The Secret Chapter 18
Apology: Due to the sudden and unexpected death of an immediate family member, I've been finding it really difficult to motivate myself to do anything lately, especially writing. I guess I'm still in shock as I've not been myself these past few months at all. I'm so sorry this final chapter has been delayed for this long, but please understand and please don't hate me. But I've decided to stop moping around and I'm trying to dig myself out of this rut I'm stuck in by doing the things I enjoy again. So I'm going to start by getting The Secret finished and start on another story I've been planning for ages now. Once again, I'm so sorry, please forgive me. I hope this chapter makes up for everything! I tried to make it as lemony as possible.
Disclaimer: I don't own Sasuke, Itachi or Kakashi and I never will.
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"I thought I already made my feelings clear, that's an hour and a half of my life I'm never going to get back…" Itachi sighed and folded his arms in annoyance as he walked his younger brother home. "You are never getting to choose the film again, I don't care how much brotherly neglect and shit I have to make up for, but your taste in movies is horrible! I mean worse than horrible…"
"Just because the movie didn't have any naked women, buildings collapsing, car chases and things going BOOM does not make it crap or horrible! And I happen to like romantic comedies, plus it got great reviews in the paper so shut the hell up!"
"Yeah, because the author was a woman…you've been hanging around Kakashi too long, he's turned you soft. You used to be cool, Sasuke."
"I said shut up!" the younger boy cried back in response, his fists tensing into a tight grasp.
"You should come around to my place; I'll help you redeem your reputation and your gender. I have a fantastic stash of…"
"No way you sick, disgusting bastard! I don't want to set foot anywhere near your house or your dirty pervert movies!"
At that moment the front door of the house they arrived at opened wide.
"Take him, Kakashi, please! I've had enough of him today to last a lifetime!" Itachi gasped and pushed the younger boy into the older man's arms.
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(Kakashi's point of view…)
"Hi Kakashi!" he smiles and instinctively wraps his arms around me, and I don't hesitate to return the embrace.
"Oh yeah, fine, you behave for him," Itachi growls and folds his arms in mock annoyance.
"He takes care of me and you don't, so I don't have to do a damn thing you say!" Sasuke shouts as he slips his hand into mine.
"Yeah, alright, whatever," Itachi smiles and reaches over to ruffle his little brother's hair, "So you still want to hang out again tomorrow? There's a great little café not far from here, we could go there and have breakfast and you can bore me to death with your conversation."
"Stop patting my head, I'm not a dog!" Sasuke cries, his tone brimming with fake annoyance as he playfully shoves his brother's hand away. "Of course! What time?"
"I'll see you at ten."
"Ok! Thank you for taking me to the movies!" he slides his hand from mine and turns around to give Itachi a hug.
"Yeah, ok, see you tomorrow," Itachi smiles and returns the cuddle.
I chose to pretend I didn't hear anything and let them get on with it, they do seem to argue a lot and I can never tell if they're being serious. Anyway, it's not long before Sasuke kicks off his shoes and makes his way into the living room, leaving me and Itachi at the front door.
"No need to thank me for the few hours of peace and quiet I enabled you to enjoy," Itachi sighs and once again folds his arms.
"Thanks…" I reply, secretly annoyed that Itachi had taken Sasuke away for so long. As pathetic as it sounds, I don't know what to do with myself when Sasuke isn't around, I really do miss him, but then again I have to learn to share. I know it's been a long time since these two have been together so I'll just have to accept that Sasuke is going to want to spend a lot of time with his older brother… or, well, at least until the novelty dies off, which I'm hoping is soon.
"So we'll see you then tomorrow," I smile just as I'm about to close the door, thoughts of cuddling up with the younger boy on the sofa invading my mind.
"I know you're sleeping with him, Kakashi," Itachi growls, suddenly snapping me from my Sasuke-induced daydream.
"What! Who?" I gasp, my mind still not working properly. How the hell does he know that? I mean I don't act couple-y with Sasuke in public or anything like that and I'm sure Sasuke wouldn't have told him.
"My little brother."
"I… I… mean… I … he…"
"It's alright though," Itachi suddenly pipes up, his previous aggressive tone quickly vanishing only to be replaced by a warm smile. "Gin may have let a few things slip, but you guys have my approval. Although there is just one important thing…" his eyes squint angrily at me as that uncomfortable feeling rapidly returns to the pit of my stomach. I gulp.
