"Happy Birthday!" cried Bella as she wrapped her arms lovingly around me.

She was sweet, like any mother would be to their child only she didn't look like a mother. Trapped in the body of an eighteen year old, she looked more like the loving sister. More then anyone she wanted me to find love. Unfortunately, for every girl I met Bella was the standard to reach, but there was no one who could match her beauty inside or out. So I slowly grew used to the thought of never finding love.

"Bella he is seventeen there isn't a need for you to smother him with you motherliness." muttered Edward as he stacked the small pile of opened present on table, he knew the mood I was in was not good.

Edward was a good man. He loved Bella with his whole heart and most of all he made her happy. They were married a short year after I came into this family. He at first tried to play the father role in my life but soon fell into his rightful role as the protective big brother.

"I can't help it." giggled Bella as she smoothed my hair.

Flitching away, I shot them a hateful glare. Bella looking hurt backed away from me into the waiting arms of Edward. Today was my birthday, my least favorite day of the year. The reason I hated this day so much was because every year I grew older and aged a little. Though for most people growing and aging is normal but for me and my family it wasn't normal at all. This is because we are not normal, we are vampires.

"Can I please just go to my room?" I hissed angrily.

I wanted to be alone with my books and CDs. At first I like being able to grow up but on my fifteenth birthday I realized I was a freak in a family of vampires. I had always been told that I was just special and that why I was able to get older while my family stayed forever at the same age. I never really minded being special until on my fifteen birthday did I overhear Bella discussing my aging with Carlisle.

'Carlisle, do you think Sonny will ever stop aging?' she whispered.

'It's hard to say. I best estimate is shortly after puberty but there is still a chance he may never stop aging.' sighed Carlisle.

'Should we talk to him about that possibility?' she asked.

'When the time comes but for now let the boy be happy that he gets to be somewhat normal.' whispered Carlisle.

I remember hearing every word and for the first time that I could ever remember I felt sick. Normal, what a joke, I was a freak. After that every birthday was a reminder of the fact that I wasn't like my family.

"Sonny…" began Bella but she stopped after seeing the anger burning behind my normal calm eyes.

"Do whatever you like." she whispered closing her eyes to hide the sadness that I hadn't meant to cause.

Quickly, jumped up from my seat and crossed the room. Standing at the bottom of the staircase, I turned back and looked at the young woman that cared for me with all her heart. Her faced was buried in Edward's chest, her body quaked as she dry sobbed silently against him.

"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to upset you. It's just I… I'm just sorry." I whispered knowing she would hear me, and then I dashed up the stairs to hide in my room.

I slammed the door behind me but it made a sickening crack. It seemed like every birthday since my fifteenth I broke something from being upset.

"Dammit!" I growled as I turned to punch the already cracked door.

Suddenly, the broken door flew open just as my fist was to make contact with it. Thankfully, I had enough self control to stop my fist in time before I hit Edward. He took a step back and waited for me to unclench my fists. Closing my eyes, I took a deep breath and slowly relaxing.

"You are going to fix that." he sighed as he entered my room.

"Really because I thought I'd just leave it like that." I growled sarcasm dripping like venom off each word.

Sighing deeply, Edward sat down on the large black leather couch that rested against west wall of my room. I watched as he rubbed his temples with his eyes shut, a trait that I had developed myself.

"She isn't sure if you are ready to start school again, she is thinking of having you wait a little longer." muttered Edward with his eyes still closed.

"What! She can't do that. I won't slip again, I know I won't." I growled angrily.

A year ago on my sixteenth birthday I slipped for the first time. I had been anger because my family had thrown me a surprise party. In my rage I stormed off and somehow found myself alone with a twenty something girl in the middle of a forest with no one to her cries but the trees. Her blood smelt sweet and drew me in. I remember seeing blood dripping down her leg from the gash on her knee but after that I can't remember anything until it was already too late. Bella was the one who found me tearlessly crying over the dead girl's body. I thought for sure Bella would never speak to me again after that but she did only second after seeing what I had done.

