'Why Naruto?' the raven thought to himself as he lay in his bed…alone, for the first time in two years, 'why are you ignoring me? Leaving me?' a tear ran down his face as he remembered the moments that were causing a mountain of hurtful emotions inside of him.

Earlier that day

Sasuke was waiting at the training grounds, he had woken up with no Naruto for the first time and assumed he had just gone home for a change of clothes after he had checked that he wasn't raving his fridge. When Naruto hadn't come back before he had to leave, he decided that Naruto had fallen asleep, he noticed during the night that Naruto hadn't slept as his heart rate was the same the whole way through whenever Sasuke woke up. So now he was waiting, leaning on the middle stump that his blonde had been tied to so many years ago. He heard footsteps and turned, maybe it was Naruto…it wasn't, it was Sakura

"hi Sakura"

"hello Sasuke-kun" she looked around for a moment, "where's Naruto? Is he ill?"

"err...no I don't think so, he just, went home to change."

Sakura had known of their relationship and was probably one of the only ones.

Sasuke felt a breeze go past him and turned around to find…Kakashi, hanging from a tree reading the notorious orange book.

After 10 more minutes Naruto finally arrived. He walked with a steady pace as if he was in no rush with his hands in his pockets looking at the sky.

A smile went across Sasuke's face as he yelled "hurry up dobe, don't keep us waiting", he waited for the traditional come back of "shut up teme" but it didn't come, instead he got a "hn"… "hn"? that's what Sasuke does isn't it? What was going on?

Their training session was hard, and tense without a single sarcastic comment from Naruto to break the ice. Sasuke made his way over to him when they had their break and sat next to him under the shade of a tree.

"hey, I missed you this morning, when did you leave?"

No reply

"are you alright?"

No reply

"you havnt said much all day"

No reply

"whats going on?"

No reply

Sasuke stared at the blonde who had left no sign of having even heard the raven, he was just looking to the sky, apparently deep in thought.

'I know how to get a reaction'

He leant in to kiss him on the lips, an action that the blonde would normally be very happy about, not today.

"what do you think your doing?"

Sasuke looked away, embarrassed, he felt like, he was sharing his feelings for Naruto for the first time and was being rejected, but he was damn sure that Naruto was his boyfriend and said "kissing my boyfriend"

"no your not"

"wha- "

Naruto got up and walked away back to his home. Sasuke was left on his own. 'did Naruto just break up with me?'

The moments where his heart was breaking before the breakup:

Sasuke kissed Naruto and got a half hearted reply

Naruto said he was going to train, leaving Sasuke in bed alone, when Sasuke went to town, he saw Naruto around Kiba, they seemed to be having fun and he could have sworn he heard 'Sasuke' and 'idiot' in the same sentence.

Naruto lay in the bed and ignored Sasukes attempts at starting some fun.

A little earlier that night

Sasuke couldn't take it anymore. Naruto had been lying in the bed with him after Sasuke basically begged him to come round, he tried to kiss him, he tried to hug him, he tried to touch him, all rejected as they lay on separate sides of the bed. He got out of the bed and went to the bathroom. He locked the door and fell to the floor crying.

"Sasuke?"

"what?!"

"are you alright?"

"oh yea I'm fine" sarcasm dripping as tears poured down his face.

"let me in Sasuke"

He didn't sound like he really cared but Sasuke let him in anyway, hoping the Naruto he loved would come back.

SMACK

"don't you dare talk to me like that"

"whats wrong with you?!"

"what do you mean?"

"what happened to the Naruto I loved? The dobe that made me smile, made me want to live? Brought me back from Orochimaru? Held me in his arms, had intimate moments with me? My first kiss? My first…everything!?"

"i…I've been meaning to talk to you about that… I don't…think that we should…see each other anymore" he was looking to the ground and talking.

"what?! Why?!"

"because I just don't think I feel that way about you anymore."

"you cant do this to me! I need you, I love you"

"but i…don't love you"

"…"

"good bye Sasuke" and with that he left.

Sasuke had been crying on the floor for abut an hour before he got himself up long enough to travel to his bed where he collapsed and cried more.

After the break up, Sasuke was empty, if they thought he showed no emotion before, he really showed no emotion now. He didn't respond to anything, the fangirls were holding onto him and he carried on walking as though there was nothing. He felt numb, he felt empty, he felt as if there was no reason for living.

Naruto, Sakura and Kakashi were waiting for Sasuke and started talking about him.

"hey Naruto whats been up with Sasuke recently? Hes been really down"

"well, we, kinda broke up"

"what? Why?"

