A/N: This is just a refresher of what happend last!!!! If you have already read this i will have another chapter up this weekend hopefully!!!! For those of you who don't like the paring in this story, my other story (sequel) is with Edward!!!!

Amber

Carlisle and Alice both left and shut the door behind them.

"Um… Edward, could I please talk to you in private?"

"Um… Sure?"

"Jacob, I'll talk to you next."

"Ok bye, honey." He came over and kissed me on the cheek. "I'll be right outside the door." With that he left.

"So, what did you want to talk about?"

"Um… how do I tell you this? Let's put it this way, I love you Edward. But… I can't be WITH you."

"Why not?"

"Because, I'm pregnant with Jacob's baby, I'm in love with Him, and I'm supposed to be on my honeymoon with Jacob right now! Plus, I don't know if I could trust you not to leave me again."

"Bella, love, I don't care who the father is if you were mine I would love him, right?" I nodded "with all my heart. And remember, you love me too. At one point you loved me more! I have given you absolutely no reason not to trust me plus, if you come back to me I will change you now, well actually after you give birth but still. I love you Bella I can't and I won't live without you!"

"Edward, why are you doing this to me? You said that you wanted me to be with Jacob, that you didn't want to change me. Yes I do love you, I'm not denying that but I can't be with you. I want this kid, I mean Eric to grow-up with a full-time mommy and daddy because I didn't and I know that I absolutely hated be shuffled back and forth. Edward I wouldn't be able to do that to Eric. I just can't do that to Him. I just can't! I only wanted to be changed before so that I could live with you for eternity but I can't be with you now so I don't need that offer anymore, I'm really Sorry Edward."

"Bella I can't live without you." he was now dry sobbing as I was crying. He reached for my hand, and held it. "Just promise me that you know what you're doing… that you know it's the right thing tell me that you are absolutely sure and I will leave and you will never see me again. The last person to see me will be the Volterra."

"Edward, you can't kill yourself over me!!!!"

"Bella, I told you long ago, that I can't live without you. I won't even attempt to do that again."

"Let me talk to Jacob and then I will talk to the both of you together, Please promise me you won't leave the hospital yet." he kissed me on the cheek.

"I promise, I'll go get Jacob" he got up and left.

A little while later, Jacob entered the room and took his spot on the bed. He grabbed my hand right away.

"Darling, please tell me what is bothering you."

"Jacob, I don't know how to tell you this, I don't know how you will react. Um…"

"Bella, I will love you no matter what it is trust me."

"Jacob remember what happened on your birthday?"

"Yeah, it was great, why… oh… are you…?"

I nodded

""Wow that is great we will be such a happy family, wait a minute why would I be upset about that? Does Edward know?"

"Yes Edward knows he walked in when Carlisle and Alice were in here doing my ultrasound. I didn't think you wanted kids yet. I don't want kids yet. I'm not ready for that yet. I'm not ready for any of this I don't want to get married, I don't want kids right now." I was sobbing even harder now "I just want to be a normal 19 year old." I couldn't continue any longer. Jacob pulled me into a much wanted hug. I tried to push him away the last thing I needed was him comforting me I wanted him to yell at me or something I just hated it when people comforted me when it was all my fault in the first place. That's when Jacob broke the silence.

"Why did we almost get married if you weren't read for it yet? And why didn't you tell me you were pregnant?"

"I… wanted to … make… you happy. And I wanted… to wait… for the … reception" I said in between sobs.

"We can't do anything about the kid situation but, you're going to be a great mommy!"

"Don't say that Jacob I can't even keep myself alive on a daily basis without help. "Plus, being a normal 19 year old is so overrated anyway!"

"Jacob, why can't I ever make-up my own mind? Why do you have pity for me, you should HATE me!"

"Why would I hate you? I have 'pity' on you because it's my fault you are in this situation anyway!"

"Jacob, like they say 'it takes two to tango' It's not like you forced me to sleep with you!"

"I have to think about this, Jacob can you and Edward go get me something to eat from the cafeteria down stairs please?"

"Are you sure you don't want to talk anymore"

"Yeah, I just need to eat right now."

A/N: Push the pretty mezmorizing purpule bottom that says GO!!!!! Now!!! I know you all can review because if half of you who read each chapter left a review i would have like 25 reviews at least on each chapter so i know you are all capable of it so get to it!!!!!

Amber