Lece: Okay, this is my first fic like this. It's in Train's point of view. I hope you like it!

That's what I told them. But I know that they can see it in my eyes when I think about you. They, my friends, know the truth even though I don't say it out loud. We were more than friends...

They way you spoke to me, it was actually like speaking to someone who knew me for years. Even though it didn't seem like that long... I would wait for you so I could just see you again. At first it was just curiosity...but you know what they say; Curiosity killed the cat. Instead I wanted to see you just to be with you. I never believed it would go this far...

I never told you the truth...that what I felt was more than a feeling of friends. But I guess you could tell but you never let me know that you knew. I could tell by that look in your eyes that you were wondering the same thing yourself...what is this feeling? I'm guessing that's why you wanted me to go to the carnival with you. To see if this feeling between us was more than that of just friends...

With you gone, there is a hole that will not heal. The place where you took up in my heart. It's a bit silly that I, the Black Cat, could get so attached to one person. But looking back, even though you were just a sweeper, you stole my heart.

When Creed killed you, I thought I lost my heart with you. I shut everyone else out, turning back into the solitary cat once more. But, traveling with Sven and Eve woke something up inside of me. A sense that I was needed, that someone cared about me. Just like with you, you made me feel like someone really cared about me. I haven't felt like that since my parents...

Now that I think about it, I lost part of my heart that day. But I found bits and pieces of it again with my friends. You showed me the light in the dark hole I had dug, my friends have helped me stay on that path. The pain of losing you is still a thorn in my chest. That ache will never disappear from my heart or my memories.

I could have done something to protect you, but I never knew Creed would be so jealous of us. I'm guessing he couldn't stand losing the one thing that was within his reach. He wanted me for himself, I was his obsession. I was torn between the world of light and darkness. Sephria didn't help matters when I told her that I was leaving Chronos. I continued to fall but you would lend me hand, pulling me into the light...

There is one thing I regret other than not killing that man who murdered my parents...that was not telling you how I felt about you. Now that you're gone, it's to late to tell you. I've lost you physically, but you will live on in my heart. That's the one thing I'm sure of... I don't know if you can hear me where ever you are, which I'm sure it's heaven, but I'm going to tell you this...

'Saya...I love you...'