A/N: Since I got back into writing this story again, and knowing that I got a fan that wants me to continue…Yeah I decided to type up another chapter as I'm enjoying redoing parts that I'm coming across as I read previous parts then where I'm currently at in this story. I added a twist that I forgot about, and decided to add that to make it even better. Anything that I come across as I type up each chapter I'll try my best to make it awesome as it can be!

This chapter will be a bit angst as I really go into Yun's background more, so don't expect anything really fluffy! You have been warned!

Disclaimer: Don't own anything Saiyuki related, expect Yun, this fanfic, and anything that doesn't appear already in the Saiyuki universe!

Yori vs. Hikari

~Chapter 13~

"Sora what's wrong?" Hakkai asked as he walked along side her.

Goku had a look of concern as well.

"It's nothing you guys, really. Just a nip from the jealous bug…it happens." She stated waving her hand to prove her point.

As the three came across a puppet booth, Goku sat down to watch Sora following suit. Hakkai shook his head at the two but joined them.

When the show was over, Hakkai stated he go find where Gojyo went off to. Goku and Sora nodded, no problem staying together as the man left.

"Want to go ahead and find Sanzo and Yun?" Sora asked the boy.

"Sure, sounds like a plan!" He yelled with a grin.

Your thoughts are a bit out of whack, love. Khan stated to Sora.

Huh, they are? Sora asked Khan mentally.

Yes, I've been here, but yes…ever since this evening. Granted it died down when you admitted to being jealous, but now I'm sensing or feeling there's something affecting only you and-

Yun and I? Sora asked.

Ah, well this is quite interesting…haven't come across this before. Find the others, quickly! Khan stated with a bit of haste in her tone.

On it! Sora stated back walking more quickly. She then took off on a run, Goku right behind her. He wondered why she was running.

"Woah, where's the awesome smelling food?!" Goku asked as she paused. "What's the hurry, Sora?"

"I don't know, I've been feeling off, but once I find Yun and the others…maybe it'll be better." She muttered.

Goku nodded, and the two once again looked for at least the priest and goddess of their group.

"I think, my friend you've had your fun for one night." Hakkai stated as he pulled up a half-drunk Gojyo.

"No, I haven't! The night's still young!" The kappa slurred.

"Well, let's at least meet up with the rest of the group, shall we?" The brunette asked as he helped his friend along.

"Such a great pal you are, man!"

Hakkai just shook his head with a low chuckle.

Sanzo took a moment to understand what almost happened, and shook his head in disbelief. What happened that he want to kiss her? Was it a spell that was cast on both of them? Maybe, I'm not the only one affected by the spell. He thought, but then remembered what Hakkai told him earlier. Is it really the lust spell, or he really wanted Yun like that, deep down? He gritted his teeth in annoyance as he really didn't want to think about crap like this! It made absolutely no sense whatsoever to the priest. She was just as confusing, as she just up and left…He realized that she was gone for more than what he was willing to wait for. As soon as he got up though, Sora and Goku ran up to him.

"Sanzo, where's Yun? I thought you two were together?" Sora asked.

"I was just about to get her…what happened?" The priest asked back warily.

"Just a bad feeling, and I'm hoping it goes away when I find Yun!" She stated as she ran off, Goku right behind her. Crap! I really hope nothing has happened, gotta hurry and find her! She worriedly thought as she ran to find her dear friend.

As Yun sat down and held herself, she thought about what almost transpired with the priest. He never want to do that normally, it was the influence of the spell and dolling herself up probably didn't help either. He was probably as relived as herself that they didn't kiss, because he would see that she was damaged and nothing but trouble. Sure being friends with the man was easy, and that's all that she was allowing herself as friendships never crumpled for her. Ever since she decided to do that terrible deed, she knew it would be best that she live with this sin alone. Couldn't bring herself to drag anyone down with her as no one deserved to know this information and have to live with it for the rest of their days. Silent tears soaked her lap as she cried, knowing that she probably just ruined her friendship with the priest as she just walked away without explaining.

Why did I have to have feelings for him?! I thought I locked up my emotions so that I wouldn't hurt anyone like that anymore! Why is it that someone like him, have to-want to get to know me, of all people? I'm the lowest of the low. She silently chanted to herself as she couldn't cry anymore.

"Why hello, Yun dearest." A male voice cooed.

She gasped and held herself more tightly as she knew that voice. "Why can't you just leave me alone?! You shouldn't be here! You're DEAD!" She cried glaring up at the brunette haired male.

