A/n: hola Amigas! lol. So! Here I present to you the final chapter of Razor Scars! A few things to note before we go ahead and read the final amazing chapter. Thank you to my AWESOME Beta! BluEeYedBRunETte726! You've been amazing! And have opened my eyes to knew words aka not using 'said' every other line. lol. I'm working on not using the s-word. lol. Another thing, the title of the story 'Razor Scars' is sadly not a song. So I decided to tie everything in I would make it a song and I would write the song. It's not the good, mostly cause I suck at poetry etc. So, you'll have to excuse the awful song, but I just HAD to make it a song! It was nagging at me! And I thought it was an awesome idea...until I wrote the song. Anywho! Bottom line is, it's not a song. However the melody of the song is to Underneath It All by No Doubt. Corny, I know, but i was listening to No Doubt one night and I liked the middle of the song. So...yeah. Now let me thank my glorious readers!
Ultimategilmoregirl: Thanks for the review! I'm glad you enjoyed my writings and ramblings in the story! lol.
IAmNobodySpecial: hm...I wonder what Rory is going to get Jess too...lol. YOu'll find out soon enough. THank you for the review! I actually think the gift she gives is...not that surprising especially for her character.
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melissaeverlasting: lol. I love how u described it. 'The adventrue continues and it's just heating up' that was awesome. lol. I think this chapter will be to ur satisfaction...hopefully?
MBH: ROry will get to decide. Well...I think specifically from a child of divorces view that when u have lived with a parent for as long as ROry did it's nice to have said child not be in the picture for awhile. But after weeks or months of them not being there they miss them and will do anything to get that child back. Does that make sense? Besides I don't think they would have to go to court. If the child is over 13 they get to choose who to live with, at least I did. Thanks for the reiveiw!
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Chapter 12: Another Razor Scar On Her Body
Rory looked in the mirror and sighed.
"I look like a gap commercial," she muttered, frustrated. She was dressed
in a khaki skirt and a light blue blouse. She angrily ripped the clothing off
and sifted through her closet, looking for something more her style. She
wasn't sure what to wear to this stupid party.
She could be her normal self; short black skirt and a concert t-shirt.
Or she could be the girl Jess deserved; khaki skirt and a blouse.
Rory groaned and went back over to the mirror. She stared at her body and
sighed. She could still make out the healing scars on her stomach. She touched
them lightly amazed that they were still healing after all of this time. She
had done them a very long time ago in a fit of rage at her father, Logan and
her life. Her finger tips touched the edges of the longest and deepest cut.
It was still pink from the razor.
"Rory!" Lorelai's voice shouted through the door.
Rory jumped and grabbed a bathrobe.
"Hurry up! We're going to be late."
Rory moaned again and decided to mix and match good and bad Rory. She took a
short black skirt, her usual boots, and a red blouse.
"This is as good as it's gonna get," she numbly thought out loud.
She was nervous. She was never nervous. She hated how Jess—a simple boy—made
her nervous.
Finally Rory emerged from her room and saw her mother putting her
shoes on and eating a Pop Tart. Rory gave her a questioning look and Lorelai
shrugged and took the Pop Tart out of her mouth to speak.
"I got hungry."
Rory smirked, "Figures."
Rory started walking towards the door when Lorelai stopped her with a hand.
"Rory...we need to talk," Lorelai started, finishing her Pop Tart. Rory raised an eyebrow at her mother, and then turned to her to listen.
"Ok...?" Rory murmured, crossing her arms.
"Um...well...I don't know if now is such a good time to ask this, but..." Lorelai said fidgeting with her shirt and hair.
"Spit it out," Rory snapped, leaning against the door and glaring at her mother.
"Well...Christopher came...here." Lorelai watched as Rory visibly stiffened.
"What?" Rory spat.
"And you didn't tell me?" Rory added, her eyes ablaze with fire.
Lorelai fidgeted some more.
"Well...he wants you...back." Lorelai said biting her lip and shifting once more. "He came by my work...I told him...I told him I wanted to keep...you." While Lorelai was putting her feelings all out there Rory stared at the floor. Suddenly the younger female stared up at the older one.
"We don't want to be late," Rory muttered walking towards the foyer and
out the door.
Lorelai sighed and followed her daughter out the door. They walked the way to
Luke's in silence. When they approached the building, Rory finally spoke up.
"I want to stay, for the record. It's not...so...bad," Rory said
hesitantly.
