Author's Note: I've wanted to do this for a while actually. This is the first set in a multi-chapter series. Just little insights into everyone on the show, two at time- saving Derek and Casey for last. Dasey implied through out, and various other ships- including, and starting with Shemily.

Sheldon and Em in the first part, Kendra and Sam to come and so on.

Warnings: None for this part- although I'm rating it all teen, because I'm sure at some point I'll need it.

Disclaimer: Well, I didn't get the rights to LwD as a gift last Christmas, but its rolling around again- so maybe this year.

Sometimes Sheldon wishes he could be Derek Venturi. Well, maybe not Derek specifically, because then he'd be in with love his step-sister, and that's not a problem Sheldon wants to take on, but he does wish he could be what Derek represents. Derek is 'that guy'- that ultra cool guy, that guy that makes all the girls swoon, that guy that can just strut down the hall, that guy that is never with out plans on a Friday. Sheldon would like to be 'that guy', not all the time, maybe just for a day. Just for a day he'd like to not say the wrong things. Just for day he'd like to be able to charm his way out of anything, or into anything. Just for a day for a day he'd like to pass off a shrug and a smirk as answers. Just for a day, he'd like to be looked at and not looked through. Its funny, because Sheldon knows that in the long run, he's probably better off than a guy like Derek, at least that's what his mom always says. He knows that he is probably smarter, more motivated and more likely to succeed-but it doesn't change the fact that some days he'd give anything to be Derek. Maybe, its just because he sees the way Emily still looks at him, and he thinks that maybe, if he could just be that way for a day, she'd love him more. Maybe, if he could just learn to strut, or smirk, or be that kind of charming, maybe then she'd never leave him.

Sheldon's not sure when or why he fell quite so hard for Emily, but she's all he thinks about these days, and every time she looks at Derek, it breaks him a little. He trusts her, he does, and he knows she wouldn't cheat, but it doesn't stop the thoughts. It doesn't stop him from thinking that if he could be a little more like Derek, if he could make her look at him like that, just once, then they'd be together forever. That if he was more like Derek then he'd never have to worry that she was unhappy, or that he didn't deserve her, or that one day she'd look at him and realize that for all their talks and moments and kisses and touches he was still just Sheldon.

Emily

Emily still keeps a notebook. She still devotes more time to Derek than anyone else, but its different these days. Her notes used to say things like, "Derek smiled at me in biology today, he was wearing an orange polo shirt." That was before Sheldon, and before she made her discovery. They happened about the same time, falling for Sheldon and discovering Derek's secret. In retrospect she probably should have seen both of them coming, but she didn't- at all. Sheldon had been simpler, she'd been in English one day, and he'd tossed her note as he went to the blackboard, "Your hair is shining today- I can't stop staring at it." It was simple and random, and the kind of thing Sheldon did ALL the time, but that day, it almost overwhelmed her, because reading it, all she could think was that she loved him. She loved him, she loved his random notes about her hair, she loved his songs, she loved his awkward statements and his corny jokes. It had shaken her up and she hadn't been able to focus the rest of the day.

Derek was more complicated, or at least he took more thought, she'd been at the Mcdonald-Venturi's, watching movies with Casey. Derek had come down the stairs, and he and Casey had started fighting, something Emily had heard them do about a million times. This one felt different though, at least to her. This time she noticed the way they leaned into each other, the way they touched each other to make points, the way it sounded more like playful flirty banter than an actual fight, the way they said these things that proved they knew each other-that they got each other. It took Emily a minute to figure out what it all meant, and when she did, it shook her up all over again. So now her notes say things like, "I caught Derek staring at Casey in history today. He just gazed her for fifteen minutes, with a dopey smile on his face." and she wonders how she didn't see it a long time ago.