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His head snapped up, brown met blue "You're... ?"

"Yeah." she answered simply "and no, I didn't know before I left. It was only 4 weeks later when I realised I was late..." she chuckled to herself "I thought I was feeling ill because of the stress of it all.."

Gil looked at her. "But, I thought you were on the pill."

Sara shrugged her shoulders. "What can I tell you? I was. I guess because of the stress... I mean we knew when I started taking it that it wasn't 100 percent guaranteed protection" she took in a deep breath. "I wanted to tell you as soon as I found out, but I knew if I did – it would just make me want to come back, and I wasn't ready."

"what if... what if you..." Gil struggled with his words.

"what if I had never been ready?" she completed for him. Gil nodded. "I would have told you, Gil. I wouldn't have kept this from you. If it had gone on much longer, if the tonne of bricks hadn't hit me when they did, I was going to tell you, I wouldn't deny you."

"So... how... how far along?" his hands rubbed across her small protruding stomach. He looked at the small bump with the intensity that he did a new piece of evidence. Clearly Gil was struggling to absorb this bombshell.

"Just shy of 4 months" she smiled.

"And you've been OK?" concern was evident in his voice "I mean... no complications or anything?"

"I had a really rough week the week I found out, I couldn't keep anything down and I slept for days on end, but I think part of that was down to being stressed up to my eyeballs" she let out a small laugh "other than that I've been great."

Gil remained silent. She had been expecting this.

Sara took his hands, which seemed to have glued themselves to her stomach, and led him over to the couch where they sat facing each other.

"Is this OK, Gil? I mean... are we going to be OK? Because I wont force this onto you if you're not ready... but when I found out, I mean you know I couldn't have had a... a you know what... and I know you wouldn't have wanted me to get one..." she looked down at their now intertwined fingers. She smiled when she saw he still wore his wedding band. After the way she left, she wouldn't have blamed him if he had launched it into the desert, never to be seen again.

His head snapped up " Oh God, Sara, no. No of course I wouldn't have wanted you to have got a... a you know what" one hand reached up and cupped her cheek. He drew in a breath and let it out again very slowly "- it's just a lot to take in. I'm sure we will be OK, but I just need time.."

"I understand, Gil, I do. This... erm... kinda came as a bit of a shock to me too."

Gil nodded and then reached into his pocket for his phone.

"What are you doing?" she enquired.

"I'm sending Catherine a message" she watched as he typed

"To: CWillows

From: GGrissom

Sara's home. Going to take some time off. Hold the fort, I'll call later"

Sara smiled at his use of the word 'home'. It wasn't 'Sara's back' or 'Sara's returned'. No, 'home' was definitely the right word. He pressed the send button and looked up into her brown depths and smiled. Only seconds later his phone vibrated, indicating a new message, "God that woman's quick" he chuckled as he flipped it open and read.

"To: GGrissom

From: CWillows

Wonderful! Take all the time you need, you probably have about 3 years worth of holiday days saved up anyway! We'll be fine. Give Sara our love"

They both smiled as he flipped the phone shut once again.

"But aren't you on a case?"

"Screw the case" he rose to his feet and offered his hand to Sara "I've got far more important things to be concerned about right now"

"You've changed" she laughed "not that I'm complaining!"

That laugh, that laugh! oh how have I missed that laugh! He brought her close into his arms.

"Well, a wise woman once told me about stopping living for the past and start living for the future" he dropped a tender kiss onto her lips before grabbing her suitcase with his other hand "lets go and start living our future"

THE END

A/N: OK, OK, yes she ended up pregnant... but I have been kinda sad that it doesn't look like we'll ever get a geekbaby, especially after watching season 1 re-runs where Grissom got so excited about Lindsey's birthday... he was such a free spirit and we got to see some of his inner child... he would have made a great dad... so I needed to get this out of my system.

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