Thanks to Gemz and Ruth for reviewing the last chapter, this chapter took some thinking to write, so please let me know what you think! I am not sure where it is going, but as we get closer to the UK episodes here in Australia perhaps inspiration may strike me!

Chapter 4 – Sweet Revenge

I turn backwards as I head towards my office, leaving the noise of my celebrating colleagues behind and settling for the quietness and familiar surroundings that I have become so accustomed to quite quickly. I take a deep breath, I know that he is behind me, or that he should be. I discard my coat to the other side of the room and wait for him to appear, I sit at my desk, two hands flat against the cold surface, I cannot excuse his behaviour of today, no matter who he is or should that be who he was. Today I nearly lost Danny Parker again, he should never have gotten away seven years ago, but things were different then. I was different then, I was a naïve DC, and I am not her any longer, I have achieved something with my life, I worked hard to get where I am, I am his inspector, no matter the fact that he was once my boyfriend, no matter the fact that he once told me he loved me.

I look up as he makes his way into the office, he closes the door sharply behind him and then turns to look at me, he really has no idea why I am so angry, to him he was just doing his normal sailing close to the wind detective skills, I glare at him and hear myself asking him a question, the response is typical, something that I could have no doubt predicted he was going to say. That his actions today were correct because we got him in the end, he has always been like that, that the end justified the means, no matter how the means were completed.

Trust, I almost spit the word out at him, he looks back at me confused, I don't expect him to understand although I wish he did, if I can't trust him to listen and actually do what I say then I am never going to succeed as the DI here and perhaps it was right of me to hesitate and not apply.

Sam, not Ma'am, not Guv, just my name, mumbled at the start of his statement, he doesn't understand that this has nothing to do with the past, nothing to do with the time that we have spent together in the past, nothing to do with the passion we have shared. But perhaps I am trying to convince myself of this fact, but I cannot let him see that, I have to show him that his behaviour of today cannot happen again, he has to follow what I tell him.

I push both hands onto the desk and stand up, hoping that this will make the message sink in, that I am the DI again and he is supposed to listen to what I say. He isn't even looking at me, he is looking anywhere but at me, probably looking for the way out of here, but he isn't leaving without listening to what I have to say. But what am I saying? Do I actually even know myself? Here I am rambling about on about trust, but do I trust him? I don't know, I can be honest here in my head, that was the problem back then, I didn't know if he would cheat on me, so I ran. I made the choice to break away.

Standing up doesn't seem to be working, he isn't looking at me, still looking for the exit. I need to make things clear now, he cannot run off like he did today again, I gave him an order and what did he do, he did the opposite, he ignored what I told him, he should have never ended up at that storage facility, I would have found it all out eventually, Jess would have opened up to me, I am sure of it.

Of course there are different rules now, of course things have changed, I am the DI that means that I have to be responsible for his actions, like I was back when we hated one another. It is strange, so much has happened since then, we were once the closest of friends, but now standing here glaring at him, that all seems like a dream, even though it was all so real. It seems that we could be back in the past, back to my Acting DI days, back to the mutual dislike of one another.

I see his reaction to what I just said, he seems to think it ridiculous that I am acting in this way, but then perhaps that is his problem, he doesn't think about how his actions reflect on others, he just does without thinking, perhaps that was something that I liked about him once, his ability to not care what others thought, but now all I want to do is knock it out of him, however I fear that I am unlikely to succeed.

Perhaps I am overemotional, but the job is all I have. That is no-one's fault but mine, I chose this path, I chose to be ambitious, to make the best out of my every chance. I was demoted once, and barely recovered from the anguish it caused, it took all that I had to finally realise that Neil was my DI back then, that I had lost the job that I had worked at for eighteen months and I am determined to keep it now.

I turn my head to look away from him, thinking of what to say next, I look back at him and say the first things that come to mind, glaring at him, my eyes locking with his as he finally seems to realise that he needs to listen, his face looking at me as if to say "Why did I ever tell you that I loved you?". I finish my sentence and continue to glare at him, our eyes still locked with one another's. Perhaps hoping that the other will speak and break the silence that has descended between us, neither of us breaking eye contact with one another, I slowly lower myself back into my seat, still glaring at him.

"I got you your result Ma'am" he says to me, smirking slightly "Danny Parker is going down for something that you couldn't pin on him seven years ago. But I worked it out today" and with that he turns away from me, opening the door and slamming it shut behind him, leaving me alone in here, alone with my thoughts, alone with the fact that the best way to get Phil Hunter to respect me as his boss was not to do what I just did, I should know what to do when it comes to him, but it still seems after all that we have been through that I am still as lost as ever before.

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