A/N-And here it is..the final chapter. Took me three hours to write, I just couldn't write the ending the way I wanted to. It turned out ok, but it could be better. I cant believe I actually finished this, my first story, and it was semi successful lol. I'm already working on my next story. I hope you all like this. Enjoy!
I tried to ignore them, I tried to ignore the glances he would make every so often over here, I tried to ignore my thoughts of shoving Beth up against a wall and banging her head against it until she was unconscious. But all that trying was getting me no where, in between trying to pay attention and talk with Randy, my eyes kept averting to Jeff's table. I watched in disgust as Beth laughed at something he said. What a bitch, I mean c'mon, Jeff isn't even funny, his jokes are lame, half the time he doesn't even know what he is talking about. He is harder to hold a conversation with then Shannon is. I look at Randy, and am relieved that he doesn't seem to notice I have been completely ignoring him since Jeff walked him, only nodding my head a few times and some barely coherent words. I glance back over at Jeff, and am disgusted at what I see. You have got to be kiddin' me. Beth had gotten up from her previous seat across from Jeff, and is now sitting beside him, sharing a plate of spaghetti with him. How pathetic. I tear my eyes away when I feel Randy staring at me.
" So what do you think"? He asks. I have not one clue as to what he asked me what so ever. Is there a nice way to tell him that I was ignoring him because I was to busy watching Jeff and Beth, to pay any mind to him? No! I didn't think so.
" I'm sorry Randy, I wasn't listening" I tell him truthfully. He lets out a little chuckle.
" You know, I'm not used to people woman ignoring me. I mean, I am the Legend Killer" He says with a smile.
" I'm sure your not, and I'm really sorry. So what did you ask me."? I ask, glad he didn't take offense to me ignoring him.
" I knew you weren't listening to me, so I wanted throw you off for a minute"
" Well you succeeded" I tell him with a laugh.
" So, you want to tell me whats got your mind clouded over"? He asks, with a sincere voice. I don't see why people think he is a cocky arrogant bastard, only concerned about himself. He hasn't really talked about himself a lot, the whole time we have been out.
" That over there" I tell him with a nod of my head towards Jeff and Beth.
" I figured that, the moment they walked through the door, your eyes haven't stopped moving" He says, but not sounding surprised that it was Jeff I was talking about.
" Well look at them, it's sickening" I tell him in a disgusted voice. I watch him turn and look, at the same scene I was earlier.
" Yeah, your right" He says, making a face himself, causing me to laugh. I take the time to actually look at Randy, I mean really look at him. He is gorgeous, from his short black hair to his piercing blue eyes, not to mention he is built like a Greek god. I study his face, and notice the fading bruise, I can only assume is from Jeff hitting him.
" I'm sorry about Jeff hitting you" I tell him, genuinely sorry about it.
" I deserved it."
" Nevertheless, he had no right to hit you Randy."
" Hey its alright. So why are you mad that he is here with that woman" He asks, motioning towards Beth.
" That's Beth, Jeff's ex."
" So you don't like her, is that why your mad"?
" No, not exactly..." I don't really know how to explain it to him, so I don't.
" I understand, so what do you say we make him jealous"? He asks me with a smirk.
" Randy, we can't do that"? I say, surprised he would suggest that.
" Why not, he's doing it to make you jealous, you can do it to make him jealous."
" There is nothing to be jealous over" I tell him.
" I've seen the way you look at him Raegan, and vise versa."
" It doesn't matter anymore Randy"
" Sure it does, you deserve to be happy to" He says, and I smile shyly at him.
" So do you Randy, at least for tonight. And I'm not going to give you what you want, so go Randy, while the night is still young." He looks at me surprised, but doesn't object.
" Alright, but I want you to know that wasn't my intention at all. I just wanted to make up for that whole incident" He says pulling out his wallet, and dropping two twenties on the table.
" I know it wasn't, and you made up for it."
" So we good"? He asks, standing in front of me.
" Yeah we're good"
" You want me to take you home"?
" No, its ok, I'll just take a cab later." He nods his head and leaves.
As I watch him walk out the door, I just get even madder at Jeff. Its his fault I can hold a date with someone. Its his fault I'm miserable, and its his fault I'm alone. I sit and stare at my food, playing with it for awhile, thinking about how much I hate Jeff. I sigh, knowing I'm lying to myself, I'm the farthest thing away from hating him. But what right does he have to ignore me for two days, not saying one word to me, then interrogating Randy when he comes to pick me, then bring his ex girlfriend who he knows I cant stand, to the same restaurant he knows I'm at? I look around, and notice not many people are in here, including Jeff and Beth. Figures, now I cant go home for awhile, because I don't want to take the chance of going home, and seeing her there. The more I think about it, the less angry I get, and the more saddened I get. I can feel the tears form in the corners of my eyes, but I fight to keep back. I jerk my head up when I feel the table shift, signaling someone sat down. I look up and see Jeff with a concerned look on his face. Asshole.
" Are you ok"? He asks lightly.
" I'm fine" I say, in a tone that tells him to leave me alone.
" Rae, listen..." Either he cant take hints or he is just plain old ignoring them.
" No Jeff, you ignored me for two days, acted like I didn't exist, and now you want me to listen"? I accuse, in a disbelieving tone.
"You accused me of wanting to have sex with you Rae, what did you want me to do, jump for joy" His voice rising.
" Well thats all you wanted Jeff"
" No its not, and you know that, but for some damn reason, you wont accept it."
