Title : Hurt

Summary : Logan and Veronica were together before Lilly's death, so he never went out with her. But her death changed everything between them, he broke her heart and turned the school against her... LoVe fanfiction.

Veronica was sitting at her lunch table reading several papers when she felt something being thrown on her table, she didn't need to raise her head to know who did it, and from where it came, she ignored it and carried on reading. She felt another ball of paper thrown on her head, she was sick of this, she could not handle it anymore, she put all her books in her bag and left the quad. She pulled her cell out of her pocket and dialed a number she knew by heart.

"Aunt Trish, it's me, I've made a decision, if you still want me to come then okay. I'm moving to San Diego."

"Are you sure this is what you want?" her aunt asked her, wanting to be sure she was making the right decision. As much as she was happy to have her niece come to San Diego to live with her, she could not help but be worried about her sake, ever since Lilly's death she was not the same girl anymore. When Keith had called and asked her if Veronica could stay with her a few weeks she had agreed without a second thought. She had seen how unhappy she was in Neptune and how much she hated her life there, she had asked her to stay in San Diego with her. She had a big house, her children were all in college or lived on the East Coast, her husband died four years ago, she would love to have her stay with her. Veronica had refused, saying she needed to go back to Neptune because her life was there and her father needed her since her mother was gone.

"Yes, I can't stay here anymore, I need a fresh start."

"It's Logan Echolls, isn't it?"

"Yes. I hate what I feel."

"It's normal honey, he is your first love, it's not something you can forget easily."

"Aunt Trish, it's more was, I don't have such feelings anymore, they died with Lilly."

"Don't say that, I'm sure..."

"No, it's true. Listen I have to go home and tell dad about it and then we will call the school to ask them if I can enroll now."

"I will call you tonight and I will try to come to Neptune tomorrow or after tomorrow."

"Okay, thank you Aunt Trish for all you are doing for me."

"It's normal, you are my only niece, I want what's best for you."

"I know. Bye."

She hang up and put the phone in her bag, she went to her locker and emptied it, not even looking at the words written on it. Ever since the beginning of the school year she had seen these words on her locker, car, people hates her and enjoy making her life hell, even Logan, the person she called her boyfriend and first love. She was really stupid to think someone like him could have feelings for her, she was even more stupid for losing her virginity to someone like him. She was putting her last book in her bag when she felt someone behind her, she didn't even turn around to look at him. She quickly closed her locker and walked toward the parking lot.

"What are you doing?"

She quickened her pace and when she reached her car she threw everything inside and when she tried to close the door, he put his hand on the door.

"I repeat my question, where are you going?"

"Somewhere where you won't be, now move you hand."

"No! I want you to answer to my question."

"You want to talk to me now? Wow, we haven't talked in months and suddenly you want to talk to me? Sorry, that doesn't work like that, you broke up with me, turned the whole school against me and now you want us to have a nice chat?"

"Ronnie..."

"Don't ever call me like that!" she shouted again. "The girl you call Ronnie is died, I'm not that girl anymore, now you'd better move your hand or I will break it by closing the door. I hate you Logan, you are nothing to me so you can believe me when I say I won't regret it afterwards!"

She pushed him forcefully and closed the door, she drove out of the parking without looking back, I hate Logan Echolls, I hate Logan Echolls, she said, repeating her new mantra, it was the only thing that made his words hurt less. If she ever let her love win over her hate for him she was lost, it would kill her.

"Dad, I'm home." Veronica said from the hall, she dropped her bag on the floor and walked further in the house. She found him in the kitchen, reading a file.

"Veronica!" he said, quickly closing the file and putting it away, he got up and hugged her. "Shouldn't you be at school?"

"Yeah but I've decided to accept aunt Trish's offer."

"You want to go to San Diego."

"Yeah, there is nothing for me in Neptune but you, I don't want to stay here anymore, this place has destroyed our lives."

"As long as you are sure this is what you want."

"I want to get out of Neptune, it's just too hard to be here without Lilly and..."

"Logan." her father said, he hugged her again, he had seen how hurt she was by Logan's actions and the effects their break up had on her. He remembered how she had come home one day and told him Logan had broken up with her because she chose her father over her friends, she didn't tell him what exactly happened between her and her boyfriend but he knew for sure that things must have been horrible.

"I want to hate him so much that it hurts because I still have feelings for that idiot! I want to stop having feelings just like he did, if he ever had any for me."

"It will eventually go away, I'm sure you will meet many good looking boys in San Diego who will want to go out with you and they will make you forget him."

"I hope so."

"Don't worry, I know it will, just be patient. Why don't you take Back Up for a walk while I call the school in San Diego and then I will go to your school and talk to Clemmons."

"Okay, I have my cell in case you need something."

Logan was lying on the bed of the pool house with a bottle of Jack Daniels in his hand, he took a sip and closed his eyes. Veronica Mars, his Veronica was leaving town and it was his fault, he had tortured her and had liked it, he wanted to hurt her just like she had hurt him by choosing her father over the boy who loved her more than anything. She had let him down, she was the only person who knew about Aaron and how he beats him when something does not go his way or just because he wants to hit something. Turning the whole school against her and making her life hell were the only things he found to hurt her and to make her feel his pain, she should have never chosen her father, Jake Kane would have never hurt Lilly.

He still had his eyes closed when someone walked into the room, he didn't want to open them to face the world and the reality, he was once again alone, no one to take care of him and love him.

"Logan what are you doing here?" his mother asked when she saw him. She took the bottle out of his hand an put it on the night table. "If your father catches you..."

"I don't care."

"Logan please, don't do this." she begged him, trying to put the bottle back in its place and clean the mess he had made. She was afraid Aaron would find in the pool house with a bottle in hand and beat him for that, she didn't want to witness again her husband beat her son to death.

"I don't care! I don't care anymore." he said so softly that Lynn almost did not hear him. He crossed his arms over his eyes, he did not want his mother to see his tears.

"Why?"

"Veronica is leaving Neptune."

"What? Why?"

"Because of me." he said half laughing, half sobbing. "I broke her heart, I made her life hell, she hates me and it took me only seven months to do that."

"Logan..."

"No, I don't need your pity, I deserve it, I was an asshole and called her names and spread rumors on her, I even... Mom, I did all I could to hurt her and now I've lost forever."

Lynn looked at her son trying not to judge him but it was hard, she could not believe all the things he had done to the girl he was in love with. She loved Veronica, she did not understand why her son left her for no reason, she had tried to get him to tell her why he was doing that but he had shut the door of his room to her face. Not knowing what to do, she hugged her son and tried to get him to stop crying but it seemed useless.