A/N: The song is It Only Hurts by Default, great song if you like rock music.

Elphaba could only tell herself that she didn't love Glinda until she realized it was useless. Since she had never had friends, the green girl greatly cherished her friendship with Glinda, but she wanted so much more. And she knew Glinda could never love her, hell she wasn't even sure if Glinda was her friend anymore. She had kissed her a week ago, and now the blonde hardly spoke to her. She swore to herself she wouldn't allow her emotions to tear at her, but it didn't help at all. No matter how much she wished, she knew Glinda would never love her.

Can hold my breathe only for a little while

Until reality starts sinking in

Once again I'm settling for second best

Turn the page and skip to the end

To where I swore that I would try

Since the last time I crossed the line

In the back of my mind I know

Suddenly Glinda walked into the room, and for a fleeting second her eyes met with Elphaba's, and then she abruptly broke the glance and made her way to her bed, falling onto it. Despite herself, Elphaba had to keep herself from crying. She could barely stand to look into Glinda's eyes, the beautiful blue eyes of the beautiful girl she loved more than anything in Oz, and she could barely take it when Glinda walked into their room. She knew she'd have to tell Glinda how she felt eventually, and she that when she did, Glinda would never want to be her friend.

It only hurts when your eyes are open

Lies get tossed and truths are spoken

It only hurts when that door gets opened

Dreams are lost and hearts are broken

That night Elphaba dreamed. She dreamed that her and Glinda had made love, and when she awoke, she once again had to keep herself from crying. Why did Elphaba's mind torture her with such dreams, when she knew Glinda would never love her? It would never work. Glinda was an upper class, beautiful socialite, and she was nothing more than an odd green girl from Munchkinland. Elphaba's mind was split in two; the part that wanted to tell Glinda how she felt, and the part that knew if she told Glinda how she felt, the friendship would be over. She suddenly remembered when she had kissed Glinda, and she tried to forget the whole incident, but it was impossible. She told herself again and again and again that she wouldn't allow this to get to her, but it did. She wanted to tell Glinda she loved her, but she never could. Glinda would never love her, and she new what she felt was deemed wrong, but how could loving someone be wrong?

Miles away promise from a burning bed

Two worlds should never collide

One word would end it if you ever heard

Tear the page out that reminds me

When I swore that I would be strong

Now the next time has come and gone

Well maybe I'm wrong I know

Elphaba turned over on her side, and stared at the beautiful blonde girl, and felt an intense moment of love, desire and heartbreak. Glinda suddenly opened her eyes and Elphaba stared into them, despite the fact that her heart broke when ever she did. The reality of the fact that she'd have to tell Glinda how she felt sooner or later flooded back to her, and she couldn't stop herself from crying this time. She rolled over again, so she had her back turned to Glinda, her tears burning her skin. She heard Glinda say something about going down to the kitchen and getting some tea, but mostly she heard the door open and close, and she was reminded that if Glinda knew Elphaba loved her, she'd never want to see her again.

It only hurts when your eyes are open

Lies get tossed and truths are spoken

It only hurts when that door gets opened

Dreams are lost and hearts are broken

Later that day, just as night was beginning to fall, Glinda sat on the edge of Elphaba's bed.

"Elphie, I've been thinking…" she began, and then stopped not entirely sure how to put what she wanted to say. "I've been thinking about the kiss, and I've realized…I love you Elphie, and not just as a friend. I really truly love you. Please tell me you understand"

"Glinda, I understand. I-I love you too" the green girl said, her voice shaky.

I know what you're feeling

No, Elphaba told herself. Glinda doesn't love, it's just your lovesick heart playing tricks on you.

It's hard to believe in

Someone, someone who's not there

"Elphie, kiss me please…make love to me. Do anything, just show me that you love me" said Glinda.

From the tone of her voice, Elphaba knew this was what Glinda wanted. She wanted her.

"I love you Glinda"

I know your waiting

'Cause love is worth saying

Elphaba eyes flashed open as she awoke from her dream. It had all been a dream. Glinda hadn't told her she love her, tears starting to flow from her brown eyes, burning her emerald cheeks.

But only for so long, so long

I swore that I would try

Since the last time

It only hurts when your eyes are open

Lies get tossed and truths are spoken

It only hurts when that door gets opened

Dreams are lost and hearts are broken