss, made my heart ache in yearn for him. If it wasn't for Sasuke, if it wasn't for that damn man. I would have…I would have still remained the same. I would have still remained pretending in my own little world that I was in love with this man next to me. That I could still live happy ever after with this man next to me. However, Sasuke just had to run right into my life and ruin everything. He just had to wake me up and make me see that I never truly loved this man holding me, binding me to his depressing body.

It was all Sasuke's fault for waking me up. I closed my eyes and gently removing Sai's arm from my body, placing it down by his side. I let out a relieved sigh when he didn't move or wake up. And slowly, oh so slowly like a mouse creeping across the wooden floor to not awake the sleeping cat, I tip toed. I tip toed all the way outside of our bedroom, and into the kitchen. A glass of hot milk used to calm me down in the nights when I was little girl. The nightmares about my parents would usually keep me screaming, but my grandmother would fix me a hot cup of milk to calm my nerves.

"Here you go my darling princess, one hot cup of milk, with my secret ingredient should cheer you up!" Oh my grandmother such a sweetheart she is. Taking care of me as if I was her own daughter. My have the years gone by, my beloved grandmother has aged so much, that now moving would cause her pain. I smiled at the little memories that would pass me by.

"Grandmamma what's your secret ingredient to this hot cup of milk? Its so yummy, its different from the way my mamma used to make it. Oh please grandmamma, please, pretty please with sugar on top, tell me? I will even put a cherry on top if you'd like?"

I couldn't help but giggle, I was such a stupid little girl, begging for something, had I have no pride when I was that small? Such a child I was, all children act like little innocent angels, but poor Sai never got the chance, maybe that's why. Maybe that's why I stayed near him. I glared at the cup of milk in my hands, that reflected a foggy image of myself.

"Ha-Ha, calm down precious I'll tell you the ingredient of my special hot cup of milk. You see my darling, every time I make a hot cup of milk on the stove top I sing this song your mamma and I wrote."

Eyes widen.

"You and my mamma wrote a song?"

A small laugh rose.

"Yes. Shall I sing it?"

Quick nods.

"Please oh please Grandma sing it to me please."

"Ha-Ha okay darling here we go."

"Little precious angels cry, why oh why are your wings so dry? Shall I cheer you up tonight, here a glass of hot milk. The milk from heavens tear drops eyes, shall help you smile and un-dry your wings. Smile and laughter are the best source of medicine. Here in the atmosphere. LA-La-LA-La-Di-Dah-Dah so come-so come and smile with me. Here in our cheery tree. Take that glass of hot milk, and lift your spirits high. Come oh come and take my hand, and I'll show you a world beyond your demands. Little princess across the land, come with me and smile please. Erase those nightmare dreams, because your dreamland needs your prince, come oh come and take that milk, and lift your spirits high. Shower the Earth in its sweets and let it be done and you dream so sweetly."

I let everything go, I didn't sacrifice anything for the sake of the good. I wasn't a hero to those I healed, and I wasn't a lover to a person I love. I wasn't the daughter my parents could be proud of. I didn't do anything. I didn't sacrifice anything, I chose to give it up. I chose to give up my freedom, I sold my freedom to someone who will never understand me, who will love me, and in the future will probably cheat me. Still I can't go back on my words, saying no is so hard. Its easy to think it in your mind, but actually saying it, its harder to do, because you'd feel like you'll let people down and that's the last thing I want to feel.

Placing the small cup of milk on the table, half way empty, I looked at it, and just walked from It. I walked around the quiet house. It's different, usually the house would never be this silence, its nice, peaceful, and warm welcoming for the first time. That's one thing I loved about my grandmother's house, it not only had her love built into the wood, it had my dads. His smile still burns at my memories, even my mother smiled back then too. I walked over to the video shelf where my grandmother held all her movies, each one had its one title.

Dawn of the living dead

Night of terror

Halloween

But there was one, that caught my attention right off the bat.

Daddy's little girl- video journal

YOU need a real MAN

She's daddy's little girl

She spins and she sways to whatever song plays,Without a care in the I'm sittin' here wearin' the weight of the world on my 's been a long day and there's still work to do,She's pulling at me saying "Dad I need you!There's a ball at the castle and I've been invited and I need to practice my dancin'""Oh please, daddy, please!"

