Frozen

Disclaimer:I don't own neither characters, they belong to Kazuki Takahashi, nor Madonna's "Frozen" nor Within Temptation's "Frozen" nor AFI's "Endlessly, she said"

Summary:Usual-Kaiba's and Joey's thoughts.

Hope you'll enjoy it!

It's shonen-ai, that means boy-boy love. You know the rest-If you don't like, don't read.

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Rating:T

FROZEN

Joey's POV

'You only see what your eyes want to see…'

You know me only as a mutt. You've never tried to know me better. You have chosen to see all my negative sides, to behave as if I'm a dog. You only see you're the best in everything, you're perfect. But haven't you ever asked yourself if you're wrong? You're just human, as all of us are. You're made from flesh and blood as well.

'…How can life be what you want it to be…'

And you think everything's gonna be what you want. But look! Open your eyes and face with the facts! People want to be your friends. Yugi, Tristan, Tea, Duke, Bakura…I. All of us want to be your friends. And you're rejecting us like the pieces of trash. Will you open your eyes and finally see who your real friends are and who's only pretending?! Can't you see a person you can rely on, right in front of you? Will you ever stop refer it to as a Mutt?

'…You're frozen when your heart's not open…'

I know, I know… Many people betrayed you in past or at least tried so. Your fears are justified. But you'll never find someone different if you don't try. You'll die alone like an abandoned dog. I don't say I'm the right person, but…You don't know if you don't try I guess. And all of people know you as a cold-hearted. I know you as a cold-hearted bastard. Why don't you let me into your world for just a sec? Maybe, just maybe I could change your point of view. Let me in as a friend because I want it to become to you. Sometimes I wonder how come you never freeze when you're producing so much coldness. And I can see ice in your eyes. I can see thousand layers of ice and mistrust. I know, dear, how much you suffered from a human's hand and how protective you are now. But if you keep closing your heart for ones that really want you all the best, how could you carry on this? Knowing you're unloved you can. But you're not. Open it to me…Please…Just to peek in for a tiny little moment…I swear I won't hurt you. I swear in my sister's life. And you know how much she means to me. As much as your sibling means to you.

'…You're so consumed with

How much you get.

You waste your time

With hate and regret.

You're broken

When your heart's not open…'

You're too busy hating people and despising them. How about turning to love? Mokuba said to me he was very concerned with you. He said he thought you were playing dumb when you have said you'd never let anybody into your world. That was the time when he asked you would you ever fall in love. He knows you too well. He might be a little boy, but he's smart for his age, you have to admit. But the truth is you feel hurt. You suffer and desperately want a person who you can count on. Well, here I am. Try me, and if you're not satisfied, drop me, insult me, hit me like master kicks his dog when he's not behaving. Just please stop being screwed. I know you are. Mokuba told me. And I told him how I feel about you. At first I was mad at myself because of my feelings, but I learned to live with them, I suppose…

'…MMM, if I could melt your heart,

MMM, we'd never be apart…'

He told me you felt affectionate to someone as well. I know it can't be me. You…hate me. And it hurts. But, please, let me into your world…Maybe I could change a thing, Seto. Let me in…as a friend, at least…Let me melt the ice and put a smile on your delicious lips (I assume they are). Just imagine us not fighting and arguing. Respect me and I'll be loyal forever. As a dog, if you prefer.

'…MMM, give yourself to me.

MMM, you hold the key…'

What bothers to try? I'll give you the universe and seek for a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow…I'll play fetch, humiliate myself…I'll, I'll… I never knew with the words…Anyway, whatever makes you happy. And remember Davey's verses in 'Endlessly, she said':

'Still each time I always meant

Every word, every one…'

So, everything's up to you.

'…Now there's no point in

Placing the blame.

And you should know

I suffer the same.

If I lose you,

My heart will be broken…'

And if you decide to reject me, I won't be fine. I'll die. But that doesn't matter. I would never force you or blackmail you. Just do what you consider right. Remain fateful to your harsh principles. Remain the coldest person in the universe. Remain bastard, never care for others.

