Finally, the last chapter. I'm really sorry for the long delay. It's really out of my control. You see, after I finished 90% of this chapter suddenly my disc was broke. I know, I know. You would say it just a weak defense. But I swear it's true! Because I already mention in the last chapter that I would post it with this final chapter, I delay to post the chapter three. So I really really sorry.
The lessons that I got from that bad luck are: 1) never ever use your disc in others computers no matter how bad the urge to type is, and 2) always have a back up disc for your files. And then you wouldn't end screaming madly when this situation happen and shock your neighborhood!
By the way, I know I should have to mention it in the last chapter. I don't know anything about Japanese's court system so I put up America's. I'm not an expert of it, I just know America's court system from the LA Law, Reasonable Doubt, and more. So be nice to me, okay?
So, for everyone who still interested to read this fic, I really hope you would R&R.
Chapter 4 : In The Court
Hikari
I'm glad everything turns to be okay. Our parents didn't seem so surprise when my Onnichan told them that he's a gay. And they didn't surprise when he told them that he has fall in love with Yamato for years now. I guess deep inside they already knew. They just didn't want to talk about the matter first.
Later Onnichan told me about the conversation between Yamato and his dad which gave him the courage to confess. So our parents didn't seem so open like Mr. Ishida but they didn't seem to against it. They said they love him so much so nothing else matter. He cried. I guess he didn't think every thing would end so nice like that.
So now we all here in the court. Even the new digidestined. Yamato looked strangely calm down but his fragile state still appears clearly. Onnichan and Takeru hardly left his side like they ready to catch him anytime he falls. Finally the court call him to give his statement.
Yamato
"Do you swear to tell the truth and only the truth so help me God?"
"I do."
I sat nervous. I could feel everyone eyes locked on me and I really don't feel comfortable with that. Sawai looked at me and grinned slyly. I bit my lips as my arms clench to the chair. Then I saw Taichi looked at me. I could sense the love in his eyes and I found myself beginning to calm down.
I answered all questions that the DA asked me. About when did the first time I receive those letters, how I feel about it, why I beginning to avoid my family and my friend. And finally he asked me to tell them what happen that night. I took a deep breath.
"It was supposed to be a celebration for me. Even though I hate parties, I agree to attend the party. I thought I would be safe in the crowd. I met my best friend there and we talked. And then he noticed a letter just like others that I received. And I read it…"
I couldn't continue. I just stare blankly to the floor.
"Mr. Ishida, is this the letter that you receive that day?"
I look at the sheet. And yes indeed, that's the letter. So I nod. The DA coughs and seems unsure to say something. And then I realize. He needs a verbal answer, not a movement. So after a deep breath I answer. "Yes."
"And then what happen?"
"I.. I just felt sick, knew that person was in the same room as I was. So after asked my friends to be careful for anything, I left. I didn't tell him exactly what happen. Just couldn't. I guess he thought that I just lost my mind. My bodyguard, Sawai, drove me home. I just knew something was terribly wrong when I saw the neighborhood was dark. My security told me that the electricity was broke but the company already sent someone to fix it. So I when home and locked it. I tried to find flashlight or even candle in the drawers when suddenly I thought I heard something. I looked at the source when suddenly a fist hit me hard in the stomach and then I just lost my consciousness."
"Have you ever wake up or haven't you?"
"I woke up because I just out of breath."
"How could you out of breath?"
Taichi
I saw my angel's face turn to white. When finally he answer the question, he couldn't stop to stutter.
"I…I choked out of breath. I…I could…felt…some…someone's mouth on mine. I…I could felt…his tongue…exploded…inside me," he looked so sick and it's seem that he could pass out anytime.
"Mr. Ishida, do you want to reset now? We could take it a break so you could rest a while before we continue this," the judge ask him gently.
Yama-chan looked almost to take that offer but something stops him.
"I still have to do it then, don't I? Let's just finish it now."
I couldn't help to smile. Even in his fragile state, he still has his stubborn attitude in his. He just to stubborn to accept that he loose from himself.
"I couldn't scream cause his mouth shut me. I tried to struggle but he just too strong. I could felt the pain all over my body as he squeezed. Yet, he still didn't stop. He kept squeeze me over & over again. Make some new bruises, some more pain. Finally, his mouth freed mine. I coughed hardly. I tried to scream but his hand just covered my mouth. I try to struggle harder only to get some punches again. I was afraid and I couldn't help to think where was the security. Suddenly the light was on. I blinked for a second and so was he."
