A/N: I have no idea what to tell you about this one. It is basically a collection from Season 6. Thoughts of Lorelai and Luke from each episode. I'm exploring what caused the break-up. What makes it special? Each part was written as I watched the episode. So, do you think you'll give it a chance?

Disclaimer: Don't own. Out of creative ways to say it.

Chapter 1

He is confused. A minute ago she was practically in tears and now she is proposing. He must have missed a very important step in their conversation. She repeats the question. He says yes. What else would he say? He listens to her nervous rambling and takes it as her acceptance of his acceptance. Why is this so awkward? They have to do something, so they search for drinks to toast with. Why aren't they celebrating? Why haven't they kissed or hugged or done anything normal? She heads for the door making a quick quip on the way. He calls for her to wait and instantly regrets it as a look of panic flits across her face. Suddenly she is questioning him. He remains confused. What would make her doubt his love? He is horribly guilty as she continues on about why he doesn't love her. Why is she so insecure? This isn't like her at all. The moment ends when he interrupts, assuring her that he loves her. She won't slow down though. She insists that they have to do this. She needs to be happy right now. He knows that she needs someone to take care of her and he will be there when she is ready.

She pulls him towards the gazebo. She is elated and he holds a case of "chick beer" under his arm. They stop and he hands her a drink taking one for himself as well. They're just about to toast when the lights flash off. After several protests, Taylor relents and the lights come back on. They make their toast. "To us." He leans in to kiss her. She, of course, makes a joke. She wouldn't be Lorelai if she didn't. He can't help but smile as he pulls her into an embrace and presses his lips against her's. He feels her shiver at the contact and pulls her even closer. He loves that he can still bring about that kind of reaction from just a kiss. He notices that even in the happy moment, part of her seems scared. Until she is ready to let down her wall of defense and the hurt leaks out, he will hold her. Remind her that she is loved by him. For now, that is all that he can do.

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She sits heavily on the bench in her daughter's room. None of her things are in it. It's just another reminder of the betrayal from her parents and the rift between her and her Rory. She reminds herself that Rory just needs a little perspective and she will figure out the mistake and come back home. In her mind she is plagued with questions. She never would have considered going back home when she was sixteen. Why would Rory ever want to come back? Why couldn't she see how big a mistake this was? Why did her parents stab her in the back the way they did? She knows that they don't appreciate her life or the choices she has made, but do they actually hate her? She has never even considered that before, but now it crosses her mind and it hurts more than she'd like to admit.

Luke. The name enters her thoughts. She feels a little silly for her proposal the other night. After all, she simply cornered him. Maybe he felt he had to say yes. Maybe he doesn't actually want to marry her. She remembers that he bought a house, but that doesn't mean that he is ready for marriage. She can't help but feel that she is making a mistake with this. All she wants is to have someone to lean on. Half of her support system has been ripped away from her and there's nothing she can do about it. She hopes with all her might that Luke won't ever leave. What if he does? She can't stand the thought of it. Tears well up in her eyes as the mantra, "Rory left. Rory's gone. She's never coming back." plays in her mind. The tears take the form of rage and she flings her water bottle across the room in defiance. The minute it hits the wall the tears flow. Fast, free, she couldn't stop them if she tried. She buries her face in her hands and lets it all out. She sobs and wishes that her daughter would come back. That she knew for sure that Luke will never leave her. When did she become so insecure? Suddenly the front door opens and Luke is calling for her so that he can give her the ring. She isn't ready for him to see her cry this way, so she wipes the tears away and hurries out. He can't see her tears. Not yet. Not yet.