Consciousness was returning to him. He could hear the birds' chirping outside the window, but he didn't want to open his eyes yet, although the light that entered through his closed eyelids told him it was time to wake up and return to the Black Order's Headquarters.

…

Alrighty, then, he would wake up…just after he remembered absolutely everything about his successful plan. But before he could even start thinking that, he felt how Yuu's weight lifted off the bed. As he was still eye-closed, he faked being asleep and heard the other teen walking and doing something here and there around the room. Then, he heard him stopping suddenly and felt something like a cloth covering his shoulders. A light click confirmed that Yuu was outside the room and he, Rabi, smiled, finally opening his eye and tucking deeper into the two blankets he had over him.

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Rabi went downstairs, yawning, after a shower, fully dressed with his exorcist coat upon his shoulders and his headband on his neck. He wanted to take breakfast before leaving, so he entered the inn's dinning room…

And the only person there was Kanda Yuu with his exorcist uniform and his long hair cascading freely upon his back as it seemed to be wet.

"Hey, there!" greeted the red-head, smiling widely. Kanda was drinking a cup of tea. The Japanese just looked at him from the corner of his eye and then continued drinking, returning his eyes to the wall where he had his gaze on before he heard the Bookman Junior calling him. He had the plainer expression Rabi had ever seen him wear.

Maybe that was his way of showing how nervous he was because his cheeks were also going pink as the slightly younger teen went nearer him.

"D' you mind if I sit here?" the eye-patched young man insisted. Kanda glared at him, then closed his eyes and answered coldly.

"As though you really mind me saying 'no'… You'll do it anyways" Rabi sighed as he seated in front of him and raised an eyebrow.

"Well, it isn't as though you put up any resistance either…"

That made Kanda blush even more and frown, annoyed. As fast as he could, he found an answer to that (but that really took a while).

"Sure, but when I say no, it's no. And you just kept insisting, baka…"

"Yeah, but if you didn't want it to happen, you could've stopped it when you had the chance. The fact that you didn't just tells me you actually wanted me to go on…and I did…" the blue-eyed exorcist fell silent, gazing at his cup of tea, deeply disgusted. Not with Rabi, but himself as his willpower wasn't as strong as he thought it was. At least it wasn't when it was that re-head the one trying to break though it.

After a moment of tense silence, Rabi went on.

"But…all this is because you feel guilty, innit?" Kanda blinked and looked up at Rabi, who was wearing a nice smile. He didn't answer. The green-eyed boy shrugged. "Well, I understand. And if you don't want me to talk about it again, I won't. We can act as though anything happened. The thing is…" his smile turned slightly bitter "…it's hard to pretend something didn't happen and to live thinking all those memories are just your imagination playing tricks to your mind…" the long-haired teen stared at him, confused. Somehow, he could feel he wasn't talking only about that precise moment.

Meanwhile, Rabi's mind was a mess. He was getting dizzy at his thoughts. He didn0t want to lose Yuu, but also he didn't want to press him up to do something he didn't accept he wanted to do too…

The other thing was he preferred it to stop as fast as it could in case he had to leave the Order with the Panda soon… It was just that he loved Yuu so much and he didn't want to leave him… Not now…

And, surprisingly for him, that path he had already chosen actually hurt him. Because he had to pretend…he had to block out all those wars memories…but also the kind of thoughts and feelings that he didn't want to go away…as friendship…or love…

The red-head sighed once more, immersed in his confusing thoughts. He lost his appetite so he stood up again and said as the smile was still tilting up the corners of his lips:

"I'm picking up my stuff… I'll see you in the train I suppose." He walked away and, before leaving, he added "I'm sorry because I put you in such a strange situation… I never meant to do so. And I just wanted to tell you that I won't say a thing about us anymore…" Rabi was about to leave the dinning room when Kanda finally spoke.

"I'm not…complaining…about that…" he said stiffly. Rabi stopped, surprised at that piece of information "And if I must say so: yeah, I do feel guilty… But we can't do much about that now, can we? Besides, feeling guilty doesn't always mean that you're wishing you haven't done what's already done…" Rabi turned and tilted his head watching the other exorcist, confused. "Sometimes you…" Kanda took a deep breath and frowned as blush started dying up his cheeks again. He went silent for awhile. It seemed to be hard for him to say that kind of stuff and he was thinking of the best way to say it. Rabi walked, slowly, back to the table where Kanda was sitting. He tried to help him.

"'Sometimes you'…what?" the green-eyed asked to the Japanese teen in front of him.

"Sometimes you…"he repeated sighing deeply, wincing as though every word pained him "feel guilty because you can't stop it… The moment I mean. I feel guilty, mad at me. But the thing is…I don't…"and this seemed to be the hardest part of all his speech "I don't regret what we did last night… I feel guilty because I did…want you to go on…but I don't regret it…at all…"

Rabi's green eye was widely open just as his mouth when Kanda finished. There was a long silence.

"Oh my Lord…" the Bookman Junior said. Kanda rolled his eyes completely blushed.

"And that's the only thing you're gonna say, stupid Rabbit?" said the ebony-haired teen, disgusted.

"Hum…wow?" Kanda rolled his eyes again, exasperated at Rabi's monosyllable. "Really…?"

"Really, what? The other boy spat.

"You don't…regret it…at all?" the red-head blinked twice and smiled expectantly.

Kanda's blush went redder and his frown deepened as he whispered.

"Yeah…"

"Really, really?"

"Yeah, I don't…"

"Oh, my God…seriously?" Rabi's eye was twinkling in amusement and surprise.

"If you don't shut the fuck up, I'll forget what I've just said, this'll be over and I'll hit you as hard as I can, you bastard…"Yuu's voice was really scary. Rabi instantly shut up but something just clicked in his head.

"This'll be…over? But, Yuu…d' you mean…?"

Kanda lowered his eyes still frowning and then nodded so shortly that the Bookman apprentice could barely see it.

"Oh my God…" he repeated. He seemed as though he couldn't believe what the other just said. Kanda was about to spit something rude when he felt Rabi's warm arms wrapping around him. Kanda's words vanished in his throat as his lips tilted into a nice smile that only few could tell they had seen him wear.

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I didn't comment anything up there because I wanted to go directly to the point. This is the epilogue. I liked it…hope you did too. Here's where I can say Kanda was OCC…but you can tell me once you review –wide smile- Thanx very much indeed for all your support! I really appreciated all your reviews, comments and I also thank you because you favorited this humble story XD Ahiru-tama! I did it! Here it is for you and for everyone! Love to you all! Thanks again and see you again (I hope) on my next fics! So, this is the end for D' you mind...? n.n

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