"well, I don't really feel that way about him anymore."

"oh"

"well, I didn't really feel that way about him in the first place"

"what?"

"well I knew that he liked me and it's not like, anyone else wanted me. I guess it just felt nice having someone who wants you"

"then why have you dumped him now?"

"well it isn't really fair to him, plus I heard that a few girls want to ask me out" he said this with a big grin on his face "and I'd rather not cheat"

"I still think that's really mean on Sasuke"

"what making him feel special"

"making him think that the boy he loves, loves him back and then crushing that"

"hey! He'll get over it, this is Sasuke and I'm just the dumb dobe, he'll get over me in no time. If he doesn't then he is dumber than me, and pathetic and weak. He was kind of clingy anyway, I don't want to be with someone that's that pathetic. "

They heard a rustling in the trees and looked over to see none other than the Uchiha who was now in tears, his head was hung low but the team could see them dripping onto the floor.

"Sasuke" the word fell out of Naruto's mouth, 'how long has he been there?'

"p-p-pathetic? Weak? You lied to me…so many times" he ran off into the trees and the entire team fearing his safety ran after him, they split up into different directions.

Naruto knew exactly where Sasuke would go; it would be the same place that Sasuke had taken him on their first date, the place where they first kissed. Sasuke had always loved that spot, it was secluded and no one had ever found him there.

It was an old play ground, lost deep in the park in Konoha, well; it used to be an old playground. Sasuke had been fixing it up for years, he loved playgrounds, he was such a playful child at heart but who would accept a playful teenage Uchiha? No one so he had kept it quiet, a secret. Lots of D.I.Y and lots of time and effort went into this playground. And by now it had 2 swings; a see-saw; an adventurous climbing frame that would keep children exploring for ages. It was a beauty of a playground but he hadn't told anyone, and he didn't intend to, he loved to work on it when something was on his mind. He said that he loved to sit on a swing and let all of his thoughts run through his mind. But he didn't have somewhere like that before, all the parks were usually full of children and he would be harassed wherever he went. So when he had something on his mind he thought about that special place that he wanted and got to work. It kept his mind off of his problem and was like a training session…in a way.

Naruto admired his determination and was surprised at the more playful, innocent side of Sasuke but it had made sense.

He was made lonely and emotionless at a very young age, it was only natural for him to want to make up for the years he had spent blocking everyone out.

It was beautiful, it was surrounded by nature and was lovely all year round; in spring when the blossoms first come out; summer when all the flowers are in bloom and the leaves are full and rich with leaves; autumn, when the leaves have turned to orange and all sorts of different shades or red, gold, and brown; and then winter when it snows and everything is covered with snow. It looks like a winter wonderland, and at night time, when they snuck off together, if they lay down at the top of the climbing frame then they would be able to see all the night sky stars twinkle brightly. It was an amazing place. It was a special place for the both of them, and Sasuke had told Naruto that if he ever wanted to go there on his own then he was allowed. It wasn't Sasuke's spot anymore, It was both of theirs.

And Naruto was right.

Sasuke was there.

Crying.

On a swing that they had once made out on.

His head flew up at the sound of a twig breaking and he saw Naruto, a look of what he had thought was fake concern and sorrow.

"what do you want?" Sasuke asked through sobs, "come to tell me more lies?" he started crying again.

Naruto walked up beside him and placed a hand on his shoulder but Sasuke moved away from the hand.

"don't! don't touch me!"

"I'm sorry Sasuke" Naruto hung his head down in shame, "I never meant…"

"for me to hear you say that? I wasn't meant to know that the last two years; the last happiest years of my life was all a lie?!"

"I never meant to hurt you like that"

"'I never meant to hurt you' that's rich! What about just the other day when you SLAPPED me! Was that not meant to hurt either? Or when you broke up with me or all the other things you have done that had me questioning your feelings for me. I should have known from the beginning that this was all a joke to you, that you were just waiting until someone better came along, or maybe you were using me for my money"

"that's not true! I never used you for your money" Naruto was in tears now.

"why are you crying? You weren't just told that the boy you love was just settling for you until someone better came along"

"but that's not true!"

"shut up Naruto! I heard you say to Sakura how you heard about some girls that wanted to ask you out and that you didn't want to cheat! So don't go lying to me even more than you already did" he looked down at his wrist, his other hand had been rubbing it unconsciously. It was his right wrist, and on his right wrist was a bracelet, it had a message on it:

'Naruto for Sasuke 4eva!'

