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Chapter 1: Look of What You Asked of Me

Thump! There it was again my love's precious heartbeat, only slightly fainter than the second before. Another wail ripped through the air and my angel tried to once again grab at her clothes and skin. Quickly snatching her arms together with one arm, I winced from the obvious pain Bella was now going through. Bella was getting harder to control.

Oh, curse the skies above. I feel so useless, doing nothing but murmuring reassurances to the thrashing body lying in front of me. Such a kind and beautiful face shouldn't be scrunched together. She shouldn't be twisting and squirming in pain. Her once welcoming warmth was slowly fading. The rosy cheeks that I loved so much were now pale white. The ghostly reflection that faced me now, scared me. I could not see my Bella.

Will she still love me? Will she remember our love? Will she regret this decision or worse hate me for what I have done? Too many questions, too many thoughts. If I don't relax my head might just explode. The worry is already too much. I have to try to comfort Bella, for her sake and mine. Reaching for my beloved's brow, I wipe the few strands of hair that managed to escape the hair tie. If only I could take the pain away.

How could the most beautiful creature that could ever walk this earth, want such a meaningless and cruel existence? Of course, once I have Bella forever won't seem so harsh, but I have to stop being so selfish. Bella might hate me when she is fully conscious. If only I had more time. Maybe just maybe I could have convinced her that she would be throwing away her soul. God could never love or embrace such a grotesque monster that takes life. We commit an unforgivable crime. Oh, Bella. My silly Bella. Look of what you asked of me.

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