A/N: Hi!! Thank you to those who didn't think my chapter was ENTIRELY awful… :) Due to several reviews asking for a more in-depth look at Jesse's jealousy, here is a short chapter of Jess trying to sort through his feelings. THEN we will get the big exciting climax chapter. :)
FIFTEEN SWEET THINGS
Chapter 4:
Confused
Before Leslie fell of the wall in the courtyard, Jesse Aarons had the mind to go and talk to her. Maybe she could help him figure out this unnatural rage, this, jealousy. Why was he having it, though? Why was he angry at another boy for liking Leslie, for Leslie liking that boy?
For Leslie liking that boy.
Jess shivered, his fists tightened. Leslie liking a boy.
He had never thought this far. He had never imagined Leslie-Leslie Burke-liking a boy. He had never pictured her turning out like Brenda and Ellie, only concerned with makeup and clothes and boys and such. It made him feel ill, nauseous, and dizzy with worry.
Was he losing his best friend?
Did she not trust him anymore?
Why was he acting like this?
Why was he mad at Leslie when she had no idea about that day…
Jess felt as though somebody had dumped a pail of icy water over his head. That day…
That day that was so busy lurking in his thoughts, that had always been there, that day he tried to deny.
That Friday in the rain.
The day before Leslie fell into the creek some two years ago. She had been alright, (Jess had saved her.) but neither of the friends had ever forgotten it. And so the previous day haunted him, lurking, replaying in his head…
Could this be why he was angry? Was he angry at Leslie for not telling him her secret, when he had risked his life for her?
Yes, that was it, he decided. Anger, hurt and nothing more.
Now, if Jesse were to tell this information to a psychologist, or even his father, the adults would most likely smile. This wasn't anger the boy was dealing with. This wasn't even worry of loosing his best friend.
He was jealous because he thought the girl he was in love with liked another boy.
A/N: Told you it was short. And probably pointless, too. Tell me if this gave you an insight on Jess's jealousy or not, please!