Chapter 3: The Voice Inside My Head
Beast Boy awoke the next day feeling extremely refreshed. He hadn't felt this good for a long time. He strolled out of his room humming to himself. He walked into the main room to find all four of his friends sitting around the kitchen table eating breakfast, or in Raven's case, drinking herbal tea. He received greetings from his friends as he friends as he walked into the kitchen and started preparing himself a tofu breakfast. Well all of his friend's except Raven, who just pulled her hood up and looked sheepishly down at her cup of tea as if it were the most interesting thing in the world. He noticed this and chuckled to himself. She must of thought she wouldn't have to worry about him being breakfast as he regularly skipped the meal as he usually didn't wake up till around noon, unless there was a villain attack or they had a training session. She her luck never usually did hold out. He looked round and glared at his friends the happy disposition he had when he woke up gone as quickly as it had came .The voice in his head from the night before flaring up again. 'You don't need them' 'Your better than they are' 'They're pathetic' 'They don't like you' ' They will betray you like the others'.
"What's the matter Rae? Not happy to see me?" he said in a growl with a cocky grin on his face. She just continued to stare down at her tea and mumbled 'good morning' feebly, hoping it would satisfy him.
He was about to say something else when he was interrupted by Robin. "So, Beast Boy, have seen you around much recently was everything been okay?" He asked, trying his best to change from his usual firm, no-nonsense leader tone to something a little friendlier, but failing miserably.
"Dude, I'm past that" he replied, giving a quick glare to Raven, who quickly looked away trying her best not to make eye contact with him. "In fact, I've never felt better!" he almost shouted in an angry tone that betrayed otherwise.
Robin stared at the scowl Beast Boy was giving him and decided to not push him any further about it. He remembered what had happened the last time he had got this aggressive. "Good. I've scheduled a training session for this afternoon so you'd better be on top form. I got a report from the police commissioner last night and he says Adonis has escaped from jail. If he makes a move we've got to be ready for him" order Robin as he got up and made his way to his room to see if he could get any more leads on Adonis's whereabouts.
Raven quickly muttered something that sound like 'meditate' and quietly stood and glided out of the room, not wanting to spend any more time in Beast Boy's presence after the night before. She would get over it and had healed the marks and bruises he had given her, but was still shaken by it.
Beast Boy too got up and walked over to the couch. Sat himself down, picking up a gamestation controller. "Hey Cy, get down here I wanna play gamestation!" He yelled over to his friend, not bothering to turn round.
"Booya! Thought you'd never ask!" Cyborg rushed over and catapulted himself onto the sofa, beside his best friend, oblivious to the sour mood he has having, as he had been too busy stuffing his face with eggs and bacon at breakfast to notice anything unusual and happily picked up the controller, turning on a racing game. They played for a good hour and they had each both won four races each. They were playing for best out of ten and were both neck and neck on the final race. They were nearing the finish line, when Cyborg performed a sneaky move and rammed Beast Boy's car into a wall, causing it to crash. "Booya! ain't no stopping Cyborg!" shouted Cyborg, who got up and performing a little victory dance.
He looked over to Beast Boy and was surprised to he him gritting his teeth, giving him a evil glare. "Dude, you can't do that!! That's totally unfair!" 'He cheated you' 'you deserved to win' 'you are unbeatable' 'take out the competition' 'they are weak'.
"Chill man, its just a game." Cyborg tried to reason, but Beast Boy, wasn't listening to reason. He morphed into a gorilla and tackled Cyborg to the ground and started pounding him with his huge fists, but was blasted away by Cyborg's energy cannon. He recovered quickly and was about to charge at him again but was stopped in his tracks by a barrage of star bolts. Starfire, who had remained in the kitchen to clean up had heard the commotion and had rushed over to break up the fight.
"Friends, you must not fight so! Cried Starfire "What has caused such hostilities?"
"We were just playing video games and Grass Stain here jumped me!" shouted a seething Cyborg, who stormed out of the room. "I'm gonna go work on the T-car. If anyone needs me I'll be in the garage."
Beast Boy glared after him before pushing past Starfire marching off towards his own room.