Naruto had given it to Sasuke after their 2 year anniversary. "and why did you give this crap to me Naruto? Huh? Why did u insist on giving me a reminder of your fake love for me? All those moments I had with you, everything we did and said, it was all a lie to you, a joke"

"Sasuke listen to me. Sakura wasn't the only one that knew"

"oh so you were embarrassed?!"

"NO! I was threatened, repeatedly, beaten up, repeatedly, shouted at, glared at! No one wants me to be with you!"

"since when did you care what people think?"

"since they threatened to hurt you! Since they swore that they would kill you if I stayed with you! They said that you deserve someone better than me, but if you insisted on staying with me, then no on would have you. They would kill you just so that I can't have you. I couldn't let them do that"

Sasuke sniffed and looked at Naruto in bewilderment. He looked at Naruto and grabbed onto his shirt. Naruto was looking in the opposite direction at the ground. Sasuke stood up and leaned in for a kiss. But Naruto moved his head away and Sasuke looked at the ground.

"I'm sorry" Naruto took Sasuke's hands into his own. "I love you, I'll never love anyone else the way that I love you, but we can't be together"

"why not?!" he looked up with angry, tearful eyes, "because some bully threatened to hurt me? Let them try it! They wont get very far!"

"Sasuke these people can beat me up! They could kill me if they wanted to! We both know who is the stronger one out of us"

Sasuke looked down again. "so we cant do anything? Ever again?"

Naruto took Sasuke into his embrace and kissed him deeply, one last time before letting go and saying "yea, from now on, we can't do anything, but always remember that I do love you. And always keep this with you as a reminder."

Naruto was stronger than Sasuke, he was also taller and broader, he had always been in control of the relationship, of what they did. But he loved Sasuke, he would do anything to protect him, he didn't know how far this hate went which is why he lied to everyone, why no one knew how much he loved him apart from Sasuke, Sasuke still cried at nights and would wake up wishing it was a dream, that Naruto would be beside him when he woke up and would hug him and kiss him. But he wasn't and he didn't, Naruto acted as though he hated Sasuke and was repulsed that he had ever been with him, and he was convincing, Sasuke felt like crying on the spot every time, but just as he was about to explode into tears, Naruto would give him a wink and a smile that no one else saw.

It was a sad life for them.

They each suffered a great deal of pain, Sasuke never found anyone who he could pretend to love, no one who the villagers would respect. He only loved Naruto and Naruto loved him, but he had to hide this from everyone, even Sasuke because they had threatened to kill him.

No one could help them, no one would help them. Naruto was a handsome teenager, he was a heart throb, all the girls found him attractive but some still hated him. Others however warmed up to him, they got to know him, they came to liking him, and Naruto would put on a believable smile and the girl would think that he loved her. But even then he would still get beatings. No one wanted their daughters to be with him, no one wanted their sister or cousins or nieces to be with him and they would beat him and then he would break the girl's heart when he gave no explanation of why he was breaking up with her.

Sasuke couldn't do that, he was forever with a sad face, he was always alone, after him and Naruto first broke up, all the girls were over him, trying to make him theirs, but he didn't and they saw how upset he was so they left him for a few months to get over the wretched Naruto. After the few months he still denied them the satisfaction of an Uchiha smirk or any form of acknowledgement.

He wanted Naruto

He loved Naruto

No one but Naruto

Ever

He couldn't live without Naruto

And he broke the promise that he had made.

Naruto woke up to a knocking on his door. He got up in only his boxer shorts and went to open the door and see who was waking him up at such an hour. He was rubbing dust from his eyes as he opened the door and was thrown onto the floor by an unknown figure.

"ar-"

A hand was placed over his mouth as he tried to scream and a pair of onyx eyes looked into his own blue ones. A smile crept onto the face of the onyx eyed beauty and he removed his hand.

"Sasuke? What are you doing here?" he didn't sound too happy to have the raven on top of him and Sasuke's smile faded as tears sprang to his eyes.

"I – wanted to be with you again, I needed to be with you again, I love you, I can't stop, I just." He stopped and just stared at Naruto as tears fell down his eyes. Naruto's face was emotionless, this wasn't right; this wasn't what Sasuke had planned. He just wanted to kiss Naruto one more time. One more time before he decided to leave this world. And he did, he leant down and placed his lips on Naruto's; they were soft and sweet and Sasuke had missed them so much. Naruto was still emotionless. He knew that he wanted to be happy. That he should be happy, but he had gotten used to blocking off his emotions for Sasuke. Making it so that no one was able to see his love for him. But then one of Sasuke's tears hit it face. He had pulled away and his head was facing down over Naruto with his eyes shut tight.

