"Fire and Light" and the overall concept of "Fire
and Light" are copyright Orin Drake. The characters and
worlds contained within are from Kingdom Hearts, owned forever
and ever by Square-Enix and Disney.
Background: For TheWonkamatic at LiveJournal for being kind
and helpful and writing really hot stuff. I'd been
wanting to write something with Xemnas and Axel, so this was an
awesome chance.
Fire and Light
by Orin Drake
"I have noticed
that you are quite... rebellious, VIII."
Axel smirked, pushing the thought that he had absolutely no idea
where the conversation was heading to the back of his mind.
He'd been called to the meeting room, alone. In some ways, that
was all he'd needed to know. "Oh, Superior?"
Xemnas was in no mood for the fire wielder's games, and he made that
clear with a look that Vexen would be jealous of. "The Key
was supposed to report to me separately after the end of the last
mission." He took a step closer, staring the neophyte
down. "You do remember the last mission, don't
you? That... debacle?"
The redhead only shrugged, keeping a tight control on his nonchalant
grin. "It happens. Some worlds just chase us out
successfully. So we go back when they least expect us."
"It doesn't just
happen, VIII." The Superior growled, each word drawn
out into verbal daggers. "That is a young, cocky,
new-comer mistake. One that, albeit surprising, you have not
made in quite some time." Another step found him mere
inches away from his subordinate, eyes gleaming with what could
almost be rage if they weren't so glossed. "I believe it
to have been XIII's fault."
Axel thanked his quick thinking, expression never shifting.
"With all due respect, sir. You weren't there.
It was a no-win situation and I sent Roxas back before me due to his
lack of experience."
"It is odd, then..." Xemnas' voice was just too soft, too
smooth as he turned away, "That Saix saw the two of you emerge
from the same portal in your hallway."
"Oh, that was afterward." The pyro explained away
easily.
Too easily, of
course. By that point in time, Xemnas was familiar. "You
knowingly 'saved' him from his rightful punishment, VIII.
Which, in turn, brings the punishment upon yourself."
The left corner of his mouth twitched downward, just once. Only
once... but Axel felt it. He knew even though the other man's
back was turned, somehow that it had been witnessed.
Acknowledged. He tried, anyway. "It was my fault,
Superior. My doing alone."
"But then your story changes." Xemnas' tone was
nearly... amused. "From an unwinable situation to... you
admitting fault." He began to walk around the suddenly
serious fire starter, brutal and dictatorial and intimidating as his
words continued with a sadistic almost-enjoyment. "Therefore,
either you are lying to protect XIII, or you are truly at fault.
Either way, you bring punishment upon yourself."
Axel's breath caught. So soon after that last little
"incident"... he still had bleeding gashes on both sides of
his wrists. That had been for a joke; lying was thought
to be a traitorous action. They all knew the penalty for
traitors.
"I
won't kill you." The Superior announced smoothly, having
walked full-circle around the redhead and come to a stop before him.
His eyes held something more awful than cruelty--they held a dead,
solid nothing. Silence, for a moment. "Remove your
coat."
"Superior..?" It wasn't as if he didn't expect what
was to come. He simply hadn't expected it from Xemnas.
Louder, but the tone
never changed. "I said, remove your coat."
There was a defiant shrug on Axel's part... then slid both zippers
all the way down and let the coat fall to the floor behind him.
He saw no reason to wear clothes beneath it, always retaining a
perfect body temperature with or without the uniform. He rather
wished he'd had a shirt underneath, though... something, anything to
keep those golden eyes from boring quite so deeply into his flesh.
"Pants."
Issued like an order to kill.
The fire starter did not particularly appreciate that tone. He
let that dazzlingly fake grin splash over his face, giving his eyes a
cold gleam that could almost be real. "Are you sure you
don't want to take you ti--"
"You will obey." Words that echoed off the walls,
even if they weren't shouted. "Or the Key will suffer your
punishment. I'm rather certain it would be harder on him."
There was nothing
underneath. Axel had no more defenses, and... that look.
That look of dead hunger. Something about that look...
He swallowed bile and a sound that may have been suspiciously like
one of disgust, then unbuttoned and let his pants drop with one
motion.
Xemnas
appeared as pleased as the man ever did, nodding to indicate he
wanted the garment completely removed. That much done, he
ordered, "Gloves."
"No." The redhead responded immediately.
"Aren't you in enough trouble, VIII?"
"I keep the gloves." Axel insisted, trying to keep an
awkward note of desperation out of his voice.
"Fine." Xemnas stepped forward. "I shall
remove them myself."
Chakrams appeared--then were knocked away promptly by the sheer force
of the Superior's control of his element. Axel felt his back
make a very solid impact with the wall, not even managing an
instinctual yelp before hands grasped his wrists and tore the
gloves from him.