"If you break his heart, I'll break your legs."
"Um… ok…" I squeak, completely sure that Itachi's threat is more than likely sincere. "I won't…"
"Great! See you later Kakashi!" he waves at me as he walks away down the drive way leaving me wondering what the hell I've gotten myself into. So Gin let a few things slip then… typical, he never could keep a secret.
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Sasuke cuddles up next to me as soon as I sit down on the sofa beside him and instinctively I wrap an arm around him and pull him closer. After everything he's been through it makes me so happy to see that he's recovering well. He's not afraid of affection like I thought he might be, in fact most of the time he's purring around me like a cat in heat, not that I'm complaining or anything mind you.
"Do you think my taste in movies is crap, Kakashi?" he asks as he rests his head against my chest.
"No, you like some good stuff."
"Some good stuff?" he looks up at me with an eyebrow partially raised.
He's so cute; I could take him just now.
"Well, with the exception of your chick-flick fetish, you've got some decent stuff hidden away there…"
"Oh! You sound just like him!" Sasuke cries, backing away just out of my reach and pointing his finger directly at me.
"It's alright though, I won't tell anybody. Your secret is safe with me," I grin.
"Oh my God! What is it? Destroy Sasuke's soul day? You're both as bad as each other." He folds his arms and backs further away to the other end of the sofa in a huff. After getting to know him better, I can tell he's not being serious about it. It's just his way of getting attention because he knows once he turns his back on me; I can't help myself but to lavish more and more interest upon him.
"Ok, I'm sorry. You have wonderful taste in movies. How can I make it up to you for not believing sooner?" I smile as I creep ever closer towards him, and it's not long before I have my arm around him once again. He immediately relaxes into my embrace and rests his head against my chest, his fingers playing with a few loose strands of my hair. The sensation sends a pleasurable tingle throughout my body, instantly making me crave more.
"Well…" he smirks. "There is one thing…"
"What's that?"
"This…"
Without warning, he places his lips against mine and it doesn't take me long to work out what he's after. I accept this kiss and after a few light touches, open my mouth to allow him entry, our tongues entwine and dance together in a gentle, unified rhythm. Fuck! He tastes so good. My heart immediately starts to beat faster, just like it does every time we share something special like this. Sasuke is mine now, no one else will ever have this privilege I'm experiencing just now, and kissing him like this marks him definitely as my own. The kiss becomes needier, hungrier as I pull him towards me into a straddling position, his back arching gracefully in an attempt to close the gap between us fully. The contact spreads a chill of goosebumps dashing across my skin and immediately I long for more. The pleasing feeling intensifies as I feel the light touch of his hands wrapping around my neck, entwining in my hair and causing my heart to race just that little bit faster once again. This could become too much, too fast and I secretly curse him for having this affect on me as I feel the crotch area of my jeans start to tighten. But I have grown to depend on it more and more each time. Sasuke is like my drug.
He moans quietly as I break away from the kiss, maintaining the contact with him, but beginning to place soft, gentle kisses along his neck, shoulders and jaw-line instead. His head tilts back elegantly as more of those beautiful, enticing sounds escape from his mouth.
"mmm… Kakashi…" he whispers quietly, his voice low and ever so encouraging. I don't think I could stop right now even if I wanted too.
It's not long before I slide a hand under his t-shirt to rouse those small pink nipples of his, my efforts rewarded with another velvety purr, total music to my ears. I continue to lick, kiss and nip at the pale, sensitive skin of his shoulders and neck, at this point desperate to undress him to get more contact with his smooth, milky white skin underneath. I pull at his t-shirt slightly and immediately he takes the hint. Moving away briefly, he pulls the garment over his head and tosses it unceremoniously to the floor, he's just as eager to get back to where we left off as I am.
My heart almost skips a beat as his chest and stomach is bared before me, and I can't help but push him back onto the sofa where I can reach every part of him better. I take a moment or two to admire him. He's much healthier and that once, overly delicate frame now has filled out, even acquiring a little muscle tone on his arms and stomach. He's undeniably beautiful as he lies there underneath me, chest bare and starring directly into my eyes. A slight smirk is barely visible as a few strands of that raven black hair fall across his angelic, feminine face. It's like he knows I can't resist him, but I can't so I won't deny it.
But suddenly the happy glow starts to fade from his eyes, causing my heart to drop from the high of before. God, I hate that look but I know what's coming. I can read it from his expression.