"Do you recognize your attacker?"
"Yes. It was him, Sawai." He pointed his finger to Sawai and the DA asked the court to note that Yama-chan pointed directly to him.
"And then what happen?"
"He didn't seem to stop what he was doing. And he said that he never thought they could fix it so fast. Or was that because I wasted so much time with… with my friend."
Yamato
I couldn't say the word slut in front of them, could I? I felt my face redden a little.
"Mr. Ishida, can you carry on?" the DA asked. I just nodded.
"He said that I was him forever. Life or dead. But dead would be much suitable then I would completely stop… stop…" I just couldn't finish it. It's just too much.
"Then you would completely stop doing what, Mr. Ishida?"
I tried to answer but my voice suddenly couldn't go out.
"Mr. Ishida, please answer the question." The DA asked me kindly but with the stern that I should do what he asked me to.
"Then I would completely stop fucking someone behind him." My voice just so faint that I'm not sure if they could heard that. But I guess they could for the gasp that I hear immediately. I just couldn't stand the thought that all the eyes in the room fix on me so I just stare blankly to the floor.
"Then what happen?"
"He kissed again roughly. My lips were bleeding for his action. And I couldn't get his hands off my body. My shirt was already unbuttoning. And he tried to put off my pants. I tried to kick him, to hit him and even bit him. And he got so mad. He took his knife out. He tried to stab me. I grabbed his hands and tried to fight for it. But he was much powerful than me. Suddenly I felt pain on my stomach. And I could feel blood streamed fast as I drowned into unconsciousness. The last think I remember was the movement of his hand as he tried to stab me again while the other hand still shut my mouth."
Taichi
I feel so sorry for Yama-chan. I knew how hard it is for him. I thought the DA was finish with him. But I was wrong.
"Mr. Ishida, is that true after you survive you couldn't eat or drink anything without vomit so you must get IV constantly?"
His eyes just wide with shock. He just never thought that the issue would ever appear in the court. All attention in the court just grows to him and he didn't like it. He seems didn't want to answer it but finally he said faintly, "Yes."
"Mr. Ishida, please shows us the wounds in both your hand."
"Wh… what?" his face just become more white as he realize what the DA want from him. And he just froze, unable to think or do anything.
"Mr. Ishida, please shows us the wounds!" the DA asked again.
Yama-chan just bit his lip and slowly rolls the shirt. Everyone gasped when they saw the almost healing wounds in his hands by the IV. I felt so sorry for him. I know how much he hates to show his weakness in front of the others. He just the kind of guy who hide all his trouble inside even when his troubles finally eat him from inside. But I also know this is important so the jurors would understand how terrible what Sawai did.
"I have no more question, Your Honor."
Sawai's attorney then stands and walks closer to Yama-chan.
"Mr. Ishida, how long has Mr. Sawai work for you?"
"About three years now."
"And when did you first receive those letters?"
"About a year ago."
"So it took Mr. Sawai two years for finally falling in love with you."
I couldn't help to stand angrily. He tried to confuse my angel! Takeru and Hikari quickly pulled me to sit again.
"I don't know. I'm not him." My angel said coldly.
I couldn't help to smile. Even in his fragile state, he still has the cool and tough attitude in him.
"You such a handsome young man, Mr. Ishida. I bet your girlfriend really worry about what happen to you."
"I don't have a girlfriend," Yama-chan said. He seems to think what that attorney's planning for.
"Really? Maybe your boyfriend then." My angel looks so shocked.
"Objection! The witness' sexuality doesn't have anything to do with this case!" the DA stood with furious.
"Oh, but it is, Your Honor. If you just let me finish my questions."
"Objections overrule. You may continue with your questions, Mr. Tanaka. But I remind you to direct it quickly."
"Thank you, Your Honor. Mr. Ishida, you didn't answer my question"
"I don't have a boyfriend with the meaning as you said." He answered it coldly but his voice just a little tremble.
"Isn't it not common for a handsome young man in your ages for not have a lover? I checked that you never date or build any love relationship with others."
"Mr. Tanaka, please ask your questions more directly," the judge warned him.
"Mr. Ishida, are you a gay?"
"Objections! The question doesn't have any connection with this case!"
"Your Honor, my client told me that he and the witness had a relationship for years. The witness just too afraid if that relationship would ruin his image. So he tried to kill my client to erase evident. My client acted was a pure self defense."
