Chapter 1 of Let You Down
Okay I decided to try a darker fic using a song to set the mood of the first part of the story. Please let me know what you think about it so that I know it's safe to go on with it.
Good morning day, sorry I'm not there
All my favorite friends vanished in the air
It's hard to fly when you can't even run
Once I had the world now I've got no one
If I needed someone to control me
If I needed someone to hold me down
I would change my direction and save myself before I drown
Good morning day, sorry you're not here
All those times before never this unclear
It's hard to walk when you can't even crawl
Once I had this world now I've lost it all
If I needed someone to control me
If I needed someone to hold me down
I would change my direction and save myself before I drown
Three Days Grace- Drown
This song is to get across Kagome's view of her actions over the years
Kagome went through her life like it was no longer worth living for her. Yeah she was still traveling through the well to the feudal era, but things were different now. Shippo her beloved kit had died at the hands of Naraku trying to protect her from one of his incarnations. Miroku's wind tunnel had expanded and sucked him in before they got the opportunity to kill the evil hanyou. Sango and Inuyasha where the only ones left to their diminished group, they still hunted for jewel shards but not with their former zeal for it. The loss of the two members had been a blow to their former happy lives and Inuyasha had chosen Kikyo, at long last, as his mate once Naraku died.
The loss of her kit and the loss of any chance at one day being with Inuyasha had destroyed Kagome's once happy demeanor. It had been a month since Naraku was defeated and her kit. Miroku had died two months before Naraku was destroyed, the piece of jewel that Naraku had was once again shattered by Kagome. Kouga died in the battle as well trying to kill the evil being that had slaughtered so many of his pack members nearly six years prior to the battle.
"Hey Kagome do you sense any shards nearby?" asked Inuyasha emotionlessly.
"No" she replied her once bright eyes glancing around listlessly "I don't sense any."
They had gathered much of the jewel in the month after the despised hanyou's demise. It wasn't done because they wanted to do it, it was done because it needed to be done plain and simple.
Kagome's depression only grew as they continued to travel, she was disappointed in herself for letting her kit near their final battle with Naraku. She felt it was her fault he was dead and put herself through hell over it, she didn't even try to stay in school. The only reason she kept going was the harm that the shards would cause in the wrong hands.
Sesshomaru watched as the once proud miko became less and less of her former self. She looked unhealthy her skin was so pale, hollow gaunt cheeks, eyes sunken in, and lack of food showed throughout her painfully thin body. Cursing his brother for not
preventing what she had become, he wanted to help her badly but didn't know how to do so. He wasn't able to save the kit of hers, Tensaiga wasn't able to resurrect the kit for it had been torn into so many pieces there was nothing left to resurrect of the young kitsune, but that wasn't the only blow she had suffered emotionally.
She suffered once again when his baka brother had chosen the dead thing over her, bringing her even more pain. He wracked his brain for ways to save her, Rin was a young woman now and didn't need to be watched after anymore, so that idea was thrown out the window. He knew he had to try something quick or she would surely die, maybe if heshowed her tenderness and love she might respond. As much as he had fought it he had fallen hard for the fiery, fearless little miko,and seeing her like this was killing him. He started to form a plan if he could just catch her alone to put it into action.
Kagome plodded on following behind Inuyasha thinking about how if he had chosen her she wouldn't be so bad off now. She knew she needed to turn her life back around but didn't know how to gain her happiness back, not complete happiness but enough to live
every day without the oppressing cloak of depression that she currently wore. She needed a savior but had no idea who she could call to, yeah there was always Sesshomaru but he was cold and stoic plus he held no love of humans. Kouga was dead along with
Ginta and Hakaku, so all in all who could she turn to, that would save her from the prison she had created for herself?
Sango was worried about Kagome she was so distant now. She wouldn't eat much food anymore and her bones were beginning to show easily. She had tried time and again to reach her dear friend all in vain, no matter what she tried it always failed. Sango didn't know what to do anymore for her friend so she just let her be.
Prison gates won't open up for me
On theses hands and knees I'm crawling
All I reach for you
Well I'm terrified of these four walls
Theses iron bars can't hold my soul in
All I need is you
Come please I'm calling
And all I scream for you
Hurry I'm falling…
I'm falling…
Show me what it's like to be the last one standing
Teach me wrong from right
And I'll show you what I can be
Say it for me say it to me and I'll leave this life behind me
Say it if it's worth saving me
Heaven's gates won't open up for me
With these broken wings I'm falling
All I see is you
These city walls ain't got no love for me
I'm on the ledge of the 18th story
All I scream for you
Come please I'm calling
And all I need from you
Hurry I'm falling
Nickelback- Savin' Me
Kagome's desires