"It's horrible," he sighs, breaking the eye contact as he covers his bullet scar with his hand. "Every time I look at it, it reminds me of him…"
"Sasuke…" I sigh; wrapping my arms around him and pulling him close once again. "That's in the past now, he's gone. He can't hurt you anymore."
"I know… it's just… I… I don't know… I guess escaping from him isn't really that easy for me. "
"Well, I'd be dead if it wasn't for you Sasuke and so would Itachi," I smile, trying my best to comfort him. "You took a damned bullet for me kiddo! Maybe it's time you stopped associating the scar with… him. Things couldn't have ended a lot differently. You pretty much saved the day by doing what you did, even though I'm still mad at you for risking your life like that!"
"hmppph…" he responds, his warm breath radiating against my neck. "Maybe you're right…"
My heart beat speeds up again as I feel his soft lips press against my neck, that pleasurable tingle spreads to every part of my body once again.
"Do you want to continue?" I ask him half panting, I want to make sure he's alright but I pray to God he says yes, it's so hard to resist him. I'll have to go take a cold shower for an hour and possibly die from hypothermia if he says no.
To my relief he nods and continues with what he was doing before.
"Do you want to take this to the bedroom?"
He nods again, and it's not long before I slide my hand into his and lead the way upstairs.
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(Still Kakashi's point of view)
Unbuttoning my shirt as quickly as I can, I hurl the restrictive garment to the other side of the room, not caring where it happens to land. Sasuke lies on the bed sheets before me, his eyes taking in every part of my body. I can feel him staring, but I don't mind at all. I'm rather proud of my toned, muscular body. I worked damn hard to get it this way.
I can still feel Sasuke's eyes upon me as I unzip my trousers and slide out of them and my underwear, tossing them over somewhere near the shirt. The smile returns to his face and I know what he's thinking. It's written all over his face. That look is enough to get me hard on its own. He puts up no resistance as I pull him up towards me and place my mouth against those irresistible pink lips.
After everything the boy has been though, I'm surprised that he lets me do this to him and that he's perfectly comfortable with it too. I guess that means he trusts me. That wonderful thought prompts me into deepening the kiss as I savour every second of his taste, our tongues entwining once again while my hands explore his upper body with eager, yet gentle touches. I want this feeling to last forever. My heart races with anticipation as I push him back down onto the bed, his head tilting to the side to allow better access to his neck and shoulders when I break from this kiss and move to different areas. He moans underneath me as I work my way down his chest and stomach, stopping only to encircle his hardened nipples with my mouth and tongue.
"mmm… don't stop Kakashi…" he moans again, his eyelids half shut and his head still tilted to the side as his chest rises and falls rapidly in eagerness of what he knows is coming next. I'm hard now just looking at him, he's so beautiful and those restless movements below me could send me over the edge without even having to touch him. Nobody has ever had this much of an affect on me, and I doubt anybody else ever will. I wonder if he knows what he does to me, but one look into those revealing dark eyes of his, and that all too familiar smirk gracing his features… yes, he knows damn well what he's doing. I'm sure of it. He's certainly not as innocent as he looks.
Sliding my hands down past this slender waist, I eventually reach his trousers. Slowly I unbutton them and slide them down to his ankles, underwear and all. It isn't long before he has them kicked off and left in a bundle on the floor. He's fully naked before me now, and what a beautiful sight it is. I could sit and stare at him like this for hours, but a less than subtle cough snaps me out of my daydream.
"Sorry!" I grin, immediately turning my attention to his hardening erection.
"Oh God…" he gasps as I take a long lick of his length, stopping to lick and kiss at the sensitive top, using my tongue to stimulate the tip and other areas that he usually responds too. He gasps again as I use my hands to work the shaft and his testicles too. Looking up before I take him fully into my mouth, I can see his head pleasingly tilted back as his chest rises and falls much more rapidly now. His movements become ever restless and my heart slams against the inside of my chest almost painfully just watching him. I love pleasuring him like this, even more than I enjoy it when he pleasures me in return. I'm not sure why, but I prefer lavishing him with the attention and watching him moan and writhe on the bed sheets in pure lust, rather than receiving it myself. Of course I enjoy it too, Sasuke has a skilled tongue, but I just love the sound of him crying out my name as he comes. I dream of making love him though, but up to this point Sasuke hasn't wanted to go any further than oral sex, but that's fine with me. I certainly don't want to rush him, so I'm happy enough to take things at his pace. After all he's been through I'd never push him or try to make him do anything he wouldn't be comfortable with.