Rory couldn't see it, but she knew her mother was smiling. That was the closest she was going to get to having another mother-daughter talk. Rory cringed at the thought of another one of those. She was hurting the last time; that was it. She was strong now, she could overcome her past.
"Let's go," Rory declared opening the door to Luke's and walking into the over crowded diner. She recognized most of the people from school along with some of the towns people.
She already felt out of place.
Jess came bounding up to her.
"Hey! You came," he said smiling and kissing her lightly on the cheek.
"Like I would miss it," Rory scoffed.
She took the gift from her mothers hands and thrusted it at Jess.
"This is from Lorelai," He gave her a weird look.
"Is it a joint present?" he asked curious.
Rory smirked.
"No."
"Then...what?"
"I'm saving my present for later," she answered seductively.
He felt a chill run from his heels to his scalp.
She watched as he tugged at the large bow on the small square box.
"Are you gonna open it?" Rory asked, glancing at her mother who wandered over to Luke.
"Not yet," Jess said, sticking it on top of a mountain of presents.
"You want something to eat?"
Rory shook her head and looked around the room.
"Let's go over to the band," Jess shouted over the music that had just started up from a corner of the diner.
That's when Rory realized there was a band playing in the diner corner. It was a
considerably small space and she wondered how they all fit there without being
on top of each other. She saw Dave as the singer and Lane as the drummer. She
felt the impulse to smile at her friend, but then remembered Lane kind of
hated her.
Rory sighed and followed Jess over to his friends. She saw Dean
sitting on a stool beside them all. Jess and her sat on the stools next to
Dean. They waited for the first set to be over.
She glanced over at her mother and Luke who were flirting by the stairs. Rory smiled to herself happy to see her mother so giddy.
After awhile Jess took her hand and led her outside behind the back of the
diner.
"Sorry, I wanted to talk to you and this seemed to be the only place to do
it," Jess mumbled sheepishly.
Rory laughed and placed a kiss on his lips.
"It's fine. It was getting too loud and sweaty in there for my taste."
Rory smiled when she heard him laugh.
"So..." Rory started shifting to lean against the brick wall and stare at Jess.
Jess smiled at her, "So..."
Rory went for her pocket, hoping she still had some cigarettes left. She knew
it was gross to kiss someone right after smoking, but Jess was making her
nervous.
"Please don't," Jess croaked, reaching for her hand.
Rory raised an eyebrow.
"Please don't, what?"
"Don't smoke."
Rory smiled sadly at him, but stopped trying to search for a cigarette.
"Ok," she stated simply.
"Then..." She started but was cut off by his lips.
She loved it when that happened. It was always a refreshing surprise. The kiss intensified and some tongue slipped in. Rory heard a moan and couldn't be sure if it was hers or his.
"I guess it's time for your birthday present." Rory said quietly, pulling away.
Jess looked at her dazed.
"What? Now?"
Rory smirked and took his hand.
"Come on." They walked for a few minutes, Jess looked around, trying to guess where they were going.
"Rory?" he asked hesitantly.
"Come on!" she said, tugging him along the road.
"Rory! What?" He started to ask but was shushed. Finally they came to the
bridge and Jess heard himself gasp.
"It's..." he started to say but was stopped once more by Rory's lips
silencing him.
There were two candle sticks lit at the entrance of the bridge. Jess saw two
folded blankets on top of each other in the middle of the bridge and a
pillow.
"Are you ready?" Rory asked smirking at him.
She continued to drag him along the bridge. They stopped right in front of the blankets and Rory smiled at him encouragingly.
"Stay," she said, and then whipped something out of her purse and set it
down a few feet away. She pressed something and then music flowed around them.
Jess didn't recognize the song. There were no words to it; it was classical.
"Rory..." he started again, realizing there was a huge smile on his
face.
"Don't worry. Today I am prepared." She pulled one more thing out of
her purse. Jess could make out the word 'Trojan' on the blue wrapping.
Another shiver erupted from him and went all the way down to his toes.
"Are you ready?" she asked again and all he could do was nod. His mouth
was dry.
"Good." she smiled and started taking her shoes off then her shirt and
finally her skirt. His mouth was like a desert at this point and he couldn't say
anything. Suddenly she jumped into the water and Jess ran to the side.
"Rory! It's 50 degrees out here!" he yelled, watching as she emerged.