"Wh… what?" My angel seems to pass out because of his emotion.
"The witness was the one that got stab. Any normal people wouldn't think that he would try something against a man who almost two size of his! Beside we have a lot of witness that could proof that the letters are real. And a lot of evident that dependant killed Ozaki Toru and tried to kill the witness!"
"Your Honor…"
"Enough, Mr. Tanaka. Unless you could give us a verbal evident that what you said was true, I suggest you to quit this subject."
The attorney's face just becomes redder. "No, Your Honor. I don't have any verbal evident."
"Then please the jurors to ignore the questions."
"I don't know."
All the attention in the room just grows to my angel.
"Mr. Ishida, you don't have to answer the question." The DA immediately warns him. But Yama-chan seems didn't hear it.
"I don't know if I'm a gay or not. I just never thought about it. After my parent divorce, it's just so hard for me to believe in love. How could I believe there is an everlasting love if I couldn't see it? It took me years for finally except others as my friends. But that's all the love I could offer them. Just friendship's love. I think I would be able to love someone in that kind of love if I have time by my side."
He paused for a moment. He took a deep breath before finally continue with his words. "I never have anything against gays people. But what he did made me afraid to think about Homo relationship. So right know, I really couldn't answer that question."
I could see everyone's sympathy grows to him.
"I know you wouldn't believe me, Mr. Tanaka. And I don't have anything to proof what I have said. I never thought I would say this… but you just made me feel worse for being safe. At least if I die, I wouldn't have to proof you anything, would I?"
The attorney suddenly speechless. He tried to say something but he fail. Finally he managed himself to say that he didn't have anything to say.
Yamato
It's finally over. I'm glad it's over. I don't think I could handle this any longer.
"You could back to your sit, Mr. Ishida." The judge said kindly.
I get up. To my surprise, my legs just disobey me. So I fall back to the chair. The judge asked me if I was all right. I couldn't answer that question. I was too ashamed for showing my weakness in front of the people. Great, Ishida. Just show how a freak you are in front of the strangers!
I tried to get up again when suddenly I could feel two people support me in the left and the right. I looked up and saw Taichi and Takeru. The judge didn't say anything about their acted that disturb the court and just simply nodded. So they just gently lead me back to the others. I just put my head down, too ashamed to see others reaction.
Taichi
He so tensed up. I want to tell him to ignore everything. Don't think what others would think. He always likes that. He always cares what others would think about him. I squeeze his hand gently to relax him. He looked at me and he tried to smile weakly. But I could feel his body loosen up.
I really proud of him. All of us thought that he could never pass this one. That he would be breakdown when that damns lawyer pressed him. But he didn't. He showed us hid dignity. He always is a fighter. I guess we from all of these people must known it already but we just forgot because from all that has happened in the past months.
I don't pay any attention to what happen in the court next. All my attention is my angel. After hearing the final statement from the DA and Sawai's attorney, the jurors leave the room. It's only take thirty minutes before the jurors make their decision. It's a good sign, is it? I beginning to feel worry.
"Have the jurors make their decision yet?" asked the judge.
"We have, Your Honor."
The judge read the paper and gives it back to the chief of jurors.
"For the trial of first degree murder Ozaki Toru, we found defendant guilty. For the trial to abuse and kill Ishida Yamato, we found defendant guilty."
I couldn't help my happiness when I hear that Sawai must spend the rest of his life in jail. We all just talking happily that the bastard got what he deserve when suddenly there's a riot.
Yamato
I didn't really know what happen. All I know is suddenly there's a riot. And the next thing I know someone grasped me so tight and made it hard for me to breathe. Then I saw Taichi lied in the floor with a pain in his face. He looks at me with fear and anger. All the officers point their guns on us and yell something like surrender.
Then I heard his laugh. I could never forget his evil laugh. And I found myself froze when I realize I am under his mercy once again. I could hear all the yelling. Sawai's attorney who yelled that it was his knife. His mail's knife. The DA yelled at him about how stupid for him to bring a sharp object in the room. And Sawai's attorney that yelled back about how could he know Sawai would found it and use it.
"So finally we together again. Even in your wildest dreams you never think something like this would happen, wouldn't you?" He said teasingly.
I couldn't stop my body to shaking. I feel tears try to fall from my eyes. I try my best to hold them. I don't want him to know the fear inside me. Well, it would works if my body could stop shaking violently.
