Okay. so this is my new project.
I've had this rabid plotbunny in my head a long time, finally yesterday I go the idea on how to start it.
so here we are. it is only the prologue that will be in first persons view. the rest will be in third person.
This if my first long fic and I'm planning on doing the chapters longer than this.

I should probably mention that it's from Demyx point of view now in the beginning.

Disclaimer: I do not own kingdom hearts in anyway. Heck i just got my hands on my own copy of CoM. xD

Well I think that's it
on with the show.

Enjoy

Saving me

Prologue

I've never been much for the dark. Come to think of it I've always been afraid of it, ever since I was a kid. Of course I really shouldn't be afraid of darkness now, I don't have a heart; I shouldn't be able to feel at all. Still, I sometimes think I do. As Myde I was terribly afraid of darkness. Some people find comfort in it; I just found panic, eyes that really weren't there, monsters lurking in the corners.

Sometimes, after having a bad dream or going through a rough night when I went to the bathroom, I turned the lights of when washing my hands. The only reason for it is that I can't stand facing myself in the mirror.

The only thing it results in is ever so often me panicking, tumbling out the door when I unlocked it in fright. Once I tumbled into Zexion. That was actually a little embarrassing. I mean; he always rambles on and on about the fact that we don't have hearts and we cannot feel.

I know that Zexion. But if we cannot feel, why does it burn and sting so in my chest?
Why do these tears keep on falling? Why am I still so afraid of the dark?

Luxord understands me. He's almost like a big-brother to me; he lets me into his room on some of the long dark nights when I can't sleep. He knows my secrets, my crush on Zexion, my fright of the dark, my fright of thunder (which makes me terribly afraid of Larxene, but who wouldn't be? That girl is a freak.)

He's nice to me, always having some comforting words and I've become really attached to him.

I hate the nights when he's out on a mission. Those nights are almost always worst. It feels so empty and lonely, not having anywhere to turn, the long white corridors of castle Oblivion feeling more hostile than ever. It almost makes me choke on the empty air.

I hate this castle and its residents. The narcissistic pink-haired freak Marluxia, who hangs out with the even freakier wielder of thunder Larxene. Our superior Xemnas and his little pet, freak Saix. Vexen's a creep lurking around down in his laboratory. Xigbar's just weird, using everything and everybody for target-practise.

But some of the people around here can be quite nice. Luxord as I mentioned earlier, Axel's a really nice guy when you get to know him. He can be quite a handful, always up to no good, burning everything he can as the pyro he is. Roxas, his boyfriend can be quite moody, but he's still a nice guy. Zexion's… Zexion. And that says everything. Lexaeus' okay since he's Zexion's friend, even though he scares me sometimes, he seems like a nice guy. Xaldin can be okay at times, when he's at the mood or when Luxord's around, otherwise he can be very absent-minded, not really listening to you, like he was far away in thoughts. Perhaps he's in dreams about having a life, having a heart, being able to feel. Sometimes he's even aggressive.

I'm not really a sad person. I'm actually quite a bundle of sunshine, if you let Luxord describe me. He may be right; I usually try to keep my mind out of the blue, always a smile on my lips. I can't help that reality catches up with me on some nights, or if my nightmares come and hunt me down.

So that it why I'm lying here now, under my bed, tears streaming down my face. My heart is racing in my chest, I hate being alone. I always feel so fragile, like anything could break me.

Somehow I manage to fall asleep on the cold floor with dust bunnies as my only company.

Hope you enjoyed it and I didn't waste your time
Please leave a review and tell me what you think. :D that would make me happy.
I can't promise updates on regular basis but I'm gonna do my best.