Naruto touched the tear on his face that belonged to Sasuke. He touched the tears on Sasuke's face. He let his hand fall and felt something cold and metallic on the floor. He lifted it up in his hand and brought it infront of his eyes. He looked at the shiny metal, he read what was written on it: 'Naruto for Sasuke 4eva'

"Naruto for Sasuke forever" he read it out loud.

"I guess that was a lie as well then" said a sobbing Sasuke.

"no"

" 'no'? I just kissed you and got no response from you at all"

"then, kiss me again?"

Sasuke looked at him slightly wide eyed but he did so, he sniffed and again placed his lips on Naruto's and this time he got a response. Naruto moaned. It sent shudders through his mouth and down his back. And he started to move his lips. Naruto also moved his lips and took up the dominant role and licked Sasuke's bottom lip, he was let in and Naruto kissed like he had never kissed before, he brought a new meaning to the word and Sasuke was the one who felt it. He let Naruto roam his mouth and salvaged every moment that tongue of his was in there.

He ravished it and no words could describe how he felt at that moment.

Naruto flipped them over, he had all of a sudden become in much need to touch Sasuke, to kiss his entire body, to make up for their lost time.

He moved Sasuke's hands above his head as he sucked and bit on his neck, marking him as his own for everyone to see. Naruto moved his hands to Sasuke's shirt and tore it off him. He heard a surprised gasp from the raven as he made sure that he had touched every part of the ravens smooth untouched body. He kissed it, sucked it, bit it. All earning him delicious sounds and reactions from Sasuke.

He took off his own shirt and then the pants of both him and Sasuke. He also took off their boxers and immediately started to touch Sasuke's member. He touched it, fondled his balls, and stroked it. Then placed his mouth on it and started to suck it. Naruto had become very horny, he needed Sasuke, he had no idea how he had survived the last couple of years without him. He reached to Sasuke's hands and brought them to his own member and Sasuke started to stroke it and fondle it and Naruto continued to stroke Sasuke's until they both came.

Then Sasuke managed to flip them and positioned his ass at Naruto's head and his mouth on Naruto's penis. He sucked on it as Naruto pushed a finger into his ass and moved it around. He moaned onto the cock in his mouth and Naruto moaned loudly into the air. He placed two more fingers in and wriggled them around and stretched the virgin hole. He then took out his finger and started licking at Sasuke's hole. He slipped his tongue in and whirled it round until he felt Sasuke come for the second time that night and he followed him soon after.

Naruto again flipped them over and placed his manhood at Sasuke's hole. He looked at the raven who gave a scarred nod and then Naruto thrust in and Sasuke let out a scream of pure pain. Naruto waited a while before he was given another nod and he started to thrust in and out of the love of his life, the only love of his love.

Sasuke moaned and panted as Naruto stroked his prostate and caused an unbelievable sensation to run through him.

They soon both came and lay on top of each other panting but still their hands wrapped around each other and touched each other wanting to treasure these moments together so that they never forget each other. The soon fell asleep with their hands linking each other and even in their sleep Naruto manoeuvred the both of them so that he was holding Sasuke in a tight embrace.

They slept peacefully that night, with the one that they would always love. But Naruto soon woke up as the truth struck him.

Sasuke would now die. Surely the neighbours would have heard them and when Sasuke leaves someone will see him and be able to put two and two together. And tears flowed from his eyes. He didn't want to live without Sasuke. He started trembling as he wept and woke up Sasuke.

A look of concern struck his face as he saw the crying Naruto.

He kissed his lips and then spoke, "what's wrong?"

"they're going to kill you Sasuke!"

His eyes widened slightly but in truth he already knew this.

"they don't want to see me happy and they're going to kill you, take you away from me where I can never get to you!"

"don't think about that. I already knew that there would be consequences to coming to you again, but I can't live without you"

"I can't live without you either"

And with that they kissed again and again fell into a sleep.

They knew what they had to do if they wanted to be together.

They couldn't run away, they would be chased.

Neither could live without the other so they decided that they would be together in the afterlife.

They wrote a note for anyone out there who might care the slightest about what fate had brought these two boys:

Is there anyone reading this who cares about what you have done to us? We wanted to live together; we wanted to be able to walk down these streets hand in hand. Proud of whom we loved and show the world; instead we had to hide and just so that we could be together. We had to end our lives.

I promise that I will always love Sasuke and will do anything to be with him

I promise that I will always love Naruto and will do anything to be with him

After that was done, they both broke out a kunai and carved the others name in their arm. After that, they lay on the bed in each other's arms and kissed one last time in the world of the living.

-fin-

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