"Release him, Sawai. You only put yourself in a more deep trouble," Taichi scold at him with hatred.
"If I can't have him then no one can!"
Then I could feel his tongue lick my ear. And he sucks it. I feel my strength left me. My legs just couldn't support my body anymore. The only reason I didn't fall is his hand, which holds the knife, that blocked my way to the floor. I could feel his other hand touch me in the private area and then began to squeeze it. I couldn't help to squeak and began to sob. I feel like I would be pass out any time.
I could hear Taichi growl in anger and frustration. Then I feel the squeeze stop. And then he tries to pull down my pant. It's just too much for me. I prefer to die than being humiliated in front of these people! I try to struggle but he just too strong for me. Back then, he was stronger. And now my condition just weaker than before. The only result I got is he pressed the knife deepen to my neck and blood begins to flow.
"Yama, please calm down."
I could hear the fear in Taichi's voice. Fear for me. But I just couldn't let Sawai rape me in front of the people. If I think calmly, I would know that if Sawai try it then his guard would be down. And I would be safe before he could finish what he desires. But I just couldn't let him do that to me. I got enough humiliation and fear from him already. I just couldn't let him continue.
But then from the corner of my eyes I saw him. That officer is different from others. Others just hold their guns with both hands. He seems like does that but one of his hands didn't hold his gun. His pointed three fingers. When he realize I notice him, he nodded. His fingers just went from three to two and then one. After that, he put his head down.
I puzzled. But then I realize what he tried to tell me. He saw that and he smile to reassure me. I try not to make Sawai curious. I hardly feel his other hand that tries to pull my pant down again. From the corner of my eyes I saw he count silently. One. Two. Three! And I move my head down to my chest so quickly as my life depend on it.
Taichi
There's a loud explotion. The next thing I saw was my angel's golden hair cover with blood. And then his body and Sawai just fall lifeless. I scream with terror as I rush to my fallen angel. I hold his body desperately.
"Yama! Please, Yama! Open your eyes! Doctor! Call the doctor, dammit!"
And then I feel someone kneel beside me and check at my angel.
"Don't worry, Taichi. He just unconscious. But we need to treat the cut in his neck quickly." Jyou's voice came to reassure me.
"But…but… The blood in his head…"
"It's that man's blood. Someone shoot his head just a second after Yamato put his head down."
Jyou's words snapped me back to reality. I immediately look for Sawai. I need to be sure that it's finally over. And yes it is. I saw him lying lifeless in the floor. His eyes just open so wide and his mouth opened with disbelief. That's a hole in the middle of his forehead. This time I really believe everything would be just fine.
We took Yama-chan to rest room where the doctor could examine him carefully. The doctor said he would be all right. He just too shaken with all that has happened. He will need a lot of rest and of course we must avoid all the things that can depress him. But outside of those, he would be fine.
Just after the doctor left the room, I heard my angel screaming in fear. I rush to his side and hold him tight to comfort him.
Yamato
My fear just climax when I feel somebody hold my body so tight. But then I hear Taichi's voice tries to reassure me. As soon as I know it was him, my body just loosen it's tensed. And I began to sob. He whispers soothing words. I couldn't help to get angry to myself to breakdown right this. But it's really feel so nice to be in his embrace.
There's a knock in the door. I quickly pull myself from his embrace and wipe my tears. I could see him disappointed from my reaction but he smiles to me to show me it's all right for him. And then an officer came. I recognized him already as the man that safe my life. He is a fine looking man in his mid twenty.
"I see you already awake. So how are you?"
"Fi…Fine, I guess. Mm, officer, thank you. Thank you so much."
"Yes, we really grateful for what have you done for him," said Taichi as he finally realize who is that man.
"Don't be. I didn't do it for you only, Yamato. I have unfinished business with him too. And from the look in your eyes, I knew you already decided to die than let him got what he wanted. So I have to move. For you, and for Ritsuko."
"You… You know Ritsuko?" My eyes suddenly wide with surprise. "But… But how…?" Suddenly it hit me.
"Ritsuko said his fiancee was a police officer. It was you?"
Taichi looked at me and to that man. He looks so confused.
"Who is Ritsuko?"
"His manager before Sawai's hurt her. I won't lie that I was mad at you before, Yamato. The woman I love must spend the rest of her life with a stick. And what for? Just because some crazies fan of a rock star that I never know. But she never shows her regret. And then I knew why. You show us that you care. That you consider her as your friend. You show me that you are worthy to be depend for."