He chuckled darkly, "Ah, but if I was dead like you say…tell me why I'm here? After all, you always seemed to have all the answers. Besides, who would want to leave such a beauty alone? Since you always have males at your heels. Just wanting a little bit of your attention. How you gave me such affection, time, and attention. Though, when you spent precious time on that friend and mother of yours, and not me…well, I had to even the odds out, right?" He spat circling her with cold brown eyes. "I was able to dispose of dear mother, but as for your friend? You wanted to be greedy…have more people in your live. Wasn't I enough?! No! She was closer to you than I ever was!" He snarled as he grabbed Yun's shoulders forcibly.

Yun's lips trembled as she whispered "Go away…I killed you. Why are you here? Back to haunt me? I already live with the sin of taking your life, why do you have to torment me further?!" She cried pushing the male away from her. She shook her head in doubt and ran towards the dense forest.

"So, you want to switch roles? Alright, I always enjoyed being the bad guy." He muttered darkly as he walked after her.

Sora, Goku, and Sanzo ran into Hakkai and Gojyo, asking the two if they happened to see Yun recently. They shook their heads no.

"Goku you know her scent, use that nose of yours!" Gojyo yelled as that idea came to mind.

The boy sniffed the air, trying to pick up the woman's scent.

You know the woman best, Sora. Use your new abilities! Khan stated.

What abilities? Last time I remember attacking everyone, last thing I want is to be another problem on their account. Sora snapped back.

No wonder you're jealous…Yun has it all, can heal the group, has men at her heels, can handle the situation of being here, and not getting distracted with romance…hell, she even risked her life to save you. And here you can't even chance using gifts that will no doubt help right now? Why are you really here? To forget about Kiyoshi? To forget about the other world? Seeing as no one really striked your fancy back home? Good job with grabbing Hakkai's attention, but do you even want to pursue a relationship with the healer? Or would you rather be the only female in this group? If you don't act now, that wish may come true…Khan paused and then chuckled. Though, whose the real monster? Yun is, she killed a man with her own two hands…but, you're the demon. Funny, isn't it? How twisted your situation is?

Shut up Khan! Sora snapped. I'm like this for a reason, and I know I'm the only one who can help her! I know she wants to do this herself, because that's how she is, but she needs me now. She silently declared as she called forth her demon powers.

Sora was scared shitless of using her wings, as all she could think about was the possibility that she go rogue. She shook her head as she expanded her wings, and took off into the sky.

"It's my turn to save you, Yun." She muttered into the night air.

She was able to locate Yun, but gasped as she saw him. She shook her head, not really wanting to go down memory lane at the moment. Why was he there? Last time she saw him, he was killed…dead. She landed a few feet away and approached with haste. She took a deep breath to calm her nerves before approaching the two.

"Ah, so good of you to join us Sora. I hope you enjoyed yourself with the time that has passed, because tonight…is your last." The man stated with a dark smile.

Shit, now the other has taken off! Hell, just gonna follow where that woman went. Sanzo mentally grumbled as he ran towards the direction Sora went.

The others followed after the priest with haste, as they really were getting worried about their comrades well-being. They made it to the edge of the forest, and something caught Sanzo's eye. He walked towards it, and immediately picked it up and tucked it away into his priest robes.

"Let's keep moving, we must be close." He stated before the guys could ask what he just tucked away. When the others were ahead of him, he pulled out the hair comb, and could smell Yun's scent, as he put it close. Cherry blossoms…heh. He thought as he caught up with the others, tucking it away again.

"Interesting with how you're fighting the influence, but I know you can't resist forever." The brunette man chuckled darkly. "You want to be the center of attention, have the guys looking at you while Yun is just a bystander. After all, you can't stand the fact that Yun has two men that want her, and you just have one man's attention…and it's not even because of your doing!" He grinned as he continued. "If anything, you just get a man's pity as you beg to have that attention that only a male can give you."

"Shut up! That shit is behind me. Why are you tormenting us? I thought we took care of you a long time ago! There's no way you were able to crawl your way back up from hell, and be here!" Sora snapped as she glared daggers at the man.

The man just laughed "You're right. How is it possible that I'm here, of all places? Hmm, let's think about that topic a little more, shall we?" He made his way to Yun's hunched form, the woman covering her ears trying to keep the man's words out. "Maybe, with the abilities that you two have acquired could be the cause, hmm?" He pulled her up roughly by her wrists. "Like for instance, that I'm just a creation from this one's mind." He stated as he tapped Yun's forehead. "For all we know, I really did leave an impact on her that she couldn't move on without me." He smiled darkly.

Yun didn't even bother trying to break free, let alone struggle out of the man's grasp. Sora gasped as she realized that Yun was wearing a mask this whole time, being tough and strong…so she didn't discourage her friend from standing up. She still hasn't gonna over her dark past, and only pretended to be cheerful and unattached because she didn't want anyone knowing the ugly truth. She clenched a hand into a fist, angry with herself that she once again allowed her friend to sink into the role of being the cheerful one. The person to make her feel better about herself, and not even ask to be cheered up or really talk about things. Sure, they weren't really in a situation where they can take time to talk about issues, but that was just an excuse they could always find time to speak to one another about things. The fact that he, Daz…was present.