'I still love you' she whispered.

I don't think there was anything she won't forgive me for, but maybe that's because she still can't completely forgive herself for making me what I am today.

"Sonny, she is just worried about you." Edward said finally opening his eyes to look at me seriously.

"She is always worried." I grumbled under my breath.

"That's because she loves you. I'd take a little bit of time to cool down and then go talk to her." sighed Edward as he stood.

He walked silently to my broken door and then turned back to me.

"Before I forget, here." he said as he tossed me set of car keys.

I caught them easily and stared at them in my hand. They were for a Porsche. My family owned lots of cars but not a Porsche. Rosalie, who was something like an aunt to me, had an obsession with cars. In her spare time she would be in the garage working on ways to make the cars we did have go even faster then they already did.

"It's in the garage and yes it is your's; as long as Bella doesn't see you going over ninety." called Edward as he walked out of the room.

Smiling slightly I place the keys on my dresser and turned to my vast CD collection. Pulling a CD out, I studied it for a moment before put it in the stereo. As soon as I clicked play sound burst to life in my room. It was this month's current favorite, a band that I found out Bella use to listen to a lot when she was human. Tossing myself lightly onto my couch I closed my eyes and daydreamed of what it would be like to sleep. The same images burned across my mind.

It was the day we left Forks. We were driving up to Alaska. We were passing through a small town just on the Washington border when it all began. Sitting at a red light, I remember staring out my window at the pouring rain watching a girl who looked to be my age walking across the crosswalk. Then suddenly there was a squeal of a truck slamming on its breaks, but they were working quickly enough she was going to get hit. She stood her emerald green frozen wide open in fear. Something took over in me, in that moment. Throwing the car door open I dashed from the car a neck breaking speed towards the girl. In a flash I shoved her out of the way just in time. She lay safe on the sidewalk bleeding a little as the truck hit me. It sent me flying. I hit the ground with a thud I closed my eyes as I made my impact. I heard Bella screaming and then suddenly I was being lifted up. Next thing I knew back in the car being cradle against Bella as Alice tore through the road getting us as far away as she could as fast as she could. Edward sat next to us holding Bella, though moments before he had been the one driving.

Slowly, my eyes opened and I sighing at my meaningless memories.

"Her again?" murmured the always calm voice of Jasper, who was like a close cousin to me.

He was resting against the wall closest to my couch.

"It's always those damn eyes." I seethed angrily.

"I don't see why you get so angry over something that makes you so peaceful inside." sighed Jasper.

"It was six years ago, I shouldn't still be thinking about those eyes." I snapped back, jumping up from the couch to stand right in front of Jasper.

"I wish I could give you the answer you're looking for but I have none to give. Bella waiting for you in her study she wants to talk but only if you've calm down enough to be reasonable." he muttered.

"She isn't going to let me start school. Is she?" I whispered in defeat.

Jasper placed a firm hand on my shoulder. His eyes said it all; he didn't know anything about she was planning. Groaning to myself I pushed my hair back so I didn't fell into my eyes. I truly wanted the chance for Bella to see I had enough control that I could handle going to school but no matter what I said to her, she still worried.

"Go talk to her. I'll fix the door." pressed Jasper.

"Leave the door, Edward wants me to fix it and why should I go talk to her I already know she is going to tell me she wants me to wait to start school." I growled.

"Tell me when did you start see the future?" asked Alice stepping into my room.

"Ha ha, I don't need your gift to know what Bella…"I pause.

A playful smirk played across Alice's lips. Thank god for my pixie haired future seeing godmother, not that Bella was ever going anywhere.

"Are you sure?" I asked suddenly excited.

"It will only happen if you talk to her."

Instantly, I dashed from my room, as I left I could hear Jasper sigh and Alice laugh. Bella's study was on the third floor along with Edward's music room and their bedroom. My family's current house was a little more the double the size of the house in Forks, it had been decided we need more space since me and Bella I joined the family. I was on the second floor along with Alice and Jasper, the huge and in my opinion unnecessary bathroom, and Jasper's study. Carlisle and Esme's room was on the third floor along with Carlisle study. Emmet and Rosalie room was on the main floor near the back of the house.