I just speechless. The thing I regret most from all that happens are what happened to Ritsuko and Ozaki. I couldn't stop the feeling that it was all my fault. I the one who made that happen. That it's should been me. But now he told me all these! I couldn't stop the tears falling down my face.
"Don't blame yourself for what happen. Don't you think you too hard to yourself? I know Ritsuko doesn't want you to feel that way. None of those are your fault. It was his fault. But now he already dead. You could carry on with your life. That's all I want to say. I must go now. Get well soon, will you?"
And with that he just leave the room.
Taichi
It has been three weeks now. Yama-chan refuses to meet anyone. Not me, and not the others digidestined. I feel so depress. I miss him so much. I want to be near him, to support him or just company him. But he refused. The only news about him I got from Takeru. And it's seemed not only me that miss him.
His fans wrote a lot of letters. Asked him if he all right. When will he return to the show business. Many mass media talk about him lately. About how much his fans miss him. How they waiting for him to return. Some of the reporters even said that my angel become phenomena now. And a lot of people couldn't wait to see him recover.
A phone distracts my day dreaming. Without any enthusiasm, I pick up the phone.
"Yagami's resident."
"Taichi, Onnichan is missing," Takeru's voice is full of depress.
"What? How could it happen?"
"We don't know! He hardly left his room. But this morning when I wake up, he already gone. One of the neighborhood saw him left about 7 A.M. He left a note that he was going to your place."
My brain just couldn't think anything. It's almost 11 A.M now. My house isn't that far! Why didn't he arrive already? And why did he want to go to my house? He avoided me lately. I don't think he would ever want anything to do with me again.
"I'll find him, Takeru. And you must search around your area too. Keep tell me the news, okay?" Without waiting for his comment I put down the phone.
I immediately write a note to tell my family about it. I rush to the door only to find my angel stood behind it. He is shaking slightly and looks a little pale.
"Yama-chan! You're all right!" I hold him so tight until finally I realize what have I done. I quickly release my embrace and murmured. "Sorry."
But then I saw him smiles softly. He didn't seem disturb by what I've done.
"May I come in?"
"Of course." I replied. My cheeks just turn crimson for my stupidity. After I closed the door, I couldn't help to look at him with curiosity.
"Where has you been? Takeru told me that you left the house about 7 A.M. That's hours ago."
"I already left the note that I would go to your house."
"My house isn't that far away from yours!"
He looks ashamed to himself. And his face turns to crimson when he continued his words. "I… I couldn't decide what road should I take. The usual one always been a busy street. And I'm not sure I am ready to face the people. Well. I could if they would abandon me. But how about if there's people who know me? Or I should take a quiet shortcut. But if something happen I would be helpless. So…"
He just couldn't finish it. I feel so sorry for him. It's must be took all his might to finally arrive here.
"May I have a glass of water, please?" He asked softly.
I nodded and went to bring him the water. Then I remember Takeru.
"Here you go. Please wait. I must call Takeru so he could stop worry about you."
There's nobody answers my call. I guess they all still searching for Yama-chan. So I just left the message. When I return to my angel, I saw him holding the glass with both hands which still shaking slightly. The water only been drinking a little. But then I remember. I gasped.
"Yama-chan, you're… drinking! How…How could… Are you all right now?"
"Well, yes and no."
"Why the 'no' part?"
"I mean I still not fully recover. I just try to be better step by step. And I really try so hard because I have my reason."
"What is your reason?" He looked uncomfortable because of my question. So I quickly said, "You don't have to answer that if you don't want to."
"I do."
So I wait for his explanation. But his mouth was still locked. I saw his fingers hold the glass very tight for comfort. I thought he would never open his mouth. But then the words that he said were not what I expected.
"Taichi, you said before that you loved me. That you loved me for years now. Do you really mean that?"
"Yes. I mean that. I love you so much. But why do you asking me this now?"
He took a deep breath. And then he looks at me with sincerity.
"I didn't lie in the court. I didn't know if I was a gay or not. After the court, I didn't want to see anyone. I needed time to think. And one thing I know for sure is I really miss you. I miss you so much. I remember all the things we've done together. All the time we've spent together. And then I realize. Outside of my family and Gabumon, you mean more to me than anyone in my life."
My heart is beating so fast. Is he really saying what I think he say it? That's he loves me too? I look straight to his eyes with a hope to see any clue in there.
