Inside Out

Disclaimer: I do not own Z-loan. Nope.

A/N: Well, here's some Shito/Michiru for the people who like that particular pairing. (Proof that I'm not biased to one pairing P ) I actually like both Shito/Michiru and Chika/Michiru… and Yomi/Michiru. Anyway, I hope it's satisfactory. Sorry bout' any spelling, grammar, or punctuation errors.

"No it's not meant to be like this

Not what I planned at all

I don't want to feel like this

So that makes it all your fault"

- The Walk, Imogen Heap

Shito wondered how he could love her; he wondered how he could even remotely like her. He was supposed to be emotionless… wasn't he? (Because living for all of those years as a dead man should have had some affect, right?)

Furthermore, Shito had no use for emotions and certainly not for love.

He had already been there; he had already had that, and now he didn't want to retrace those same steps, steps that he had dubbed mistakes early on in (death) life.

Or maybe he didn't want to risk rejection… risk losing his loved one again… Maybe he was a coward.

He felt stupid, like a fool, like an idiot, and if he didn't have such a tight clamp on his self control he might have acted like a schoolboy with a crush. (Even though it was more than that; even though he was acting like a schoolboy with a crush – if just a little bit.)

Michiru went from average to breathtakingly beautiful. How could Chika not see that?

But never mind Chika; he was a moron after all. Or so Shito thought.

(Really, it was a miracle that Shito and Chika could be in the same room for even a second.)

And, even if Chika didn't feel the same way that he did about Michiru, he certainly was a lot closer to the pink-haired girl than he himself was.

(Calling her 'Gopher' all the time and teasing her straight into a cute blush that Shito longed to provoke.)

Shito always, always felt overwhelmed with jealousy he didn't think he should posses.

But he did posses it, and he couldn't seem to get rid of it.

Now, if he could just get himself to stop snapping at her, (not in irritation of course; just in jealousy and pain and confusion) then maybe he could take that first, forbidden step towards her warmth and a special place in her heart…

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