Still Waiting On Tuesdays

Invader Zim/JTHM Crossover

Pairings:ZADR

Disclaimer:I do not own either of these two things , the almighty one Jhonen Vasquez does.Though after this little thing me might want to smite me.Anyway.Idea and writing does belong to me however.

"So. Tell me about yourself!"

"Myself?"

"Yes! Everything!"

"As in…"

"Your life story , yes."

"Hmm. Okay. Fine. I suppose I should start with who I am , or , was…"

I was , Dib Membrane.

Membrane!? As in-!

Proffesor Membrane was my father…

OH MY GOD! I don't recall ever hearing he had a son.

They did before. He was proud of us-

Us?

Me and my sister.

Two kids!? But. Wasn't he single?

Well ,yes,but,he had someone before , thus , we came into being.

Oh.Well. Go on.

Well. He was proud of us way back when. As young children. He thought he could still mold our brains to his shape. But when I became a paranormal investigator , fully and Gaz,my sister , became a game designer,be basically cut us off.

How terrible!

For him actually. No sooner did he do that ,he was murdered.

That's right. I remember now.

Yes. I actually do know the culprit,but he is no longer here , so it doesn't matter.

Go on.

I was born in a very upperclass part of Los Angeles. Afterall , my father was rich. I never knew my mother , I remember having one , but not her directly. Anyway. We grew up with my father , raised only by him , but by the time we were in third grade , he worked more then worrying about us. We learned to fend for ourselves mostly. I became engulfed in the paranormal and Gaz in her games. Then…in fifth grade,my life was turned upside down…from..one simple..erhm..thing…

Which was what?

An alien.

Dib trudged to skool. The bruises from that Christmas Eve still showing bluntly enough to be seen.Snow still covered the ground. For extra protection he had mits and a scarf. The human boy glared ahead. He detested the world even more today.

As he neared the very eroded building ,his eyes caught on his most hated enemy.

Zim.

A growl escaped him , causing the alien to turn from facing the skool and smirk at him. Dib glared turned to undying hate easily seen in his eyes.

"Why. Hello there Dib-filth."

"Ugh." Dib stated , moving past him and heading to the large doors. But the little green skinned foreign 'boy' was very quick.He leaned against the 'pull' doors , crossing his lanky arms and grinning,showing off his zipper like teeth. Dib huffed through his nose.

"Move."

"Why should I?" The alien snapped , his grin playfully on his face.

"NOW!" Dib hissed , grabbing Zim by his pink collar and tossing him aside , the alien slipping and landing in snow. Fake purple contacts met real hazel brown eyes. They hung there briefly before the human trudged away , leaving him snapping and hissing comments at him. Ones he had gotten to far away to hear once they started. He marched into Miss Bitters class , basically throwing himself into his chair. The teacher looked at him briefly before looking down , reading from a book titled 'I Hate Children'.

Dib rested his head onto his table , closing his eyes briefly. Life was going downhill to fast for his taste.

Shoes clicked against the tiled floor. His eyes opened slightly , for they stopped infront of his desk. He growled , lifting his head up. "WHAT!?" He barked angrily , but the rage erased from his face.

The brace faced Gretchen looked at him , scared. "I-I'm sorry." She stuttered. Dib frowned.

"No I'm sorry. Didn't mean to yell at you." She nodded.

"I-Is something wrong Dib?" She asked ,actually concerned. This confused Dib , but he opened his mouth to reply.

"Talking to the female monster again are we Dib-pet?" A hiss came from the door. Dib looked with utter hatred to the green skinned alien , who looked on with just as much hatred.

Gretchen looked from Dib to Zim briefly.

"You know.." She suddenly piped up , causing both to snap their attentions to her. "U-uhm. My mom always said when to people pick on each other and stuff , it means they like each other." Dib flushed a brilliant red at these words. Zim just looked confused. Dib's reaction was enough to send Gretchen scurrying off.

"Like each other? Like?" Zim looked to Dib , waiting for an explination for his features and what'd she said.