I took the stairs two at a time to cut a second off the time it was take to get to Bella. I stopped myself right at the door to Bella's study. Knocking softy I waited.

"Come in, Sonny." called Bella.

Entering the study I quickly spotted her sitting in a high backed chair with her knees tucked up against her chest. She had been crying again. Guilt washed over me as I took a seat a across from her.

"I'm sorry." I muttered.

"Sonny, promise me something." she whispered not looking at me.

Her broken tone terrified me, but there wasn't anything I wouldn't promise her. Bella was the one person in my life who I knew could never hurt me, it wasn't in her to hurt others; she was too kind.

"Anything." I said instantly.

"Promise me, you won't let your power destroy your life." she said sadly.

"I would never let it destroy my life." I argued.

She covered her eyes with her hands and sighed. Maybe it was the oversize chair or just how sad she looked, but she seemed smaller then normal. I move from my chair to sit on the ground and rest my head on the edge of her chair. I hadn't noticed it before but she had Jack, my childhood teddy bear pressed in-between her knees and chest.

"Jack?" I asked sadly.

She nodded whiling biting into her bottom lip. I had given her Jack for her last birthday; it was also the day her father died. Whenever she'd be upset she would get Jack out and sit holding him until she could bring herself to smile again. Judging by how tightly she was clutching Jack she wasn't going to be smiling for awhile.

"Did I upset you that much?" I asked, hoping she'd at least uncover her golden sun ray colored eyes.

Slowly, she wrapped her arms around her knees revealing her normally sparkling eyes, only they weren't sparkling they was darker then they should have been, but I kept my mouth shut.

"No. I sometimes just get Jack and hold him, while I think about you when you were little." she said smiling sadly at me.

She missed the Sonny I was when I was younger. Though she loved me like her own child, with each passing year I looked less and less like the child she used to play simple kid games with and more and more like an adult.

"You wish I was still nine don't you." I sighed.

"Never would I wish that, but it hard for me to watch you grow up and watch you hating that you can grow." she admitted staring at me with her dark golden orbs.

"I wish I was normal like everyone else in this family." I grumbled.

"This family is your idea of normal? Maybe growing up here has jumbled your brain. Sonny we are as from normal as we can get."

She just didn't see it. She couldn't understand what it was like to be the only one really different in a family of perfection.

"That only means I'm a complete freak." I muttered angrily.

"You're not a freak. I know this is hard but I a year maybe two at the most it all will stop." whispered Bella.

"You can't know that. I could be like this forever always growing never dying." I cried.

What I feared was growing old being a hundred and twelve and not able to dying; while my family was forever young.

"Never say that!" snapped Bella moving in a flash of white skin and dark hair.

Instantly, she was holding me tightly against her. I had scared her again. I'd been doing that a lot lately saying stupid little things that scared her, that's why she had waited seven months before even talking about letting me go back to school.

"You know it's true. You know one day I'll need to be put out of my misery" I sobbing against her shoulder.

This was the first time I'd ever said it out loud. I had thought about more times then I could count. It was my private nightmare of the future to come.

"Sonny, stop saying such terrible things." sobbed Bella.

"I don't want to die." I cried, my whole body was shaking.

Death was my biggest fear. It was something from my childhood before I became a vampire I was a terminal cancer patient at Forks medical hospital. Though technically I was already dead, I just didn't want to be destroyed and away from my family. Bella pulled me closer and gentle stroked the back of my head.

"That's not going to happen. I love you far too much to let anything bad happen to you" she whispered, her sobs were beginning to slow.

"But…" I began.

Suddenly, she pulled away from me and stared into my eyes; her dark gold eyes deadly serious.

"Sonny, I need you to make that promise to me. You are too strong to let your power destroy you life. I need you to happy with this life you have. Promise me you'll be happy?" she begged.