She laughed happily and took off the remaining garments.
"The water's fine. Come on!" she whined, going over to the bridge and
taking his leg.
"Come on." she complained again. He smiled at her and slowly stripped to
his boxers. He jumped in after her, and then flung his boxers next to her
under garments on the bridge. The music was still playing softly in the
background and Jess swam closer to her. He heard her giggle. She kissed him
passionately on the mouth and she smiled when he groaned.
"Are you ready?" she asked already knowing the answer. She could feel it
on her leg.
"You keep asking me that. Let's just do it already," he groaned,
closing his eyes and kissing her again.
"Your wish is my command," she whispered.
"That was amazing," Jess groaned as they lay on the bridge wrapped around
each other with a blanket covering them.
Rory giggled, "Even I have to admit it was good and I've been around."
"Don't say that," he stated.
"Say what?"
"Say you've been around. It ruins the moment."
"Well it's true..." Rory mumbled, sitting up and reaching for her cigarettes in her jacket pocket.
"Don't do that either," he snapped loudly.
"Do what?" Rory complained.
"Smoke; God, Rory you keep ruining the moment. Just lay back and relax,"
Jess whined, pulling her down.
"But I always have an after-sex ciggy. It's like a tradition," Rory
grumbled.
"Screw tradition." Jess said putting at arm around her. They were quiet
for a few minutes just taking each other in.
"I love this song," Rory stated abruptly. Jess looked down at her, he had forgotten the music was still playing. Jess listening to the words staring up at the starry
sky.
"Many years ago I met a boy. He was a sweet young kid who felt
incomplete. But he was the power which drove me. And behind his dark eyes he
was something else."
Jess looked back down at Rory and sighed.
"Thanks. This has been a pretty amazing birthday."
Rory smiled and looked up at him.
"You're welcome."
They continued to listen to the song.
"Do you really wanna see my scars? Do you really wanna see my razor
scars? If I let you in—you might destroy my heart. Do you really wanna see
my razor scars?"
"This song helped me through a lot," Rory mumbled suddenly.
"Yeah?" Jess asked.
"Yeah," She agreed.
"He was a small town guy who had too much discipline. But lately
he's been trying really hard to be my friend. And he's been my savior
through my darkest hour. And when he smiles at me I feel that it's not that
bad."
"How?"
"It just...spoke to me. It helped me. It's a great song," Rory added quietly.
"It should be our song then."
Rory shook her head, "Too much baggage."
Jess breathed in, and then out still listening to the melody of the song, it was the chorus again.
"Do you really wanna see my scars? Do you really wanna see my razor
scars? If I let you in—you might destroy my heart. Do you really wanna see
my razor scars?"
"It's a nice song, though," Jess murmured.
"Yeah, it is," Rory agreed suddenly sitting up.
"We should probably get back."
Jess nodded. "After the song though."
Rory laughed and lay back down. "Fine."
"So many times we have dreamed but he's still holding back to let me
see. So many times we have dreamed. I've seen right through him and he me.
And he makes me cry. I've seen right through him and he me. And he makes me
cry. cry— cry. You are my real Prince Charmin'. Like the heat from the fire.
You were always burnin'. And each time you're around. My body keeps stalin'.
For your touch. Your kisses and your sweet romancin'. There's an underside to
you. That so many adore."
"You know, my father wants me to go back to New York," Rory said quietly.
Jess looked at her, "Don't leave."
Rory looked up at him. "Yeah?"
"Yeah. I've gotten used to you messing everything up," He said, lightly teasing her.
She laughed and rolled her eyes.
"I was going to stay anyway, you know, with Lorelai. I've gotten used to the town, why leave now?"
Jess nodded, "Yeah, why leave now?"
She smiled and kissed him. They lay there listening to the rest of the song.
"Aside from your temper. Everything else secure. You're good for me,
baby. Oh that, I'm sure. Over and over again. I want more. You've walked out
too many times leaving me. And somehow I'm full of forgiveness I guess it's not meant to be. Do you really wanna see my scars? Do you really wanna
see my razor scars? If I let you in—you might destroy my heart. Do you
really wanna see my razor scars? oh Razor Scars oh Razor Scars."
Rory and Jess listened to the last few chords of the song, and then got up to
leave the bridge, taking the candles and Ipod speakers with them. They held
hands walking back to the party, neither of them knowing what was in store
except that they had each other. And that was enough.
For now.
The End