"Go away Zim."

"Then tell me what she was saying."

"No. Now go away."

Zim got dangerously close to Dib , glaring."Tell Zim."

"No! Get away!" Dib growled.

Torke Smacky appeared from the doorway , looking at the two. Zim was pulled onto Dib's desking , glaring him straight ahead , Dib was pulling back , trying to keep distance. A smirk crossed the boy face. He ran up as fast as he could and shoved Dib , laughing and hooting.

Zim meeped before his word was cut off by a pair of pale warm lips. Dib looked at the alien , now closer then he ever thought possible. The twos pupils grew small as all in the class laughed , calling them names , and living it up. But the two just starred at each other. Zim slowly pulled away , sliding off the desk. Dib looked at him , eyes still wide.

"SIT NOW ZIM!" Miss Bitters barked. He did as told , not a word said. The laughter still filled the classroom. But both victim of this horrible treatment looked down , silent , blushing and a little confused.

So you…

Kissed an alien. My first kiss. Imagine that. But it eventually changed by life.

How so?

Well…things got..alittle better after…

How could kissing a MALE alien be something good?

Well..I realized what I liked in a person..er…guy..

Ah…

It also sorta made us stop hating each other more..and…well….led to a lot…

"Dib…"

"Diiib…"

"DIIIB PLEASE OPEN THE GODDAMN WINDOW!" A shrill cry bellowed , alien tears running down his green face.

The human threw his window open. "Oh my god what!? It's fucking two AM! PEOPLE SLEEP YOU KNOW AND-w-what's wrong?"

Zim sniffed , holding back some tears now ,though the uncontrollable ones still made trails down his sad face. Dib now frowned. "Tell me what's wrong.." He reached for him slightly , but it was all the invitation the alien needed. He leapt. Dib moved off , grabbing a weapon he kept in his drower. Zim skidded to the floor , hissing.

The alien stood up and looked at him , still crying. "What the hell was that for!?"

"Y-you attack me!"

"I was trying to…ugh.." He stood , striding over to Dib , both now in Middle School and gained some older features and height. He wrapped his arms around Dib , something the human still wasn't used to after a few years. Then. He broke down.

Hot tears poured from his eyes , hiccupping and crying incoherent things. Dib just held him steady , arms around his waist. Then he caught the words the explained it all.

"Tallests…" Sob. "Lied…" Sob. "No misson.." Sob. "BANISHMENT!" Zim cried loudly. He'd never seen the alien show so much emotion at once. The Tallest , his leaders , had lied about his mission or as he was saying now , banishment. There was no mission to take over earth , it was just a way to get rid of him.

Dib slid to the floor , alien in his arms. Zim was out of tears now and fighting to get air. Dib waited till he had gentle breathing brought to an end by the occasional rapid cries. "Zim.."

The alien's anntenas perked , he knew for Zim wasn't wearing his disguise. "Forget them. They're morons anyway..I've spoken to them..you're better off."

"No!" The alien clutched at his pajamas. "No I'm not! I have no purpose now! No mission! What am I good for!"

"A lot!" Dib snapped , pulling Zim away and holding him by the upper arms. "Get over this Zim! You're better then that! You're-!..You're-…You're…you are greater then the Tallests Zim..you're better." Dib was silent. Zim slowly processed what was being said.

He lifted his head from looking down. His ruby red eyes were still glazed with tears.

"You mean it?"He choked out.

"Of course…"Dib replied , smiling. Zim tried to return the gesture. It was strange seeing him smile with no cackle behind it. Then. Something happened he really didn't expect. Despite it all.

Though after what had happened that December day long ago , they never got around to LIKING each other.Never did they think about being together as they were now. For Zim ,putting his hands on each side of Dib's face , pulled him close. Why Dib thought he'd be doing something different was never clear. But he also didn't respond in the common way.

Though last time they'd done this , it'd been and accident. It still somehow felt akward and strange. But now both were trying. For a few minutes they held 'the act of swapping spit'. Zim pulling away , just as flushed and out of breathe as Dib was.