I wasn't sure if I could ever truly be happy about my possible appending doom but for Bella I would try. Forcing myself to be calm, I stopped sobbing and answered Bella.

"I promise." I whispered so quietly I wasn't even sure if she heard me.

Almost instantly after I spoke, there was a light brush of her prefect rose petal lips against my cheek. Smiling, Bella wrapped her arms even tighter around me. There was a soft knock at the door as it slowly swung open.

"I take it the conservation went well." said Edward walking into the room.

Pulling away from me again, Bella jumped into her husband's waiting arms grinning merrily. I loved when she smiled, it was like the darkest rooms would become as bright as day with just a flash of her perfectly white teeth.

"Umm… Bella, do I get to go to school tomorrow?" I asked shyly.

"Yes, but we all are driving together, that means…" she trailed off but I picked it up for her with outrage.

"I can't drive my Porsche! But…but that's not fair!" I growled.

Edward raised an eyebrow at me in warning but I ignored it. I wanted to drive my Porsche.

"Sorry Sonny but we go to school as a family and that Porsche only has room for two." sighed Bella.

Grumbling to myself, I walked out of the room. When I returned to my room the broken door had been repaired despite my request for it to be left alone. Still not totally cooled my anger bubble right back up.

"Does anybody listen to me?!" I roared grabbing the keys to my Porsche and running at an inhuman speed out of the house.

The midnight blue Porsche sat waiting for me to bring her engine to life. A devilish grin crossed over my lips as I slid into the comfortable leather driver's seat. With a simple turn of the key the engine purred to life. I breathed in deep the scent of new car and leather, god I love that smell. My hands were trembling with anticipation but they seemed to calm when I rested them on the steer wheel. Licking my lips once, I pressed down on the gas petal and shifted the gear into drive; time to have some fun. With a soft hiss of the tires I burned out of the driveway and out on to the road. When I got home I would probable wouldn't be driving for a few months so I better make the time I had count.

We were currently living in Denali, Alaska for the second time. It was here that we came when Bella and I had just become vampires. The only reason we left was because Carlisle wanted to get back to work and it was still too soon for him to start back a the hospital in Denali. So we all moved to a small town in Canada. We'd been living there since I was twelve but move back to Denali after my slip up. I liked Denali. It roads were almost always icy and they seemed to never end. The tires were slipping on the road but I didn't care. I was too lost in the thrill of driving. Suddenly the tires lost and traction on the road and the car was spinning out of control straight towards a tree.

"No." I hissed slamming my foot on the breaks with too much force, the petal snapped in half.

It and happened in a blur the Porsche slammed into the tree and I was shot out of the windshield. My Porsche sat totaled and smoking against the tree. Groaning I sat up in the snow. Sighing deeply, I waited for the speeding Volvo to reach me. The Volvo came to a stop only a foot from me. Instantly, the passenger's and driver's door opened and out rushed Alice and Carlisle.

"Dammit Sonny what were you thinking?" yelled Alice lifting me from the snow.

"Let's get you to the house." said Carlisle, sighing deeply as he held open the car door for me.

I idolized Carlisle. He was the father figure in my life. Quietly, Carlisle drove home. When we arrived home everyone was waiting on the porch. Bella was pacing while Edward followed her as he tried to console her. Rosalie stood with her arms cross against her chest looking pissed even though Emmet had his arms wrapped around her. Esme and Jasper both stood looking worried and stressed. I walked silently into the house only making eye contact with Esme who followed me in while everyone else stayed outside to talk with Carlisle.

"Are you alright dear?" she asked sitting next to me on the couch in my room.

I loved Esme. She was sweet and motherly. She helped teach Bella how to raise me. Esme was something between being my mother and grandmother. She knew that I'd never see her as my mother the way I did Bella but I didn't see her as my grandmother either.

"I lost control of the car." I growled in fury at myself.

"Don't be so hard on yourself. Let Bella be the one to be upset with you." said Esme putting her hands on my shoulders.

Bella, she was going to be so fury with me. She might even be willing to take away school for another month maybe more. Something between guilt and fear washed over me.