"What I'm trying to say is… I guess I love you too. I just didn't realize it. I'm sorry I hurt you before. It's just… it's all too sudden for me. And because what Sawai did, I… I really…"
He just couldn't finish what he said. He just stares to the floor. He took my silence as a rejection. He looks so fragile, made me want to protect him so much. And then I just follow my heart. I hold him so tight. His body tenses because of my sudden movement. But then he relaxes. I lift his face up and then kiss him gently.
He didn't respond to my kiss but he didn't refuse it too. So I deepen my kiss. And then I knew something is wrong. I mean, he didn't do or say anything to stop me but I could feel his body shaking slightly.
Yamato
He releases his embrace. I just couldn't look at his face. I guess he is mad at me. And he has a right for that. I told him that I love him but my act didn't show it. He kissed me with all his love… and then I just chicken up?
"You really didn't lie in the court, did you? Homo relationship really scare you now." There's no anger in his voice.
I still couldn't stop staring at the floor. And then he holds me so tight.
"It's all right, Angel. You don't have to do anything that you don't prepare yet. I'll wait. I'll wait for you forever."
"But… but it's not fair for you," I sobbed. "I'm so sorry, Taichi. I really love you. It's just… I just…"
"You need time. And that's what you will get. And a lot of understanding and support too."
I look at his eyes. And I know he really means it. I could feel love and understanding radiant from his eyes. And it's just making my tears fall more torrents. I don't deserve him. He just too kind for a person likes me.
"Please at least let me explain. I do love you. It's just I need time to forget all the terrible things that happen. It's not that I didn't try. I try really. I came here, didn't I? And I could drink even a little bit. It's you. You're the reason for me to not give up. And I just know that I would finally pass all these if you would stand by my side."
I look at him, still crying. He just smiles softly. He moves his hands to wipe my tears. His kindness gives me the courage to continue. I guess that's why he became the bearer of courage in the first place.
"What you offered to me just too much for me to accept. I can't ask you to wait for me. Because I myself don't know how long it takes for me to finally move on. It's just not fair for you to wait in unsure. I'm not worthy enough for you to do it. I couldn't make love with you or kiss you or do any other things that lovers do. It's just…"
Taichi
That's all he could say before I kiss him again lightly to stop his words.
"Please don't say that, Angel. You're worthy! God, you don't know how much you mean for me. I love you. I love the really you. Not just your body. If we could never kiss or make love, I can accept that. Not that I don't want it. But what I really want is you. So just like what I have said, I will wait for you. I wait for you then, I wait for you now, and I wait for you forever."
His eyes just glisten with tears. I kiss his left eye and then the other gently.
"One thing you must sure, you would never lost me for anything. I love you too much. I waited so long before I finally have you. So I would treasure you more than anything in the world."
And then he hugged me. He hugged me so tight and sobbed. And he murmured thank you over and over again. I smile happily. And then I remember all things with his fans and news.
Yamato
"Angel, can I ask you something?"
He seems so use to call me angel. It's embarrassing me. I'm not an angel. Not even close! But I would lie if I say I don't like it. Its make me feel so loved, so wanted. And yet I feel not worthy for it.
"Don't call me that. I'm not an angel."
"But you are, for me. So can I ask?"
I just nod, a little worry about what would he ask.
"Your fans ask for you're come back. What would you do about it?"
I just speechless. I never suspect him to ask me that.
"You don't have to answer that if you don't want to."
"No, not like that. It's just I don't know. Just… We do it step by step, okay?" I look at him and pleaded.
He smiles gently to relax me.
"Okay. Just remember I will support whatever you will decide."
I smile and hug him. He hugs me back so tight. I close my eyes. And for the first time after all that incident I feel so safe and secure.
The End
God, finally! It's finish! Sorry it took me so long to finally finish it. Thank you for all of you that have been so patient for me. Especially thank you for Kae Ti who introduces me to FFNet. I finally finish my fic. I'll wait for the last two chapters of A Love Born of Hate. ^_^
My already write my second fic, A Long Road to Journey. Its still Yamachi/Taito but Matt would be the main focus on it. I hope you will R&R too…
The lessons that I got from that bad luck are: 1) never ever use your disc in others computers no matter how bad the urge to type is, and 2) always have a back up disc for your files. And then you wouldn't end screaming madly when this situation happen and shock your neighborhood!