They stared each other down for a long period of time. Dib closed the distance again and the deed was done.

So you ended up together?

Shocking. I know. But yes. After that night we became basically inseperable. Nobody , for a long time , ever found we were , ya know , a couple. And that was fine with us. We were still in school. We wouldn't be able to handle the taunting.

Hmm…

Well. As time went on. Things got better and better. Zim and I constantly looked out for each other. At first people would ask , well yell , about why the hell we were together at all. After years of screaming across a classroom 'I hate you' it would be odd. But eventually they stopped. We were 'friends' now. No questions asked. Of course. When Zim started to pay me a few uhm , late night visits , and end up being there in the morning..My dad got suspicious.

You let him STAY overnight with you?

I didn't think at the time my dad would wonder. He was hardly ever there. Yeah sure he was there maybe three times , watching me and Zim come walking down the stairs but , I never thought about it.

So , what happened with him?

My dad finally asked me what's going on. I tried to play it off. But. Suddenly. He brought up the whole ' I DON'T SUPPORT HOMOSEXUALITY SON.'

He actually said that to you?

Yes. I was kinda shocked. I mean. I know he would've reacted some way..but I never thought like that. I tried to get Zim to leave in the mornings then. Before my dad could see. But. He took it as I didn't want him there anymore. So. He never came over again. I instead tried my luck of sneaking out and getting to his house , but he had the advantage over me in that department. He could easily travel across houses. I had to jump out my window and hope I don't die. So. We started to do alittle more , uhm , public things. We went out together regularly. Though we didn't exactly do the things we'd done in my room.

Hmm. Then what?

Then. It all went to shit.

Zim sat contently in Dib's lap. They both sat on a distant hill top. It was the only place they could go to actually show more of their 'more then friendship' relationship. Zim turned around now. Looking away from somewhat dim lights of the city to gaze at Dib.

The alien ran his hand through Dib's hair , smiling gently. Dib , smiling back , leaned forward. Pecking him on his lips. Zim purred , enjoyably , antennas smoothing out and nuzzling against Dib's neck.

Dib gently moved Zim over to lay against the grass. Zim blinked at him for a moment.A red tint colored his cheeks as a sly smirk found its way to hiss face. Dib to smirked. Obviusly. Both knew what the other was thinking and was all for it.

Dib leaned down to kiss Zim once more. Zim purred slightly ,let his fingers idly mess with his hair. But Dib didn't stay there long. He moved to the side of his mouth down to the part of the neck where it met shoulder,planting kisses , nipping and biting along the way.

You mean you.

We were.

In public view?

Yep.

Someone could have seen you..

Oh. Someone did. A lot of someones actually. Thankfully we never got around to anything TO terrible.

Unaware to any people who also found themselves on that hill , staring and whispering to others with them,they continued. Zim bit back a moan as Dib kissed and bit , occasionally sucking ,his neck. The humans hands were busy trying to get rid of the aliens clothing.

But suddenly both froze. For a small white flash had caught there attention. Both sat up , Zim quickly throwing on his wig and contacts , both messy and uncorrect , but they were on.

Gaz , stood , not a yard away.

A camera was in her hand. She looked at the two coldy.

"G-Gaz. What did you do?"

"Nothing." She stated , putting the camera away.

"Please. Gaz. Give me the camera." Dib begged , walking towards her.

"No. You're lieing to Dad. Bringing this faggot into our house. And. This makes great blackmail." And Gaz turned to leave. Laughing.

Dib looked almost shocked.

A growl snapped him back to reality. And Zim zipped by. In a few meer seconds , he was on her.

He attacked your SISTER!?

Yes. And no.

What?

He didn't kill her or anything like that.

Then what'd he do.

Push her down the hill to crack her skull open on a car that was at the bottom.

…

I know not much better aye? But we got the picture and destroyed it. Also. Gaz lost most of her memory. So. Me and my dad got her to be alitte less dark aswell. It was a somewhat plus. We also convinced my dad Zim had saved her from dieing and he welcome him in with open arms. He didn't care if he ate with us in the morning anymore.