"See how she suffers? Sad how you can't end them, because you can't heal." Daz spat as he dropped Yun to the ground, and made his way to circle Sora. "She killed me, but she's the goddess! Aren't they suppose to be pure?! You're the purer one, Sora…would you like to be the goddess?" He whispered in her ear. "Be the center of attention for once? Have men fighting for your attention? Have it where Yun is jealous of you?"

"He's right Sora…I should have the burden of being a demon. After all, I've committed a sin that should brand me as one. I'm the monster, I ALWAYS HAVE BEEN." Yun shouted sitting up slowly.

Sora shook her head in denial as she wasn't going to let the man influence her to doing something completely rash. She did however glare at Daz, and smirked. "I'll admit that I wish I could be more like you, Yun. But, I enjoy being myself more than trying to be something that I'm not." She ignored him and walked towards Yun to help her up. "Time to put this guy in the history books, and enjoy the future ahead of you. Stop dwelling in the past, Yun. Do you really think that's what your mother would want you to do?" She asked the woman with a warm smile.

Yun teared up "I really want to move on, Sora…but, how can I when I've killed someone? Even though he probably deserved it, I should have left it up to the police instead of taking into my own hands." She paused, then continued. "I wasn't ready to say goodbye! Why her, I miss her Sora why did she have to be taken away soo soon?!"

The guys arrived and stopped in their tracks as they took in what was happening. Hearing what transpired and finding that it was a creation of Yun's…they had to be careful with what they decided to do next. They spotted the lone male not too far from the two women. Judging from how the male was dressed he didn't look from this world. Daz's cold eyes laid on the guys and he couldn't help but grin and chuckle darkly.

"Oh, so these are the fellows you travel with? Interesting indeed, but Yun dearest I should be the only male in your life." Daz snarled as he looked upon the women. "Since you can't seem to let go of that delicious hatred, you obviously want to just have me in your life and no one else." He shrugged. "Otherwise, I wouldn't be standing here before you. Because if you seriously wanted your mother she should be here, right?" He circled around the two women. "Come on! You want to be the monster, after all you fit the role oh so well. Really give these guys a show, because you've been wearing a mask…a personality that you made that you never had to get attached, but simply move on."

Yun growled and grabbed for the man's throat. She sneered as she tightened her grip, not even aware that she was really harming herself in the process.

"Heh, you should know that harming me, is not going to bring that dead bitch back…right?" He wheezed as she continued to choke him. "You rather be dead, too? Even though you're suppose to outlive your parents? Just because you killed me, you don't even count all the demons that you've slain without thought?" He questioned grinning darkly.

"Shut up! Just because you know what's been going on, doesn't mean you can spout your bullshit!" Yun snapped ready to kill the man once again.

"Yun I know you can hear me, it wasn't your fault! Stop all this, stop letting that asshole win! You got rid of him before, stop letting your hatred control you!" Sora shouted tears prickling her eyes. "You didn't kill her, Daz did. I know I wasn't there with you in college, but wasn't I there when your mother was murdered? I'll always be there for you as much as a friend can! You're only hurting yourself in the end with doing this!"

Yun released her hold on Daz and slumped to the ground in defeat. She held her head her body trembling, not knowing what to do anymore. How does she move on when there wasn't anything worth looking forward to after this journey was over? She would just go back to her same boring life after this. Yes, she had Sora to look after her, her friend had been doing that for a long time…too long in fact she knew it was time for a big change. As she started to think about how to move on, Daz faded out of existence. The man really being a figment of her imagination come to life. She didn't know when the group circled around her, but she smiled glad to know they were simply there. She closed her eyes, she really wasn't alone anymore. She was thrown a little off guard as Hakkai offered a hand to help her up. Sora grabbed her other hand as her and Hakkai helped Yun up. When Yun looked the brunette man in the eyes, she silently gasped as she saw him have a dark look for a moment. She just smiled as he returned the gesture.

A/N: I wasn't sure if I wanted to continue the chapter further, but I decided that what just happened is a lot to take in. *sweat drop* So, I'll continue the story in the next chapter! This version is definitely better than what I had written first, because Daz didn't have nearly as big of an impact as he does now, and this feels more of how I wanted the characters to interact. This is what I was holding back for Yun, and trust me Sora has her's, but I rather have it when the story allows for certain things to trigger her memory into how they really are.

So look forward to future chapters, as I have more chapters written and I'm taking a bit as editing and rewriting parts take a little bit! See next time!