Summary: When part of John's past comes to Atlantis, John has to re-evaluate his feelings for someone he used to care a lot about, but is he ready for it??

Flashback

John opened his apartment door to find suitcases in the hallway. He went up to his room and found Kiara packing.

"What the hell is this?" John asked Kiara.

"I'm packing" she said looking at him. By the perplexed look on his face she knew he was not about to answer so she continued.

"I can't John, I can't do this anymore. I can't go on like this…"

"What's that supposed to mean?" he said cutting her off.

"I-I, we always fight, we aren't connected anymore. You've changed…Ever since the court-martial you've been distant. You barely talk to me." She answered.

"I'm just- I'm going through a rough time…come on sweetie, u can't just give up on me like that. You can't give up on us." John said.

"Tell me what to do…or even better, how am I supposed to help you" at John's silence she said. "See what I mean."

"Well you couldn't have picked a better time to leave" John said handing her a letter, clearly from the military.

"You're going to Antarctica?" she asked, the shock evident on her face and in her voice.

"Now you won't feel so bad" John said bitterly.

"That's not fair!" she said in a low voice with tears in her eyes.

"Fair? Fair!" John said raising his voice.

"How can u do this to us? You think it's fair that…who am I kidding? Doesn't matter anyway, I'm being transferred. Maybe it's a good thing; I can start a new life…" John trailed off.

"Okay, I get it. I'm not even going to pretend I'm happy about this either but I can't stay. Everyday it's as if I'm in your way." She said cutting him off.

"I really need to go." Kiara was now really crying. "I'm sorry" she said handing him the engagement ring he had given her. "I wish we could have made it work."

She turned to leave but then stopped and turned around. She went and gave John a kiss on the lips, surprisingly John accepted and deepened it. They broke apart reluctantly and she left.

End of Flashback

This was the scene that kept replaying in John Sheppard head as he saw Kiara sitting in the seat opposite him in the Atlantis briefing room. He hadn't heard a word Rodney was saying about the ZPM's and a possible mission. Meanwhile, Ronon had sensed the tension between Kiara and John and was pretty sure they had a history. Even with that Ronon thought she was pretty; a brunette, average height, dark brown eyes, dark skin and a curvy body. Kiara kept glancing nervously at John and him at her. Their eyes never met though. At the end everyone left except for her and John.