How nice…

To nice really..

Why?

I mean…My life had always been a giant piece of shit..this..whole thing was akward..so..of course..I had to ruin it…

Ruin it?

Yep…

"You're WHAT!?"

"Dad please. You even said you liked Zim!"

"But not as a boyfriend for my son!" Proffesor Membrane bellowed , towering over the freshman high schooler.

"But Dad!"

"No buts! I told you before! I don't support gays! Get it!"

"Dad…"

"NO! HE CAN NOT COME OVER ANYMORE! EVER! YOU UNDERSTAND! AND YOU WILL NOT BE WITH HIM,EVER!" And he stormed away.

Gaz , dressed in primary colors , a bow in her hair and looked confused , looked to Dib. Tears were already at his eyes. A light knock was heard. Both their heads snapped to its direction. His father was already moving towards it. Already knowing who it was.

Dib ran , trying to block him. "No dad!" He managed to get to the door as it was being opened.

Now. Dib stood slightly next to Zim , tears streaming down his face. Zim blinked at him. "What's wrong?"

Proffesor Membrane grabbed Zim by the neck. "Stay away from my son. You hear me. Don't talk to him. Look at him. Don't even think of him. Now get out." He threw Zim to the step outside , pulling Dib in again and slamming the door.

You told him?

I thought he'd be okay with it. Obviously I was wrong.

So what happened.

Well. That night. Zim snuck into my room and basically just held me while I cried. I figured I couldn't stay there without being put down. So. We decided I'd live with him. It was the best thing I'd heard all day. So. The next day I gathered my things , told me dad off , the whole 'fuck you' deal and ran away. By the time I'd gotten to his house my stuff I couldn't carry was already set up in my own room. My dad never spoke to me again. Though occasionly Gaz would call , my dad telling her to ask things in the background.

So. What happened? You don't live with him now do you?

No. Not for awhile. Infact. What got me to leave was what happened a month or so later. I noticed Zim became more and more hostile to my father and sister. He didn't want me to talk to them. Infact. Hardly anyone. I didn't have many friends. But. He was overly protective so I couldn't so much as look to any I had. My dad finally showed up on our doorstep. I didn't go see him. Instead. My dad and Zim yelled it out. Zim camed talking in and hissed at me "He's next I fucking swear!" And walked away.

…

… That was the night my dad was killed. Gaz came to live with us after. Zim tolerated her more because of her relationship with Gir-

Gir?

His stupid robot dog , anyway. I knew it was him. I confronted him about it. But never did he answer me. But anyway. I remember sneaking out with Gaz one night. We went to a part a classmate of hers was having. I remember coming home to him even more hostile. He basically beat the shit out of him.

He beat you?

Yep. For a long time actually. And everytime getting more and more cruel. Gaz couldn't do anything. I didn't want her too. Somehow. I thought this was from all the good I was getting. This was the pain I needed.

You let this carry on?

Till Junior year…then…I let it out.

Let it out?

I told him I didn't want to be with him anymore , I left with Gaz and we lived in a new house my dads will had said was put in my name. We lived fine. Zim didn't call or anything for a long long time. Then one night. He visited me.

He kept saying he needed me. And if I wasn't going to come back. He wasn't going to leave. I was so angry at seeing him. I said fine. And you know what. He wasn't bluffing. He left me a note saying maybe he'd visit next Tuesday. To see how life was without him. God. I hated him so much. But the news sunk in and I was absent the rest of the school year. Gaz tried to help. But not even she could do anything. I was wallowed in self hate. Self hate I inflicted upon myself at times. And finally. It became to much. I began to go insane. I destroyed everything. Gaz became to frightened of me that she took her things and left. As far as I know , she's long gone , changed her name , for I did look for her , changed her appearance. Gone.