As I work my way up and down his erection, the taste of pre-cum fills my mouth, reminding me of how much I like to savour his taste, how much I crave him. He close now, it won't be much longer until he…
"Kakashi…" he pants, almost having to force the words out of his mouth. "Stop! Please! I'm going to…"
Immediately I come off his erection, very puzzled but not wanting to continue if he's not happy with it. I glance at him with a confused look.
"But isn't that what you want?" I ask. "I always suck you until you come."
"No, not today… not yet anyway," that smile returns to his face as he looks back at me with those hazy half-closed eyes, his breath still coming in slight pants. Oh Fuck… that image alone is more than enough to send me to climax, it will be permanently burned into my mind… I'll make sure of it.
"What do you mean?"
"Kakashi… I want you to fuck me."
"What?" my eyes pop open. Well, I did not see that one coming; Sasuke hasn't even so much as hinted that he's ready to go further. "Is that what you want?"
"Yes," he smiles. "I'm ready, I trust you Kakashi. I know you won't hurt me." He looks back at me with sincerity in his eyes.
"I mean really? You're really sure!"
"Yes, I want too. Please fuck me, don't make me beg."
"Well ok," I reply, my heart in my mouth. "If that's what you want, but if at any point you want me to stop, or if I'm hurting you, just say and I'll pull out immediately."
"Ok."
Leaving him lying there for a moment, I reach over to a cabinet and pull out a small tube that I've been keeping there, well, you know, just in case. When I return I kneel on the sheets and he kneels beside me, sliding one leg over mine so that he's in a straddling position. He spreads his legs as wide as he can over mine and rests his head against my shoulder. I can't help a moan escaping from my mouth as I feel his erection pressed up and grinding gently against mine, the sensation sends a wave of pleasure throughout my body as my badly neglected length finally gets some much needed attention. Without warning he starts to lick and suck at the sensitive skin of my neck and my hands start to shake as I squirt the contents of the tube onto my fingers. A few loose strands of his hair glide across my skin, adding to the wonderful feeling creating waves of goosebumps now taking over my body. I love having him this close to me, his warmth so near. I take a second to appreciate how this could never have been if things hadn't worked out the way they did. Everyday I'm thankful to have him with me.
"Sasuke, I'm going to prepare you just now, so make sure you relax," I whisper as I run a finger alongside his opening. He doesn't say anything, but I feel him relax more in my arms as he continues to rest his head against my shoulder, his arms wrapped around my neck. Holding him as if he was made of porcelain, I carefully slide a finger inside him, slowly at first to let him get used to the uncomfortable feeling. He lets out a gasp, his warm breath radiating against my skin, as I insert another finger and move them around to stretch and prepare him from the inside. After a few moments I insert a third finger and he whimpers quietly, tensing up a little.
"Are you alright?" I whisper.
"Yeah… keep going…" he replies.
Doing as he asked, I continue to prepare him, making sure to do as it thoroughly as possible, the whole time trying to find that place deep inside him that will distract him from the discomfort.
Suddenly he gasps and I feel him tighten around me. Yes, there it is. I can't help but smile to myself as I draw another moan from him, causing him to press harder against my erection in return. I don't think I can wait any longer, I've wanted to be inside him for so long now and he's finally ready to let me. My heart beats excitedly in keenness for what is going to come next. My erection is so hard, it's almost painful, I desperately need release and I can imagine it must be the same for Sasuke too.
He gasps as I push him back down onto the covers, the look in his eyes begging me to continue. I coat my own erection with lubricant and get into position, lifting his legs over my shoulders for better access.
"Are you ready?" I ask, and he responds with a nod.
"Yes, please do it, I want this…"
Without any further hesitation, I press the tip of my erection against his opening and slowly push in as carefully as I can. Oh God he feels amazing. I push my way deeper inside him, the whole time watching his face for signs of too much discomfort. He shuts his eyes and bites his lower lip as I push the entire way in. He doesn't tell me to stop, so I continue to sink into his warmth, it won't be long before he starts to enjoy this as much as I am. Still, I have to be careful, I'm terrified of really hurting him. His hot and tight walls feel unbelievable around my throbbing erection as I hold still for a few moments to allow him to get used to me being there.
"Are you ok for me to continue?" I ask him, just wanting to be sure. Once again he replies with a smile and a nod, his arms tightening their grip around by back.
