Gentle Harmony
Disclaimer: I don't own the Twilight series or any of its characters.
Chapter 5
I woke up early the next morning to find Charlie's note saying that he had my car towed and that it would take a few days to have it fixed. He was hoping that I'd have someone to call and give me a ride to school, if not he just told me to call him.
Like hell I would.
I wouldn't ride in that cruiser with Charlie even if it meant I'd have to walk the whole way to school, which is probably what I'll have to do.
I sighed and ate my cereal silently hoping that I wouldn't trip a lot the whole way to school. I was getting ready to go, pumping myself up, conjuring positive thoughts…or I was trying anyway.
So imagine my surprise when I saw the very familiar silver Volvo parked in my very own driveway. Edward was out in a flash, with that trademark crooked smile that I am starting to really love.
"I figured you'd need my services again, ma'am." He said in a teasing manner, his eyebrows arching up which I found so achingly adorable.
I really do love him.
"Why, you are correct again, kind sir." I replied while giving a little bow in a very bad British accent.
A silent moment passed between us and then we both burst out laughing.
I have never laughed so freely before, it was such a good change from my usually guarded self. Edward Cullen seems to have a way of bringing out the best of me.
It was so…normal yet for me it was very precious at the same time. I am not sure for how long this is going to continue but for now, I am content with the friendship we seem to have formed.
I am not asking for anything more because I know it's really not possible. I do not deserve him and I surely won't bother him with my feelings, feelings that I have just recently come to terms with.
But this doesn't mean that I couldn't continue loving him, because I know for a fact that no matter what I do to stop myself…with each passing hour, minute, second, my love for him only grows.
"How are you today, Bella?" He asked once we were comfortable inside.
Ah he said my name I almost wanted to giggle like a love struck teen…which come to think of it, I am.
I turned to him and smiled, "I'm pretty good, thank you."
I wanted to ask him about his eyes but I couldn't, I didn't want to ruin the moment or the friendship we seemed to have formed.
It was no surprise that in less than 5 minutes we arrived at school, what with his insane driving and all. He was out in an instant and right beside my door opening it for me.
He walked me to class and I could literally feel everyone staring at us, it was making me uneasy. However, Edward never once looked away from me, he was oblivious to the stares and only seemed to have eyes for me. It made me feel so special…but I refused to give myself any false hope.
At lunch I was sitting with Angela and the other kids when Ange's eyes widen and pointed behind me. I turned to look and there was Edward.
He held his hand out and I didn't hesitate to take it, my hand fit perfectly in his, it was as if it was made just for me.
This went on for several weeks, he picked me up every morning even after my truck was fixed. We always sat together during lunch, isolated from everyone else and we talked about everything. Music, Art you name it but I was always careful not to give out too much information about my past and he was always careful not to talk too much about his family.
Nevertheless, I was very happy yet when people ask me just what my relationship with Edward was I get very confused. I didn't really know what to reply, we were more than friends but we weren't exactly in that kind of relationship either.
I tried convincing myself that I was satisfied with this, that I couldn't ask for more. But with each passing moment that I spend with him the longing to tell him that I love him so dearly just grows, the longing to feel his lips on mine and to call him my own… It's almost getting to be too much and once or twice I almost slipped and told him but no…I didn't want to risk ruining what we have now.
One afternoon, he was driving me home and I tried not to show how confused I am or just how much I longed to be with him I was in deep thought and I guess I was unusually silent to him anyway since I only really ever talk a lot when it's Edward that I'm talking to.
"What's wrong?" He asked gently, glancing at me.
"Hm? Nothing." I replied, faking my smile.
He sighed and ran his fingers through his hair but he didn't ask any further questions and I was relieved because I knew that if he asked enough times I'd tell him everything.
I was so out of it I didn't realize that we have already arrived at my house.
"Bella?" Edward said, putting a hand on my shoulder.
That small physical contact did it. I just couldn't help it anymore. It's too much.
I took his hand and held it tightly. We just sat there for awhile staring at each other, I could feel the tension rising.
"Just kiss me." I whispered…so softly that it was barely audible.
But I knew Edward heard it. The surprise was evident in his eyes but it was soon replaced by a longing that mirrored mine.
He leaned in and I too leaned in instinctively, we were only a few inches apart. I could feel his breath on my face, it smelled so sweet. My eyes slowly began to close but just when our lips were about to touch…
He stopped.
Held my face and said in a heart breaking voice…
"I'm sorry, Bella."
I sat there for awhile, while reality stabbed me over and over again.
"No, I'm sorry." I told him when I finally found the courage to speak again.
I hurriedly got out and more than once I heard him calling out my name but I never once looked back.
I couldn't. I didn't want him to see me crying.
I cursed myself, how could I have been so stupid? I'm the only one to blame, I ruined what little Edward and I had.
I went straight up to my bedroom and just cried in misery. Once or twice Charlie asked me what was wrong but I just told him to leave me alone, fortunately he quickly got the hint.
The one person that really mattered to me, the one person that could make me so unbelievably happy by just giving me a smile…the one person who made me feel so special.
The one person I need.
The one person I love.
Gone.
And the cruelest part is that…I was the one who ruined it.
Tears just continually fell, I was in so much pain…I felt dead again.
I kept saying his name, kept recalling the good times we had.
And then…
He appeared right in front of me, inside my room and I thought…Bella, you have finally lost your mind.
"Bella…" he said.
Wow, even his voice sounds exactly the same.
"Bella!" He said again with much force this time, shaking me gently.
"Snap out of it, please!" He half screamed, almost desperately.
I saw the pain in his eyes and I thought that there was no way that this could be an illusion not when he's in so much pain, not when it seems so real.
"Edward." I finally managed to say.
"Please sit still." He instructed.
I did, I sat as still as I possibly could, if he asked me to drown myself right now I would have done that too. I would have given him everything.
He caressed my face with his hand and he slowly leaned in, it didn't register to me what he was doing at first until I felt his cold soft lips on my own.
It was so short that I didn't have time to react, it was over before I even knew it began.
But it sent chills down my spine, my heart was beating at a crazy speed that I thought it was going to burst.
After getting over the initial shock I told him he didn't have to do it.
To which he replied with his breathtaking smile,
"I know, but I wanted to do it."
"I…" I started to say but he cut me off.
"Bella, I love you. I love you so much that if I could, I'd bear all your pain, I'd suffer everything for you, I'd do anything to make you happy and I'd even willingly die for you."
That's when I started crying, there's nothing in this world that I would trade for this moment. It just meant a lot to me.
"But I'm not good for you…so…" He continued but this time one I was the one who silenced him with a peck on the cheek.
"I love you more." I said.
We laid there on my bed, his arms protectively around me and pretty soon I drifted off to sleep with a smile on my face.
Dream or not, I didn't really care at that moment all I knew was that it was the best night of my life and I will never forget it.
A/N: Ehh that was the longest delay, I only have one solid excuse…school. I'm a freshman, yes, go ahead MAKE FUN of the freshman but I am constantly buried in work. I have 8 classes instead of the usual 6 and I'm also in the Medical Academy program (too lazy to explain right now) but yeah.
I know some people asked for Edwards POV on chapter 4 but I really wanted to post this today so maybe on the next chapter I'd post it as extra?
I'm SORRY for the delay and the half-assed chapter, you guys.
Thank you for the people who reviewed the previous chapter, it meant the world to me.
But I hope you still liked it anyway! Longer chapter next time, I promise and a sweeter one as well!
Cheer the freshman up and tell me what you think, kay?