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He felt as if he had gone insane. He had assaulted the girl he liked and had attacked his best friend just because he had beaten him at video games. Yet, not matter how hard he tried he was at the command of the voices in his head, as if it where part of him, part of his mind.
He had tried his best to keep it at bay, the antidote Cyborg had given him cold only have done so much. He may have stopped him physically transforming into the beast, but it had always been there, dormant in his mind, the chemicals had only awoken it. But now, it had completely taken over and was making him hurt his friends. He had to stop it, but he didn't know how, it was only a matter of time before he started physically changing into it again, that was what happened the last time. He dreaded to think what he would be capable of if that happened.
It was in control now and for the time being, there was nothing he could do to stop himself.
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Later on all the titans had convened in the training room, for the training session Robin insisted they all take. Robin looked over at his team quizzically. Cyborg and Beast Boy were standing as far away from each other as possible, both glaring at each other occasionally and Raven was standing rather close to Starfire, almost as if for protection. She was looking down at the ground with a sad expression on her face, avoiding eye contact with the rest of the team, acting as if she was ashamed of something. She was usually the most strong willed of the group and today she had been acting uncharacteristically melancholy. He would ask her about it later, but for now they had a training session to slog through.
Their training went very well for the most part. They ran through the assault course, each beating their personal time and tried out the new virtual reality simulator that Cyborg had recently installed, having a few artificial fights with Slade.
The only thing they had to run through now was one on one sparring between them, the only rule being that the use of powers or weapons was forbidden, it would be a straight fight using their own strength and skill. First up was Cyborg and Robin, which Robin won pretty easily by using the same tricks he used when fighting his friend as Red X. Cyborg charged at him and Robin dodged away with ease. He was very much aware of where Cyborg's weak spots where and delivered a sharp downward kick to his knee. He went down onto it and Robin knocked him down with a skillful roundhouse kick, knocking him to the floor and ending the fight. Next up were Raven and Beast Boy.
Robin noticed almost as soon as the fight started that something was wrong. Beast Boy was fighting unnecessarily aggressively and Raven seemed to be holding back. She looked like she was afraid of him. She tried her best to block his punches, but he was coming at her so wildly that most of his hits ended up connecting.
He managed to get an opening and punched her hard in the stomach, causing her to clutch at it in pain and bring her guard down and got a punch in to the side of her head, making her collapse to the floor. Robin gave the signal that the fight was over, but Beast Boy didn't stop there. He turned to her and started repeatedly kicking her in the ribs and gut. She pleaded for him to stop but he just wasn't listening, his eyes looked wild and if she didn't know better she would have thought he looked insane.
He was forced to stop his relentless assault when he was blasted across the room by a star bolt. He dragged himself up off the floor and glared over at the others. Starfire was helping up a trembling Raven, wrapping an arm around her shoulders. Robin was making his way over to him and looked absolutely livid. He had only ever seen him that angry when he fought with Slade. Robin rounded on him and he could feel his jaw click as their leader punched him in the face. He stumbled back, but was topped by Robin pulling him up by his shirt.
"What the hell is wrong with? She was down, why didn't you stop?" Robin shouted in his face.
Beast Boy just grunted and pushed him of him. "Maybe I was just giving her a taste of her medicine" he replied coolly.
"Get out. If your going to act like this then we want nothing to do with you." seethed Robin, having heard from Starfire about Beast Boy's assault on Cyborg earlier. "Don't come back until you've sorted yourself out."
Beast Boy looked round at the others impassively earning nothing but glares from Robin, Star and Cy. It was the look on Raven's face that hurt the most. It was a sad questioning look that seemed as if she was trying to look into his very soul.
He quickly turned around, not wanting to look into her piercing violet gaze any longer. He hated what he was becoming, but found himself powerless to stop it. He may have seemed cold and uncaring on the outside but on the inside, he was being torn apart by what he had done to those he cared deeply about. He had to find a way to fix this.
He gave one last look at his friends before morphing into a pterodactyl and swooping off across the bay.
Author's note:
Beast Boy's isn't really a heartless jerk, its just the beast inside him controlling him. He'll be back to normal soon enough . Then I can actually start building upon the BBRae relationship, something which I'm not really able to do a this point in the story. Hope you guys like this chapter. The next one should be up soon (I got a lot of time on my hands P).
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