"Is she mad?" I asked, knowing Esme knew I meant Bella.

"No just disappointed. She is disappointed that you went and did something stupid and destroy that car. But I think she is more thankful then anything. She was touching Alice's shoulder when Alice had her vision the car hitting the tree and you flying out of it. She thought she was somehow going to lose you." Esme sighed.

I dropped my face into my face. Of course she wasn't made wasn't mad, Bella never got mad just disappointed. Her being disappointed I think is a lot worse then her being mad. I'd seen her get mad at Edward and Alice a few times because they had yet again bought her something that was too extravagant but it only last a little while. Unlike when she was mad, Bella disappointment seemed to last for days or at least until I found some way to make up for what I had done.

"Should I go talk to her?" I asked nervously.

"Perhaps you should wait a little longer. I'll see how there are going downstairs then report back to you." Esme whispered before hurrying out of the room.

I waited for Esme to come back but was suddenly being dragged away by Rosalie by the ear. She spun me by the ear into the couch in the living room.

"Dammit Rosalie, what was that for." I growled in annoyance.

"You…Destroyed…The…Porsche." she said her voice shaking with rage.

Shit. Her eyes were nearly black and her hands were in shaking fists. The only time Rosalie got mad at me was when it came to cars. I have a knack for destroying the cars she spends hours on adjusting and fixing. Counting the Porsche this would be the ninth car that I totaled.

"The tire traction wasn't good enough." I muttered.

"The traction was fine. How fast were going?" she growled.

"One twenty-five." I sighed.

"A hundred and twenty-five on black ice!" shouted Rosalie.

"He was going how fast?" asked Bella as she entered the room.

Her eyes were still dark. She needed to go hunting soon. Jack was tucked under one arm while she carried a thick photo album with both hands. Moving slowly into the room she hugged the album against her. A strange emotion flickered across her dark eyes.

"A hundred and twenty-five." repeated Rosalie.

'Traitor' I thought as I glared at her.

"The agreement was keep it under ninety." muttered Bella placing the album and Jack on the coffee table.

Groaning, I lid down the couch so that my head was resting on the back of the couch and the rest of me was slouching off the couch. Bella shook her head.

"Rosalie I'll let you finish talking with him. Esme is taking me out." she said as she left the room.

I let out a sigh of relief to two reasons. One; she was going hunting and two; I would now have time to come up with a good explanation for my behavior. A soft throat clearing sound snapped my focus to Rosalie, who was grinning deviously down at me.

"Since you destroyed that Porsche; which I insisted on not only getting it special painted but fixing it so it could go faster then any other car in our garage, you are going washing the cars for the next four months." smiled Rosalie.

"Fine." I muttered with no argument much to Rosalie disappointment.

I watched as her grin grew and I knew I had gotten myself into something I shouldn't have.

"Emmet." she called.

Instantly, he was in the room. Emmet was my godfather, though technically I didn't have a father. Though he was my godfather to me he was more like my part in crime. We always find our selves getting into trouble.

"For the next four months, go off roading as much as you like. Sonny here is in charge of washing all the cars in the garage." smirked Rosalie.

"That was low." I hissed as I walked out of the room.

The soft purred of Bella's car could be heard as I entered my room. Quickly, I went to my stereo and put in a new CD, it was an angry loud band that seemed to calm my mood. The music pulsed through the air as I settle down on my leather couch. It only took two minutes before someone decided to disturb my peace.

"You have got to be…" I began but was cut off.

"You're an idiot. Have I taught you nothing?" asked Emmet pushed me off my couch and taking for himself.

"Shut up." I snapped.

Laughing Emmet ignored my request for his silence and continued to lecture me.

"Really if you were going to break the rules on driving you could have at least not destroyed the car or admitted to the sped you were really going." Emmet explained.

"I didn't. I was going one fifty. I'm not that dumb." I muttered followed by Emmet booming laughter echoing off my bedroom walls.

Groaning on the floor I stared at my ceiling, maybe Bella was right maybe this family wasn't normal.