By the way, I know I should have to mention it in the last chapter. I don't know anything about Japanese's court system so I put up America's. I'm not an expert of it, I just know America's court system from the LA Law, Reasonable Doubt, and more. So be nice to me, okay?
So, for everyone who still interested to read this fic, I really hope you would R&R.
Chapter 4 : In The Court
Hikari
I'm glad everything turns to be okay. Our parents didn't seem so surprise when my Onnichan told them that he's a gay. And they didn't surprise when he told them that he has fall in love with Yamato for years now. I guess deep inside they already knew. They just didn't want to talk about the matter first.
Later Onnichan told me about the conversation between Yamato and his dad which gave him the courage to confess. So our parents didn't seem so open like Mr. Ishida but they didn't seem to against it. They said they love him so much so nothing else matter. He cried. I guess he didn't think every thing would end so nice like that.
So now we all here in the court. Even the new digidestined. Yamato looked strangely calm down but his fragile state still appears clearly. Onnichan and Takeru hardly left his side like they ready to catch him anytime he falls. Finally the court call him to give his statement.
Yamato
"Do you swear to tell the truth and only the truth so help me God?"
"I do."
I sat nervous. I could feel everyone eyes locked on me and I really don't feel comfortable with that. Sawai looked at me and grinned slyly. I bit my lips as my arms clench to the chair. Then I saw Taichi looked at me. I could sense the love in his eyes and I found myself beginning to calm down.
I answered all questions that the DA asked me. About when did the first time I receive those letters, how I feel about it, why I beginning to avoid my family and my friend. And finally he asked me to tell them what happen that night. I took a deep breath.
"It was supposed to be a celebration for me. Even though I hate parties, I agree to attend the party. I thought I would be safe in the crowd. I met my best friend there and we talked. And then he noticed a letter just like others that I received. And I read it…"
I couldn't continue. I just stare blankly to the floor.
"Mr. Ishida, is this the letter that you receive that day?"
I look at the sheet. And yes indeed, that's the letter. So I nod. The DA coughs and seems unsure to say something. And then I realize. He needs a verbal answer, not a movement. So after a deep breath I answer. "Yes."
"And then what happen?"
"I.. I just felt sick, knew that person was in the same room as I was. So after asked my friends to be careful for anything, I left. I didn't tell him exactly what happen. Just couldn't. I guess he thought that I just lost my mind. My bodyguard, Sawai, drove me home. I just knew something was terribly wrong when I saw the neighborhood was dark. My security told me that the electricity was broke but the company already sent someone to fix it. So I when home and locked it. I tried to find flashlight or even candle in the drawers when suddenly I thought I heard something. I looked at the source when suddenly a fist hit me hard in the stomach and then I just lost my consciousness."
"Have you ever wake up or haven't you?"
"I woke up because I just out of breath."
"How could you out of breath?"
Taichi
I saw my angel's face turn to white. When finally he answer the question, he couldn't stop to stutter.
"I…I choked out of breath. I…I could…felt…some…someone's mouth on mine. I…I could felt…his tongue…exploded…inside me," he looked so sick and it's seem that he could pass out anytime.
"Mr. Ishida, do you want to reset now? We could take it a break so you could rest a while before we continue this," the judge ask him gently.
Yama-chan looked almost to take that offer but something stops him.
"I still have to do it then, don't I? Let's just finish it now."
I couldn't help to smile. Even in his fragile state, he still has his stubborn attitude in his. He just to stubborn to accept that he loose from himself.
"I couldn't scream cause his mouth shut me. I tried to struggle but he just too strong. I could felt the pain all over my body as he squeezed. Yet, he still didn't stop. He kept squeeze me over & over again. Make some new bruises, some more pain. Finally, his mouth freed mine. I coughed hardly. I tried to scream but his hand just covered my mouth. I try to struggle harder only to get some punches again. I was afraid and I couldn't help to think where was the security. Suddenly the light was on. I blinked for a second and so was he."
"Do you recognize your attacker?"
"Yes. It was him, Sawai." He pointed his finger to Sawai and the DA asked the court to note that Yama-chan pointed directly to him.
"And then what happen?"
"He didn't seem to stop what he was doing. And he said that he never thought they could fix it so fast. Or was that because I wasted so much time with… with my friend."
Yamato
I couldn't say the word slut in front of them, could I? I felt my face redden a little.
"Mr. Ishida, can you carry on?" the DA asked. I just nodded.
