Meh. Just a oneshot I thought of about how Leafpool felt when she first met Breezepaw. I'm not a Leaf x Crow fan (trust me, I'm not. I hate this pairing) but I just thought I might do this.
Disclaimer: I don't own Warriors. If I did Tigerstar would be alive and Firestar would die. Also Tallstar would've died a long time ago!
What have we come to? A complete end in the path of love, like a log in the middle of a river, causing the river to stop flowing? I thought we could get to know each other, and maybe have kits…
I'd seen you at a few Gatherings in the past when I was an apprentice. I'd seen you watching Feathertail like nothing else mattered. You really loved Feathertail. But when that fateful day came when you rescued me from the cliff…it seemed like I was only your second choice. Like if there weren't any rabbits you'd just have to be stuck with the magpie.
But as I got to know you, as we went on with our nightly meetings…I seemed more important to you. I wanted you to know me more than I knew myself. I wanted to run away together and start a new life, together…together.
Together.
That's the key word here.
Together.
The word rang in my ears as I raced down the moor with you by my side, your amber eyes gleaming with love and determination…I loved that moment more than I loved being a medicine cat. More than…I loved Squirrelflight. Or Firestar, or Sandstorm.
That night you stared up at the stars restlessly. You sent up a silent prayer: "Feathertail…please don't be jealous. Leafpool is…the one for me. I love Leafpool. I can't possibly give her up. Please, Feathertail…forgive me…" Then you slowly drifted off to sleep.
So that's how you felt about me. You wanted to make sure Feathertail wasn't jealous…of me? Of any cats who could be in love…
But then I heard the news.
"One of our queens, Nightcloud, has had one healthy kit, Breezekit," Onestar announced at the Gathering. "Our proud father is Crowfeather." My belly lurched. He must be mistaken, I had thought. He must mean another cat. Crowfeather wouldn't have kits with another she-cat…would he?
You did. I saw you sit up tall, amber eyes gleaming with pride. My heart cracking open, I stared at my paws. I hate myself!
That one day when I saw you racing across the moor with a light brown she-cat was a terrible day. But that cat wasn't you. He was identical to you in every way-smoky black fur, gleaming amber eyes…except smaller.
Who is this? I wondered. "Breezepaw, see if you can catch me!" the longhaired brown she-cat called.
Right. Breezepaw. Your one and only son.
"I bet I can, Heatherpaw!" Breezepaw called. They scampered along the moorland; sand skidding underneath their heels. "I'm catching up!" Breezepaw shouted. Heatherpaw speeded. "No, you're not!"
That moment I believed that you truly loved someone else. Nightcloud. No, I'm not jealous. Why would I be? I've had much better times with you than her. I'm happy for you, Crowfeather. Deep down inside I feel pride. Proud of you, proud of Nightcloud and Breezepaw. Proud of me. I knew we made the right decision when we went back to the Clans. I never could've had kits with you. If only I weren't a medicine cat…if only…
Yeah, I know, great ending. Don't worry; I'm just being sarcastic. This was quite fun, actually. Sorry, I can't remember if Crowfeather and Leafpool ran away when Leafpool was an apprentice or a warrior. I checked Twilight and Starlight but I couldn't find anything. Oh well, mistakes happen…
xx-Starfall-xx