"HEY! This is day one of mine and Sayuka's baby being born. Were so happy and blessed that God gave us such an amazing little baby girl." The camera zoomed in on the small little child in Sayuka's arms.

"Come on Tanju get that camera out of Sakura's face." The young woman held a smile on her face while holding the young little enfant in her arms. Tanju smiled as he held the camera on his wife for a few more seconds before turning the camera around to facing himself.

"I can't help it, this should be something to remember, the day my little princess is born. I'm the happiest man alive."

So I'll dance with CinderellaWhile she is here in my arms'Cause I know something the prince never knewOh I'll dance with CinderellaI don't wanna miss even one song, Cuz all too soon the clock will strike midnight And she'll be gone

"Hey everyone that is watching this, my baby girl Sakura just turned five years old! Its her birthday today isn't that right pumpkin?" Tanju had a huge smile on his face, while turning the camera back to his daughter. She had her hair in pigtails, and white dress with little ruffles on the ends, her feet wore small little white shoes.

"I turned five…am I a princess daddy?" Spoke a young Sakura, her eyes glittered, and her smile was small, she was missing her two front teeth, but she still looked adorable.

"Yes Sakura, your daddy's little princess."

"Are you my prince daddy?"

"For now princess, but one day you'll find your princess."

"But I want you to be my prince daddy, your nice."

Her father laughed, and hugged his daughter.

"Hey Sayuka, doesn't Sakura look beautiful?"

"She's my daughter of course my little girl will be beautiful. My little girl is an angel."

She says he's a nice guy and I'd be impressedShe wants to know if I approve of the dressShe says "Dad, the prom is just one week away,And I need to practice my dancin'""Oh please, daddy, please!"

"Dad how does this dress look on me? I want it to look perfect for my date with Sai." Sakura wore a blue gown, with light blue diamond heals, her hair done in curls. And he make up was done perfectly.

"You look beautiful…you look beautiful…just like Cinderella."

"Oh daddy thank you."

"You'll always be daddy's little girl"

So I'll dance with CinderellaWhile she is here in my arms'Cause I know something the prince never knewOhh-oh ohh-oh, I'll dance with CinderellaI don't wanna miss even one song, Cuz all too soon the clock will strike midnight And she'll be goneShe will be gone.

The tears spilled out of my eyes, I couldn't control it. It happened all on its own, only because that was the last video my father ever made. That night, the night I went out with Sai, approximately two hours I left the house, I got call saying that my father had a heart attack. If I had known, if I had known that, that would be the last time I would have seen my father's smile, his laughter, and heard his voice I would have never left. I would have walked out of that out house. A year after that my mother left me, abandoned me and I never saw her again. Not once.

Time had passed by me so fast that I didn't realize it was already morning. I bit my lip, turned off the T.V and walked back into the bedroom before Sai could wake up, I don't want to get hit again. That's the last thing I'd want. When I walked into the room Sai was already sitting up with his back against the bed post. His eyes were closed, and his hands were crossed over his chest, his bottom lip tucked in under his upper. I could tell he was biting it, and behind his eye lid he was glaring. I was scared, and once again I found myself wishing Sasuke would come.

"Uh- um…Good morning honey…" I spoke out nervously gulping down a chunk of salvia. Sai said nothing, just look down. He was now revealing the biting of his lower lip, he was thinking of something. That's how Sai is when he has something on his mind. Oh boy, this is going to be some news I know it.

"Sakura, I was thinking. Why not we get married Friday?" It was right then, right there. With me standing by the entry of our bedroom, and Sai sitting on our bed, the room pitch dark. The time was about eight Monday morning, and now I Sakura Haruno had no choice but to say yes.

"Sure. Why all of sudden?" I asked trying my hardest to hide my shock. I used to hate Mondays because it was always the beginning of the week, and now I despise Mondays more than ever, because of this one little incident. I know that my once love for Fridays will now be shot hell all because Friday I will no longer be known as Sakura Haruno. (I don't know Sai's last name so I'm going with Yamato ha). After Friday I'll be known as Sakura Yamato, I was suppose to be overjoyed, but Sasuke's face keeps haunting me.

