Kaoru sighed to herself as she lay on her soft queen sized bed, seemingly reminiscing on past events.

"Where did it all go wrong?" she murmured to herself in wonder, turning to her side and pulling a fluffy white pillow towards her.

Women would have berated her for her self-pitying attitude. "Especially Megumi." She grinned.

She had everything a woman could want. Unlimited supply of money, a huge mansion, a bunch of servants who cater to her every whim, a gorgeous husband who used to be her best friend…

"Who didn't love me." She sarcastically thought. She had everything a woman could ever want, that was true. But she didn't have what she wanted.

"Oh, the irony of life." she rolled her eyes as she remembered her failed marriage.

On the outside, they looked happy. Her husband with his flaming blood red hair and cool golden eyes… her with her midnight blue locks and sapphire eyes…

They complemented eachother completely.

They both knew that was only on the outside though. Only he knew the truth… well, he thinks he knows.

The supposed "business meetings" in the middle of the night.

The sensual sounds that echo through the house when they thought she wasn't there…

Oh, she knew.

She remembered finding a pair of lingerie under the sheets when she and her servant were cleaning.

Since the servant washed all of their laundry, she asked her if it was hers.

Ofcourse she said yes. It wouldn't do to promote a scandal now would it? It wasn't surprising that she wasn't hurt by all of this. After all, she was married for five years to the amber-eyed man. Catching him cheating was starting to lose its interest after a while.

She asked herself if at one point in time she was hurt by the lies of her husband.

Yes, she was.

At one point she hurt so badly at the thought of him being with another, at one point she was in love with him. But not anymore, there's only so much a heart could take after all.

She recalled taking the flimsy material from the girl and walking to her husband's office that was conveniently placed beside the bedroom.

She almost laughed herself into insanity as she remembered the expression on her husband's face when she showed him the proof of her husband's infidelity hanging precariously on her pointing finger.

She didn't know whether to be happy or sad when he didn't say anything, but those eyes could tell her more than she needed to know.

He was cheating on her.

Well, she didn't care anyway.

"If you do plan on defiling our vow of faithfulness, the least you could do was to be discreet about it." She mocked him, throwing the panties onto his organized table, which she knew was where he took his mistress over and over. She gave him one last haughty look before walking to the door.

"Tell me," she suddenly said when she reached the door, "If you just planned on cheating on me, why did you marry me in the first place?" she asked.

"Kaoru..."

She snapped the moment her uttered her name. Her blue eyes flashed dangerously when she turned her gaze on the man she had married. Oh, now he looked regretful? Well, what about her? She was the one sacrificing herself in this marriage. Letting him go gallivanting around with some unnamed woman. And she planned on telling him exactly that.

"You have no right to call me by my first name." she said scathingly, clenching her fists at her sides.

He fell silent after her words which only seemed to spur her anger even more.

It was time to let it all out.

"You know, I was happy when I found out I was marrying you at first." She confessed quietly.

Kenshin's gold eyes snapped open in surprise before turning to stare at the floor.

"I thought it would be nice since we were friends. I was so sure that even though we didn't love eachother, at least we would be friends." She shut her eyes, breathing in deeply. "How wrong I was." She laughed bitterly.

"You don't need to explain to me why you're doing it. I perfectly understand. But, I didn't agree to marry you just so I can help you keep you're pathetic adultery a secret for the rest of my life." She forced out, staring at him levelly. Normally this was the part where girls break down and cry, but she had wasted far too much tears on this man.

"Why did you agree to marry me?" he voiced out softly, looking at her directly.

She paused; did she really want to make herself vulnerable to him? She sighed mentally; it was the only way to close this discussion forever. Besides, she couldn't keep it a secret forever.

"Because I love you." She whispered achingly. "Oh god, I can't believe I fell in love with you. A lying, cold-hearted bastard." She muttered darkly.

"I'm sorry…"

Kaoru stopped laughing.

"You're sorry? OH! You're sorry!" she scoffed. "Well, I'm sorry Mr. Himura, but sorry isn't going to make up for every damn tear I've cried since I married you. It doesn't make up for the five years I've wasted trying to make this fucking marriage work! It doesn't make up for all the pain and suffering and the covering up I had to do for you! And it certainly doesn't make up for me finding you and you're whore in the middle of copulating in MY bed." She cried hysterically, pointing her finger at him. Even now, not even a single tear was shed.

"Kaoru—"

"STOP SAYING MY NAME LIKE THERE'S NOTHING WRONG, BECAUSE EVERYTHING IS FUCKING WRONG!!!"

Kenshin looked at her stonily. "What do you want then?"

Kaoru looked up at him. This is it. Freedom was within her grasp… all she needed to do was take it. "I want a divorce. Effective immediately." She returned his gaze levelly.

He nodded impassively, getting a file from his drawer.

When Kaoru looked back on it now, when she was standing there, in the middle of Kenshin's office, a part of her was still hoping he would try to stop her, convince her it would work. She realized then it was just a fool's dream, and what little hope was left in her, it was gone.

She watched dazedly as he signed the papers without stopping. That was all this marriage meant to him after all. Just something he could throw away at an instant. She didn't know whether that hurt her or not. She was just numb. She walked towards the table, pulling out her own pen and signed.

The atmosphere was heavy when it was over. But Kaoru felt strangely relieved. She was free. "I'll pack my bags now." She informed him softly, walking towards the door.

"I am sorry, Kaoru." She heard him whisper, she closed her eyes tightly. "I know you are." She replied, walking out the door, not looking back.

She had gotten what she wanted, so… why then?

Why then was she crying?

The raven haired woman sighed to herself for the second time that evening. She looked towards the sapphire stone perched on top of a beautiful silver band. It had been almost a year eversince she divorced him. Now, she was getting ready to marry for a second time. This time, to a man she did love.

She smiled contentedly as she remembered the playful, almost childlike, blue eyes of her fiancé. "Soujiro…" she whispered in her mind, loving the sound of his name.

She was going to be happily married next week. Nothing was going to change that.