My heart starts to race again; I can't believe this is finally happening; that Sasuke trusts me enough to let me go all the way with him. I start to thrust into him, slowly and carefully. This painfully slow pace is killing me; I desperately want to push hard and deep into him, but not yet.
His head tilts to the side and his nails dig into my back when I finally hit that spot deep inside him. A load moan escapes his mouth, signaling me to move faster. His breath starts to come in gasps and that beautiful chest of his rises and falls in rhythm with his ragged breathing.
"Kakashi… harder…" he gasps, the words almost stuck in his throat.
Responding, I begin to thrust faster, eventually so deep that my balls hit with flesh every time. Sasuke tenses around me, as we work into a rhythm, he's so close, so am I. Oh God I don't want this to end, it can't, not yet. My heart races faster than it ever has before as I experience his heat and hear those wonderful noises, mixed with the occasional swear, flood from his mouth. It's almost too much, but no, not now, I have to prolong this as much as I can. It feels so damn fucking good.
Without warning I quickly pull out of him and he responds by giving me the most annoyed look I think I've ever seen from him yet.
"Kakashi… why did you…"
"Turn around…" I gasp, desperate to enjoy the sensation of entering him all over again. My heart continues to race and I struggle to control my breath as he does what I ask, immediately catching on to what's going to happen next. He doesn't hesitate to spread his legs again once he moves into the new position.
"Fuck…" I cry, as I push into him once more. I'm so close to climax I hope I can make it the entire way in without spilling my seed just yet. He cries out in pleasure as I start to thrust, building up the same speed and rhythm as we had before. He almost screams as I reach down and take his erection into my hand, his breaths coming in the same uncontrollable gasps as mine, sweat starting to form in pools along our skin. This is too much, I can't last any longer. I feel Sasuke start to tense around me, his body becoming almost rigid and his gasps even louder. He screams my name as he comes into my hand, his body shaking as he rides out the last waves of his orgasm. It's not long before I reach climax too, unable to hold back against his warmth, tightness and that sweet sound of his voice crying out my name. My heart feels like it's about to explode as a wave of pleasure engulfs my frame. I can barely breathe and seconds later I come deep inside him with one last hard thrust.
I pull out of him, some of my hot, sticky seed escaping with it. He collapses down onto the sheets and I pretty much fall on top of him. Lying there in silence for a few moments regaining our breath, he crawls over and slides in next to me under my arm. I don't hesitate to wrap it around him and pull him close, savouring the warmth of having him so near me that I enjoy so much.
"Thanks," he gasps as he curls up beside me, his arm reaching across my stomach. "Thank you for everything."
I can't help but smile. God he's beautiful and he's all mine too. Hatake Kakashi you are one lucky son of a bitch. I smile again as I think about how much I've got to look forward too, and how wonderful life is going to be with Sasuke now that nothing will keep us apart. Looking back into his eyes, I'm greeted with a warm smile and a striking glint of hope and happiness. I wonder if he's thinking the same thing. Things are very different now for both of us; something wonderful came out of the mess we accidently found ourselves buried in, even after my life was turned upside down and Sasuke's life almost destroyed. But given the choice, would I go back to how things used to be, before I met Sasuke? No, never. Sasuke gave me something more than anyone else ever could, the truth. Whether he knew it or not at the time, he's changed my life forever. For the better. And everyday I am thankful for that.
The End
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Well, it's finished! Finally! I really hope you guys enjoyed it. Thank you so much for reading The Secret, following it to the end and for tolerating my crap! Also, thank you so much for every single review, favourite and alert this story has received. I appreciate it so much and your kind, encouraging words keep me writing and keep the stories flowing.
NEW STORY!!! I love the Kakashi/Sasuke fandom so much that I don't think I'm ready to leave just yet. I've almost finished the first part of a new fic involving the two of them called "Numb", which as you can imagine with a title like that, it's going to be spilling over the brim with angst and uke Sasuke! Yeah, it's probably going to be the angstiest one yet, because I guess I really enjoy my angst… and lemons, even though I blush like a tomato when I write them. If you are interested in reading my new story, the first chapter will be posted within the next few days, and you will be able to find the link in my profile or else you can Author Alert me. I promise regular updates too if I decide to continue it, no more of this randomness!
Anyway, thank you all again for reading and following my stories! You guys rock!!!
Much love and hugs,
Laura xx