…Love is a bird,

She needs to fly.

Let all the hurt

Inside you die.

You're frozen

When your heart's not open.'

But let me tell you something: if you don't let love inside, you'll never know how it would look like.

Yes, yes, I know how you have been hurt in past, but…Drop it…Leave it behind…I know it will be tough, but at least try…

It's an advice. I'm proposing myself, but it's up to you to choose. It's all up to you…Whether you're going to step on my heart or accept it.

Seto's POV

'I can't feel the senses

I just feel the cold…'

As I always felt. How come Wheeler and his geek squad cannot understand I don't want them nearby? How can I trust them? What actually they can offer me? Friendship? What is that? I never wanted to know. I'm too busy and I'm aiming much more higher to care about human sentimentality and community groups such as groups of friends…

'…All colours seem to fade away…'

But still, I don't feel complete. When I remain alone at the end of a day, tucked in my warm bed I realize how much he's actually cold. No one beside me to warm me and…well…Love me. Someday I'll regret for what I'm doing. I'm pushing people away. Yes, I have everything. I have money, power, beauty…But my past hurts and I feel scars in my soul burning every time I remember…Mum!...Dad!...accidents, betrayal, my endless disbelief in people and mankind. Although I have everything, I have nothing…

'…I can't reach my soul

I would stop running

If I knew there was a chance…'

I represent myself as a cold person. I'm aiming to be it. But I can't. No matter how much I try to suffocate emotions, they always manage to survive and carry on spreading and burning my scars. I am in love with someone. I'm in love with a person that I thought I hated. But, you know what people say about the thin line between love and hate…

People are used to my distance and coldness…But not that geek squad and that mutt that I'm so hardly falling for. They always criticize my behavior, they can't make up with the fact I am ruthless, evil, cold-hearted bastard that is only interested in perfection. They just can't keep away from me. Especially Wheeler. And his gaze is killing me. It seems that he cares. I can see that in his eyes sometimes, when we argue. I can see pain and silent begging for something I can hardly understand. Something that might be love….But who could actually love me? I'm constantly pushing people away. How come Wheeler is so stubborn?

'…But I'm forced to let go

Tell me I'm frozen

But what can I do?

Can't tell the reasons

I did it for you

When lies turn into truth

I sacrifice for you…'

Oh, how I wish to reveal my feelings towards him! But that's impossible. I see him crash in front of me, I see something he wants to say but he always loses his voice, stubbornly keeping it for himself. I told my brother how I feel but I never said that is Wheeler I'm falling for. And recently Wheeler told my brother he was in love with me. My suspicions became true, something that I thought could be lie .but I can't…I'm afraid that we might fall apart…And I'll remain silent…That's the best for all of us. My silence for his freedom. My silence for his happiness. My tears for his laugh. I'd do everything just to protect him from discrimination. I don't want us to be marked. I don't want him to be hated. I already am. So I'll just keep my mouth shut, take the sacrifice hoping he'll understand someday my reasons…

'..You say that I'm frozen

But what can I do?

I can feel your sorrow

(I sacrifice)

You won' forgive me

But I know you'll be alright

It tears me apart

That you will never know

But I have to let go…'

I'm so sorry, Joey. But…I can't. I can't. I'm afraid of how our lives might be ruined. I will take your wounds, just please, promise you'll forgive…Tell me I'm selfish…Maybe we should talk about that, but…I'm a coward.

'…Tell me I'm frozen

But what can I do?

It tears me apart

That you will never know

But I have to let go…'

Tell me I'm frozen

But what can I do?

Can't tell the reasons

I did it for you

When lies turn into truth

I sacrifice for you

You say that I'm frozen

But what can I do?

Everything will slip away

Shattered pieces will remain

When memories fade

Into emptiness

Only time will tell its tale

If it all has been in vain

I can't feel my senses

I just feel the cold

Frozen

But what can I do?

Frozen

Tell me I'm frozen

But what can I do?

Can't tell the reasons

I did it for you

When lies turn into truth

I sacrifice for you

You say that I'm frozen

Frozen'