"The Color of Regret"

Betz88

2007

I sit here all alone tonight and curse myself for being such a fool.

I wish I could atone tonight for being so insensitive and cruel.

If only I could eat my words, go back in time before I tempted fate

And see the colors in your eyes that finally made me realize, too late,

Excuses only make things worse and my regret confuses me instead.

Your face a study in despair, you turn from me and leave the words unsaid.

I knew it hurt; you told me so. I really didn't want to know

How deep my instinct runs to just survive.

I felt your breath against my face, the gentle force of your embrace,

I pulled you nearer just to feel alive …

I cursed the need that fettered me, the greed that would not set me free,

I saw terror mounting in your chocolate eyes.

My selfish nature had to know, the more I pushed, how far you'd go

Before the gift of love within you dies.

We screamed harsh words, assigned the blame, and once more played the loser's game.

I sit alone and blue at close of day

And stare into the hollow night as hope and dreams take mortal flight

And contemplate the price I now must pay.

I swear I don't know how to change, or hold the line or rearrange.

I hate what I'll become without you near.

I cannot make you understand your love is safe beneath my hand,

I wish I knew the words you need to hear.

But I'm alone again tonight and cursing fate that I was right.

This senseless pride I cannot hide has cost me more than I will ever know.

I tempted fate with pain and hate, and now with stiffened back, you turn to go.

I've been consumed with stubborn pride until the love within you died.

My silence as you pass from view brings tears of deep regret that you

Cannot read my troubled mind and I am left with hope I'll never show.

So here I am with the winning bet, haunted by the old regret,

And every choice I've made … far off the mark.

I live on schemes and broken dreams,

And the love I might have had … is colored dark.

Forgive me all the skills I lack …

Open up your heart and take me back …

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