"I want you as my wife as soon as possible. I won't let anyone take your heart from me." He was concerned. Nothing could ever escape Sai's eye. He knew. Yes I know he knew, he knew that my heart doesn't lay in his hands anymore. I watched with narrowed eyes as Sai removed himself from our bed and walked over to me. His hands cupped face, bringing me to eye level, my feet were tip toed. Sai's right thumb brushed my cheek tenderly, before kissing me roughly.

Disgusting…

My lower lip is out of control.

My hands are digging into

Your soul

"Itachi…what are you doing here in the office?" I asked my brother curious as to what he was doing in my office. He would never enter such a place without having good reasons. For him to be in my office was interesting, he was planning something, because only my brother would enter a place without telling me only if he was going to do something.

"Nothing, don't worry about it. I was just sending out a few emails to some friends, and making a few phone calls is all. I need to find something. Nothing to do big, and certainly nothing to worry about." He was working hard on something, I could tell because his eyes seemed really focused, what was he trying to find exactly? I nodded giving my consent that he could be here, before leaving the office. I had no time to waste on my brother I had to find Sakura as fast as I could, so I raced down the stares, and right when got to the door.

"Sasuke." I heard Itachi call out my name from the top of the stairs. I didn't turn around, I stood there feet planted on the ground, eyes narrowing at the doorway. The sounds of heal clicking was heard making me aware that Itachi was leading himself down the stairway.

"I'm going to go get her, and drag her back." I answered after a short pause.

"Oh. So your planning to just appear out of no where, and bring her back like that?" I know when Itachi was mocking me. And right now that was exactly what he was doing. He was mocking me like he always would.

"Yes."

"What about her fiancée? You actually think he's going to allow you take her away from him? Come on Sasuke think. What do you think will happen?" I was sure that Itachi was going to come over to where I was and hit me across the head or something like he usually does. However, instead he just walked passed me, patting me on the shoulder.

"Good luck little brother." That was my cue, the doors opened, and my body sprang forward into a spring to my silver Mercedes.

A Lover that Loves,

That's the with the Laughter,

what an Ecstatic disaster

"WHAT? What doe you mean she's not here?" I hissed at the front desk attendant. I was sure that Mondays, Wednesdays, Thursdays, Fridays, and Saturdays were her work days. My head was spinning I didn't know where else to look. I bit my lip out of frustration, asking once again as politely and patiently as I possible could to the girl where Sakura was.

"Um well…" The girl hesitated.

"I'm sorry she's not here." Another person came into view. I turned my gaze to the tall black hair woman, wearing her white long doctors coat buttoned up. She had glasses on, and she looked to be in her early thirties. She walked around the desk, placing the black folder that was in her hand down by her right side. She looked at me with an authority like stare.

"Do you know where she is?" Apparently this woman had answers, and I was hoping this woman would be a little less complicated.

"Well yes. Apparently her fiancée wants to be married by the end of the week." That was all it took to shatter the last defense I had in my heart. I felt like I was hit by an eighteen wheeler going ninety miles hour, the just ran into the side building of H.E.B.

"Poor thing, she walked in this morning around nine telling us that she was leaving to Jamaica to marry that idiot, cold blood bastard Sai. Well to be honest Sakura didn't look all that thrilled, I mean I known Sakura ever since she first started training under Tsunade. Poor thing, anyway she's going to Jamaica, her flight should have left by now."

"Do you know where there staying at in Jamaica?"

"I believe it was at the Rondel Village area, there staying there and getting married at the Royal Plantation place in Ocho Rios this Friday around eleven."

As soon as she finished telling me everything, I didn't even thank her I just bolted right out of the hospital. I had to get to her I had to get to Sakura. I know she was making a mistake, and I know I'll be making one as well if I didn't stop her from going.

Its not worth The Time.

Or worth The YOUR MOUTH &&

Be a dear - I don't want You..

We been on the plane for an hour already, we'll be arriving in Jamaica in about four hours. Sai had been asleep since the moment we entered plane. He must have been tired. I was a little bit concerned since Sai is rarely ever tired. Ever since we were young he was always full energy. I brushed a few strands of his hair out of his face, seeing him sleeping with that painful expression on his face.

