-1The Letter

Okay, folks, I figure it was time to try my hand at a G/CC fic! I noticed that much like K/18, they are a rather underappreciated and misunderstood couple, and that many of the stories involving them either end in tragedy or, of all things, suicide and/or divorce. So, I'm gonna write one, and dedicate this to Kinoha, who inspired me to write it. This is a letter written by Goku posthumously, so yes, he's already died in the Cell Games. And it might be sad. Enjoy!

Dearest Chi-Chi,

I never was good with words, but you already knew that. Still, I felt a need to speak to you somehow, and found that I can write much better than I can speak. Thanks for making me learn.

I've been watching, you Chi-Chi, and I know you're hurting right now. So am I. You have no idea how much I've missed you. But I hope you understand that what I did, I had to do. Every major threat this planet has ever faced was because of me, and staying gone seemed the best way to fix that problem. But I want you to know something.

I want you to know that you and Gohan were the first thing on my mind when I made that decision, as well as the last. It really hurt me to do it, so much so that right before that monster exploded, I did something I've only done a few times in my entire life. I cried, Chi.

I cried for you, for Gohan. I hated the fact that I wouldn't see you again, that I'd be leaving you behind for good. I cried for the fact that I never did tell you I loved you before I left, something I now wish I'd said so much more. And I cried at the fact that I'd be leaving Gohan without a father during a crucial time in his life.

But, I also knew that you wouldn't be completely alone. I knew Bulma and your father could help you, financially at the very least. And I also knew Krillin would help make sure Gohan grew up knowing what it really means to be a man. But still, when I think of all the things in his life I'll miss. His birthdays, his first girlfriend, his wedding day… it still hurts.

But what hurts most of all, I wish I'd known. I wish I'd known you were pregnant. How could I have missed that! If I had known, things might have been different. But it's too late now, my choice is made. All I can do now is watch.

I really am sorry, Chi-Chi. I wish I'd been a better husband to you. I was always frustrating you, breaking your things, running off for years at a time. But you still stayed with me, even against the advice of some people. No matter what I did, You still loved me, and for that I can't thank you enough.

I miss you cooking, by the way. King Kai can't cook worth a crud. The monkey is ten times better than him. But nowhere near as good as you.

I'm gonna have to cut this short, seeing as King Kai is kinda breaking the rules by letting me do even this. Tell everyone I said hi, and that I can't wait to see them all again. And you and Bulma see about setting Krillin up with a nice girl. I can't be too sure, but I really think he needs somebody.

I really wish I could come back. I wish I could hold you again, that I could be with you, Gohan, and the little one. And who knows, maybe I can one day. But for now, please just know that I love all of you, with my heart and soul, and I will see you again, one way or the other. Until then… I love you.

Yours forever,

Goku