"Shouldn't you be with Beth"? I ask, keeping my anger in check.
" No, I took her home" He says, calming down, for the time being.
" Then why did you come back"?
" I saw asshole left you here, and you don't have a way home."
" First off, Randy didn't leave me here, I told him to go. Secondly, I can take a cab home."
" Now you don't have to, I will drive you"
" No you wont, I didn't come here with you, and I'm not leaving here with you"
" Randy didn't say or do anything to you, did he?" He asks, it must have just dawned on him to ask why I didn't leave with Randy.
" No Jeff, I told him to leave because I wasn't going to give what he wanted." I say, realizing that didn't actually sound to nice when saying it to someone else.
" So once the dick realized you weren't puttin' out, he leaves you? Typical Orton."
" Go to hell Jeff, at least he didn't sleep with me and then tell me to forget about it" I say, my voice laced with anger.
" Are you ever going to let that drop, it was almost seven years ago"?
" Its to bad I was talking about the one that happened almost three days ago."
" C'mon, lets just go home and talk about this."
" I told you I wasn't going anywhere with you, that includes riding in a car Jeff. I will take a cab."
" Its after nine Raegan, cab service stopped and hour ago" He says with a smirk. I frown, I didn't even think about the time.
" Then I will walk." I say, not letting him get the better of me.
" Its ten miles, its cold out, and its raining." Could this night get any worse.
" I don't care"! I cried out at him, sick of this conversation.
" What is your problem, why wont you let me help you"?
" You've become so good at hurting me Jeff, do you even remember how to help me"? I ask, my voice barely above a whisper. I look at him, and can see the shock on his face.
" You know what, you can do what you want. I'm tired of trying. If this is how your going to be, I'm leaving" And he did just that. He left, and didn't even give me a second look. Which, if I were him, I would have done the same thing. I guess I have been a bitch a to him. He tried to apologize, but I wouldn't let him. Funny how this all comes to me after he leaves. I sit there and stir my drink around for a whole twenty seconds before it hits me...I love Jeff. Despite everyone telling me that for days now, and part of me knowing it, that was the first time I admitted it to myself. I stand up, hoping I can still catch him before he leaves. I run outside, and can see the rain pouring down. I cant really see anything though.
" Jeff" I yell, stepping out, the rain immediately stinging my face due to the cold. I shiver and wrap my arms around myself.
" Jeff" I yell again, after getting no response the first time. I'm about to give up, and begin my long walk home, when I hear his voice.
" What"? He asks, from somewhere in front of me. The rain is coming down so hard I cant even see him.
" Good, I thought you already left"? I say, completely ignoring his question.
" I was in the car, and realized I let the keys inside." He says, still out of my line of sight.
" Good, I'm glad." I stand there and say nothing else.
" Did you want something Rae"?
" Yes" Again, that was all I said.
" Are you gonna tell me"? His voice sounds irritated.
" I don't know" I know I'm being difficult, but I'm losing my courage to tell him everything I set out to. The rain is beginning to let up, and I can finally see him standing there, about ten feet in front of me.
" I don't have time for this" He turns around, walking back towards the car, apparently already have gotten his keys. I can't let him go again. Without even thinking about it, I yell out to him.
" I love you"! He stops dead in his tracks, but doesn't turn around.
" What" He says, rather then asks.
"I love you" I tell him again, stepping closer to him. He turns around and looks at me.
" What"? He asks again, dumbly.
" I do Jeff, I love you. You know I do. I caused the fights, and I admit it. I was looking for things to make me hate you, I really was. Because I could feel myself falling fast Jeff, and I was falling hard, and I didn't want to get hurt. I didn't want to ruin what we had goin' on, and I didn't want it to end in us hating each other. I didn't want to turn into my parents, so I pushed you a way, and kept you at a distance. But then I lost it one day and kissed you, and it all went down hill from there, everything that I didn't want to happen, happened. So I did what I was best at, I was a bitch to you. I ignored the feelings I had for you, hell I have been doing it for years. But I cant ignore them anymore Jeff, I love you, and I want to be with you." I tell him, standing right in front of him, watching him take in everything I just said to him. Everything was the truth. I think that was the most I have ever said to him in my life, I just put my heart in the line, and he is just standing there, saying nothing. I get the hint after awhile.
" Its ok Jeff, I understand. I just wanted you to know" I say, defeated, I guess I waited a little to long, and put him through to much, to ever be with me. I start to walk past him but he grabs my wrist gently turning me around. He stares at me for a moment before cupping my face.
" I love you too" He says gently, surprising the hell out of me.
" Really" I ask in disbelief. He laughs and nods his head.
" Yes really, and I want to be with you to, I always have Rae, but you and your stubborn ass wouldn't take the hint" I laugh, and wrap my arms around myself, almost freezing, my skin still wet from the previous rain. He lets go of my face and takes off his sweatshirt and hands it to me.
" Thank yo-" I'm cut off by his lips on mine. His lips are warm and moist against mine, and I can honestly say I have never felt anything better in my life. We pull away after a few minutes and he puts an arm around my shoulder.
"C'mon, lets go home and make out in front of Matt, and watch him have a heart attack." He says, leading us towards the car.
" Sounds good" I say with a laugh. We get in the car, and begin home. I can't help but smile as I look down at our hands, laced together, and for the first time in a long time, I'm truly one hundred percent happy.
A/N- I told you the ending wasn't so good! I Just couldnt think of anything, and that is what came out. I couldnt make Randy a bad guy in this, I just love him to much. I hope you all like this story.