He's having a nightmare…

If my father was still alive maybe he would have been the perfect father figure for Sai, so maybe just maybe right now Sai wouldn't be sleeping with that painful expression on his face. Dad…what would you do if you were in my place? And drifting off into my dream world I went.

"Sakura…Sakura…Sa-Ku-Ra" I shifted around a bit, before opening my eyes. I found my self in a cloudy space of some sort. There was nothing in site, no buildings, not cars, no people, no plane, and no Sai. Where the heck am I? I asked myself looking around.

"Sakura come on now. My daughter is no slacker wake up" I blinked a couple of times, wondering if the voice I was hearing was real. It couldn't be it just couldn't be real. Its impossible. That voice belonged to no one other than…

"Come on Sakura how long are you going to make me wait?" It was my fathers voice. I felt like I was going to pass out, my heart ached, and my head began to hurt. There right in front of me was my father, looking the same as he did all those years ago. My dad calling out my name, calling out for me.

"Dad? Its impossible…" I whispered nervously. My dad smiled and bent to his knees looking at me right in the eyes.

"Baby girl, nothing is impossible. I might not be there physically to help you out baby girl, but I'll always be in your heart. Now baby girl, for you dream me up, must mean that your in some serious trouble. Or you just missed your old man so much you wanted to see me again right?" I laughed. Just like my dad to joke around.

"So tell me princess what's on your mind." I bit my lip and stared at my dad.

"You remember Sai right?" I asked cautiously immediately I saw my dads body stiffen.

"Your still with that sick minded boy Haruno Sakura?" My dad hissed, I flinched, and nodded.

"UGH, Haruno Sakura I told you once, and I told you twice back when I was alive, that-that boy is trouble with a capital T. He made you suffer even way back when you were a young one. You'd think that you'd grow a brain and leave the boy and find someone that actually does love you." My father ranted on and on. Yep this was my father all right.

"Dad, listen to me. I did I found someone that I love, and I think he loves me too." I cried out cutting my father off from his constant ranting. My father stopped talking for a moment and took the time to listen to me.

"But I don't know if I can leave Sai, I made that promise to him that I'd stay by his side until the day we die. I was happy with Sai, and able to stand the beatings once in a while, until the day Sasuke walked into my life and ah my life is so complicated right now dad, and I don't know what I'm going to do." I heard my dad laugh when I finished talking, he got closer to me, patted me on the head and smiled.

"Oh my dear, there nothing complicated what so ever about your life. It's only complicated because you make complicated. You know when I met your mother she was already engaged to someone else. She loved him. His name was Fugaku Uchiha."

"Wait Fugaku Uchiha? Did he end up marrying a woman named Mikoto?" My father looked at me and blinked a few times before answering.

"Yes. He met Mikoto a month after your mother left him for me. He said it was like he fell in love all over again. The point is Sakura that even though you leave Sai for the man you love, Sai will be able to find someone that he would actually love. Even if it takes six months, a years, three years. He'll find someone. Don't be a sacrifice for something that doesn't require a sacrifice. In the end my dear everything will find its place and you'll be happy just wait it out."

"But dad how can you be so sure I mean…" I was cut off.

"I'm your dad aren't I? So trust me. I'm your daddy, and I'll never stir your wrong honey bun." I looked down and walked over to my dad, giving him a big hug. I wanted to cry, because I know when I wake up my father will still now be here.

"I miss you daddy. I miss you so much and your hugs." My father hugged me back just as tightly.

"I miss you to princess, and I'm never to far away. You're my little girl, and I'm always watching out for you. Just keep your eye out for those signs. I love you princess, and remember you'll always be daddy's little girl."

It felt like my body was rushing at a hundred miles per hour, because the next thing I knew I was waking up to Sai's violent shaking. I groaned and looked up, to see Sai glaring down at me.

"Jesus Sakura I been calling your name for awhile now, why didn't you wake up? Were here already, get your stuff."

I sighed.

OH NO! Sakura is already in Jamaica? What will happen?

"So this is the place where we'll be married?"

Hurry Sasuke there isn't much time.

"Do you know what kind of mistake your making?"

Will Sasuke make it in time? Find out next time on the final chapter of YOU need a real MAN.

"STOP! STOP THE WEDDING!"