A
long moment of careful inspection. "I see that you still
bear the marks that I gave you."
Axel growled as his wrists were squeezed harshly, the large,
half-healed puncture wounds through both wrists aching terribly.
He would not react. He would not give Xemnas the satisfaction.
But give and take came
easily to the Superior. He released the redhead's wrists,
taking two very slow paces back. "On your hands and
knees. Like the little slut you are."
That one stung. Not that he'd ever allow himself to show
it, not that he'd ever admit it even to himself...
When his orders were not immediately followed, Xemnas felt the need
to repeat himself a little more effectively. In one swift,
fluid motion, he swept forward and took hold of that pretty red hair,
fisting his hand in it and yanking. At the cry of pain
and surprise, he gave a mild kick to the backs if the younger
Nobody's knees that send him straight to the floor in a painful
kneel--fist still firmly grasping spiky red hair. "I
said," Xemnas growled with a lack of emotion so severe that the
sound itself was hollow, "On your knees. Now I'll be
forced to make sure you don't defy me again."
Axel opened his mouth for some retort--a laugh, a curse,
anything--but found his cheek pressed firmly against the cold
stone floor, open and vulnerable and exposed--
Two fingers thrust inside him harshly, causing the ever-smirking
Flurry of Dancing Flames to shriek. The searing,
stretching pain was sharp and spreading, making it impossible to take
a breath. There wasn't rhythm, there wasn't sense to be made,
there was no warning given and certainly no mercy granted; fingers
were removed from his body, but not from his hair.
One. Two. Three. That was all it took to for Xemnas
to force himself inside. Seated absolutely, completely,
within. Had Axel ever actually believed in a higher power,
every potential ounce of faith was crushed beneath the agony.
His legs gave out beneath him, but Xemnas would not let him
fall--strong hands moved to clamp around the redhead's waist, pushing
him forward just before yanking him back.
Axel knew he'd screamed--the Superior really liked screaming, sick
bastard--but he couldn't hear it. He couldn't hear anything
over the ringing rush of blood in his ears and his own constant
reminders that Roxas would be safe from this.
He was called back to full, hearing consciousness by a vicious slap
to the side of his face. "Pay attention, VIII."
Xemnas hissed into his ear, rhythm increasing ever so slightly.
"Do not make me call VII to... assist me."
He would not rise to the bait. He would not.
Instead, he managed an angry growl between thrusts, "The least
you can do... is call me by the name... that you gave
me..."
How a
man's voice--even a Nobody's--could be so fucking calm while
committing such a brutal and viciously sexual act was beyond anyone's
explanation. "Oh, but VIII. That would be to
acknowledge your existence. And you, pathetic thing, do not
exist."
What in
all of existence or non-existence prompted Axel to speak was
immediately an abandoned mystery, left to people with hearts and
lesser creatures with more time on their hands than tasks to
accomplish. "Roxas knows I exist."
Laughter. So cold it seared the flame right out of the body
beneath. "Of course Fire and Light would be drawn to one
another. They are... curious about the nature of the other."
All at once, the world
felt like it was collapsing in on them. Axel could only slump
forward, wasted and spent in every way but the one that the Superior
was seeking. Every thrust was a new spike of agony, aimed
specifically for the purpose. He only knew because of the
words. Because of the voice so still and quiet he couldn't not
hear them echo in his skull.
"But surely you have heard that expression of curiosity and the
cat?" Not really a question. Never really wanted the
answer. "Curiosity killed the cat, VIII."
And then the Darkness leaked in, drawing Nothingness along with it.
"And then it destroyed his world. Everything he'd ever
known or loved or wanted or needed or understood, gone.
Eternally gone, with no hope to repair it. Even his own
heart. Leaving the cat an empty, barren shell. Curiosity
does not pay."
Axel couldn't figure out if Xemnas was talking about him... or
himself. He was just glad that his body was already shivering
with pain, so the odd quiver of something far too close to terror was
entirely hidden. He felt a shudder deep inside, then a jet of
aching, wet heat with the last rough thrust. Finally.
Finally he could wash this all away.
That voice interrupted. That too-calm, too smooth, hypnotizing
melody of emptiness breathed across the fire starter's ear.
"The Key does not belong to you. He never will."
Not strength enough to
move, no. But strength enough, conviction enough, to
respond. "He sure as hell doesn't belong to you."
"You will learn,
VIII. Everything belongs to me. Even Nothing."
Left alone, and empty,
and cold. He would send a Dusk to get him a potion in a
moment. Fire and Light... yeah. Curiosity killed.
But it was worth it, wasn't it? Besides... they were already
dead.
I was having a bad day. This helped enormously. Plus, Xemnas' little retelling of "curiosity killed the cat" makes me so happy. Guy's a nutjob. That's why we love him.