AN: I know I should have finished Attempted Suicide before I started this but I'm weak. I needed to start it before the idea left my head. A few things have changed from AS such as:

Roxas and Namine are twins

Sora, Riku, Hayner, and Seifer are Roxas' guy friends

Olette is in this one, as Roxas best friend

Axel is a student

Anyway, there's nothing to say on the first chapter. I hope this one is received as well as Attempted Suicide was. Without further adieu, I do present my new story. Don't forget to review! Reviews are love!

Disclaimer: Don't you know by now that I don't own it? How stupid are you people?

"Roxas!! Roxas, guess what?!"

I looked up from the book I was reading, startled. My twin sister Namine was standing in front of me, face flushed with excitement.

"Uh…what?"

"He said yes! I asked him out and he said yes!" She let out a very girly, un-Namine squeal. "I've gotta go tell Kairi! See ya later, bro!"

I waved slightly at her receding back, just slightly weirded out. Namine had been pursuing this one certain boy for almost a year now. I knew him, vaguely. We were in a lot of the same classes. His name was Axel. Though, as far as what I knew about him stretched, that was it. He ran with an entirely different crowd. Anyway, Namine had seen him once and fallen instantly in love. Since that day, she's been finding out things he likes, where he hangs out, who his friends are; that kind of stuff. And today before we left for school she said she was finally going to make her move. Namine isn't one to wait around for someone to ask her out, she goes for what she wants. Now, I wasn't really surprised that he had said yes. Namine was one of the nicest and most beautiful girls in school.

I was happy for her, really. Though I couldn't help but be the tiniest bit jealous. After all, I'd never been in a real relationship before. Unless you count that thing with Olette. Though, I don't really count that as a relationship. More like a…"coming out" experience.

Yeah, that's right. I'm gay. One "relationship" and I discover I'm gay. I just always felt…off when I was with Olette. When we'd kiss, I felt nothing. I kept telling myself I did, but the thing was I really didn't.

When the time came that I had to accept the fact and break up with her, I didn't know what to do at first. She and I had been best friends since we were little kids. I didn't want to hurt her. So I did the only thing I could do: I told her the truth.

At first she was skeptical, thought I was just trying to make excuses, but eventually I convinced her of my revelation. She was a little freaked out at first, and for a while I thought she'd end up ditching me. But, thankfully, she got over it and now she's my best friend again.

And it's a good thing, too. She's the only one I've ever told. Not even my parents or my sister know. Don't get me wrong, I love Namine. I'm sure she would understand and accept me. It's just…I dunno, I would always feel ashamed that she had to know about such a part of me. I couldn't tell her; no matter how sure I was she would be okay with it. My parents I couldn't tell for an entirely different reason.

My friends Seifer, Hayner, Sora, and Riku didn't know either. I couldn't tell them because there was always the chance that they would mock me and/or tell the whole school. I'd never heard them say anything in favor of homophobia, but isn't that every gay boy's nightmare?

Anyway, moving back to the topic, Namine had said she was going to ask Axel to the movies tonight. Since he'd said yes, that meant she's be at Kairi's all day getting ready and at the movies until…well, whenever the movie ended. And possibly later, but hopefully not since I would have to punch the guy through the roof for making a move on her on the first date. That meant I had to make plans. Trust me; it was not a good idea to be home alone with the parental units. Whenever one of us was alone, they assumed we had nothing better to do on a Friday night than to clean the basement or paint the garage or, heaven forbid, watch cheesy romance movies while they made out on the couch. Gag.

So Namine and I would always try to make sure to be out of the house on the weekends. That left our parents free to do whatever it is they do when we're gone (Gee, what could that be?) and us free to hang out with our friends.

Closing my book, I reached over and grabbed the phone, dialing Sora's number. "Hey, Sora, what's up? Well, Namine is going out on a date tonight and I need plans. You mind if I come over tonight? Alright, awesome. Hey, we should call Seifer, Hayner, and Riku too, have our own little party, whaddya think? Awesome. I'll call Seifer and Hayner, you call Riku."

We hung up and I dialed Seifer's number. "Yo, Seif! Yeah, we're all going to Sora's tonight. You in? Great. See ya later."

The conversation went about the same with Hayner. I assumed Sora convinced Riku, since Riku never passed up a chance like this. I figured I'd probably better tell my parents I was going. I didn't have to ask, I knew they'd be okay with it. They always were.

I had just stood up to go find them when there was a knock on the door. Rolling my eyes and wondering who the heck could be here, I went to answer it.

When I opened up the door, I think my heart nearly stopped. Standing in the doorway was pretty much the most beautiful guy I had ever seen. He had clear-cut bright red hair, green eyes that practically sparkled in the sun, a smile so white I thought I might be blinded, perfectly tanned skin complimented by small red triangular tattoos under his eyes and, to top it all off, a killer body. The man was ripped, but just so. He had muscles but they weren't huge and scary looking. He had an air about him that said, "I could rip you apart with my bare hands but I won't because I'm a nice guy." It was all I could do it keep from gaping at him.

"Hi," he said, giving a little wave. I soon found something else to love about him. His voice was deep and rich. It reminded me of milk chocolate. "I, uh…I'm here to see Namine. Is she in?"

Dumbly, I shook my head. I was aware that I couldn't stop staring at him. Luckily, I managed to keep my mouth closed.

"Well…I guess I'll just meet her at the movie theater like we planned. If you see her before then, can you tell her Axel stopped by?"

That snapped me out of my trance. THIS was Axel? Since when was he so…goddamn hot? I'd seen him plenty of times in class, how did I not notice how good looking he was? Maybe I just never got a good look at him. Yeah, that was probably it. Wait, I needed to stop thinking that! This was a guy my sister really liked and, besides that, he wasn't gay! If he were gay, he wouldn't have agreed to go out with my sister. So, stop ogling him and say something intelligent.

"Uh…I…I'm Roxas," I said, sticking out my hand and looking down.

Oh yeah, that was smooth. Probably thinks I'm some sort of weirdo freak now. Man, I am such a loser.

Imagine my surprise when I felt his hand grip mine. I looked up, stunned. "It's nice to meet you, Roxas," he said, grinning. "Are you Namine's brother?"

"Uh…ye-yes. I'm her brother we're twins but not identical because that would be weird a girl and a guy being identical that sort of thing is for twin of the same sex so we're fraternal and we're really close and…" I managed to stop myself by clapping both hands over my mouth hurriedly, but you could still here the muffled sound of my voice babbling on and on for a few more seconds. When I'm nervous, I babble uncontrollably. And right now, I don't think I could be more nervous. Slowly, I lowered my hands.

"S-sorry," I mumbled, "Sometimes, I can't stop myself from talking nonstop. It's…funny."

Axel chuckled. "No problem, man. It was kind of funny."

My face burned up. I was sure it was as red as Axel's hair. He had thought it was funny?

"Well, I should get going. Tell Namine I stopped by, 'kay?" He gave another little wave and made his way down the walk. I watched him go before slowly closing the door. I leaned against the hard wood and allowed myself to slide down it. Man, I was such an idiot. What the hell was wrong with me?

You have your first real crush, a little voice in the back of my mind giggled, I'm so happy for you. For some reason, the voice sounded like Olette. It did sound like something she would say.

But I couldn't have a crush on Axel! He liked my sister, and my sister liked him. I would have to hide it, make sure to spend as little time around the redhead as possible. It would go away after a while, right? It was just a crush…right?