I became even more insane. I finished high school though. After that. I spent a year period of basically trying to disappear , kill myself. Of course I wasn't successful. I got the idea that maybe I wasn't supposed to die. I had a higher purpose then that. So. I spent another year , trying to figuire that out. Then. I figured it out…I was supposed to rid the world of ass holes like Zim , my father. Of everyone who ever taught me…and there was only one way to do that…

What's that?

..Murder…

..what?

Killing. Taking a knife and shanking them. You understand?

Y-yes..

Well…I started to. Going after the ones who hurt me most..constantly..though..as a pathetic attempt , I wouldn't on Tuesday..I wanted to see what good I'd done. Not me doing it.

The killings a few years ago..that was you?

Yes. Finally though. People figured it out. And knew where I lived. So. I uprooted , changed my name and went far away. That's when I became Johnny C.

What does the C. Stand for?

Cornelius.

Cornelius?

Yep. Believe it or not. That was my middle name as Dib Membrane. Dib Cornelius Membrane. Of course. I never told anyone this. I mean. How stupid would I be? So. I moved to a lower part of LA. And continued with my actions. And the funny thing was. I never got caught. Not even close. Though instead of worrying about police and such I was worrying about a monster behind my wall and two deranged Pillsbury dough boys.

I tried to forget everything. My family. Zim..everything. I TRIED being happy with someone else. But the emotion. Happiness. It had been so long since I actually felt it that I couldn't feel it the right way. I ended up chasing her away. God..that time got me..I felt so stupid..why would I want to kill the person who gave me happiness..but I knew it was because I was not worthy of the happiness…no I was not..then..I killed myself..it took awhile..but I did it..and…then I came back..

Came..back?

Yes. You see this scar? I shot myself in the head. Blew my eye clear out. But this angel up in heaven gave me a bandaid and I was okay.

O..kay.

Well anyway. I came back and then left..again..

Left?

Yes. I felt I needed to. To…think about my actions.

Did you?

Yes. And I realized , for Satan had told me. That I was doing okay. So. I returned. Of course. I didn't hear voices anymore. Just a talking meat man. Though. I am doing much better now. I don't kill AS much. Nor do I think of Zim , well , except for right now. Though. I gotta tell ya..I still do wait on Tuesdays…

So…then what?

Nothing. I'm here. Talking to you.

"O-oh" Said the red headed therapist. Looking nervous and disoriented. Johnny C. sat across from her , smiling. She looked down behind her desk , a red button looking ready to be pushed. To send the guards in.

Her finger trembled towards it.

"I wouldn't if I were you…" He stated , leaning forward.

"W-what do you mean."

He smiled. "Is there something wrong?"

"You just admitted murder to me…"

"Oh…really? Guess I did…"

"Yes…"

"What do you plan to do?"

He finger was at the button.

"For you see." She looked up to him in horror. From his jacket he pulled out a knife , caked in dried blood. " That wouldn't be very wise…"

A hideous scream is what brought the guards. He stood by the door , weapon planted. Looking terrified.

"T-that woman! She killed herself!" The gaurds ran in , gasping at the therapist , throat cut and rusty blade still in hand. He gagged and ran away , down the steps into the open street. He was greeted by cool air.

Police were starting to show up. He silently went on , acting as if nothing was wrong. He heated to do it. She seemed nice. He pulled out the papers the therapist had written his life story on. He looked at all the pages that held Zim's name..it hurt to look at what was past.

He stopped , looking up briefly. What day was it? Tuesday? A smile wormed its way to his face. He put the papers away and flat out ran , skidding to a stop in a familiar empty home.

Zim had gone , but left the hallowed out building behind. He looked up at it. Coldly at first. But. Then. With grief. Deep down. He knew his love for the alien still lived. Lived within him as much as way back when. With a heavy sigh. Nny slumped against the door , looking up to the dark sky , stars barely visible.

But. One was. It streaked across the bleakness, appearing and stopping enough to where he could see it. He blinked for a moment. And suddenly. Smiled. Tears silently went down his face. "Still waiting..."

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Authors notes: I dunno if I should continue this. xD but..tell me if you do..I have a do and don't thing going on. So. Yeah.

TBC..?