"He said that I was him forever. Life or dead. But dead would be much suitable then I would completely stop… stop…" I just couldn't finish it. It's just too much.
"Then you would completely stop doing what, Mr. Ishida?"
I tried to answer but my voice suddenly couldn't go out.
"Mr. Ishida, please answer the question." The DA asked me kindly but with the stern that I should do what he asked me to.
"Then I would completely stop fucking someone behind him." My voice just so faint that I'm not sure if they could heard that. But I guess they could for the gasp that I hear immediately. I just couldn't stand the thought that all the eyes in the room fix on me so I just stare blankly to the floor.
"Then what happen?"
"He kissed again roughly. My lips were bleeding for his action. And I couldn't get his hands off my body. My shirt was already unbuttoning. And he tried to put off my pants. I tried to kick him, to hit him and even bit him. And he got so mad. He took his knife out. He tried to stab me. I grabbed his hands and tried to fight for it. But he was much powerful than me. Suddenly I felt pain on my stomach. And I could feel blood streamed fast as I drowned into unconsciousness. The last think I remember was the movement of his hand as he tried to stab me again while the other hand still shut my mouth."
Taichi
I feel so sorry for Yama-chan. I knew how hard it is for him. I thought the DA was finish with him. But I was wrong.
"Mr. Ishida, is that true after you survive you couldn't eat or drink anything without vomit so you must get IV constantly?"
His eyes just wide with shock. He just never thought that the issue would ever appear in the court. All attention in the court just grows to him and he didn't like it. He seems didn't want to answer it but finally he said faintly, "Yes."
"Mr. Ishida, please shows us the wounds in both your hand."
"Wh… what?" his face just become more white as he realize what the DA want from him. And he just froze, unable to think or do anything.
"Mr. Ishida, please shows us the wounds!" the DA asked again.
Yama-chan just bit his lip and slowly rolls the shirt. Everyone gasped when they saw the almost healing wounds in his hands by the IV. I felt so sorry for him. I know how much he hates to show his weakness in front of the others. He just the kind of guy who hide all his trouble inside even when his troubles finally eat him from inside. But I also know this is important so the jurors would understand how terrible what Sawai did.
"I have no more question, Your Honor."
Sawai's attorney then stands and walks closer to Yama-chan.
"Mr. Ishida, how long has Mr. Sawai work for you?"
"About three years now."
"And when did you first receive those letters?"
"About a year ago."
"So it took Mr. Sawai two years for finally falling in love with you."
I couldn't help to stand angrily. He tried to confuse my angel! Takeru and Hikari quickly pulled me to sit again.
"I don't know. I'm not him." My angel said coldly.
I couldn't help to smile. Even in his fragile state, he still has the cool and tough attitude in him.
"You such a handsome young man, Mr. Ishida. I bet your girlfriend really worry about what happen to you."
"I don't have a girlfriend," Yama-chan said. He seems to think what that attorney's planning for.
"Really? Maybe your boyfriend then." My angel looks so shocked.
"Objection! The witness' sexuality doesn't have anything to do with this case!" the DA stood with furious.
"Oh, but it is, Your Honor. If you just let me finish my questions."
"Objections overrule. You may continue with your questions, Mr. Tanaka. But I remind you to direct it quickly."
"Thank you, Your Honor. Mr. Ishida, you didn't answer my question"
"I don't have a boyfriend with the meaning as you said." He answered it coldly but his voice just a little tremble.
"Isn't it not common for a handsome young man in your ages for not have a lover? I checked that you never date or build any love relationship with others."
"Mr. Tanaka, please ask your questions more directly," the judge warned him.
"Mr. Ishida, are you a gay?"
"Objections! The question doesn't have any connection with this case!"
"Your Honor, my client told me that he and the witness had a relationship for years. The witness just too afraid if that relationship would ruin his image. So he tried to kill my client to erase evident. My client acted was a pure self defense."
"Wh… what?" My angel seems to pass out because of his emotion.
"The witness was the one that got stab. Any normal people wouldn't think that he would try something against a man who almost two size of his! Beside we have a lot of witness that could proof that the letters are real. And a lot of evident that dependant killed Ozaki Toru and tried to kill the witness!"
"Your Honor…"
"Enough, Mr. Tanaka. Unless you could give us a verbal evident that what you said was true, I suggest you to quit this subject."
The attorney's face just becomes redder. "No, Your Honor. I don't have any verbal evident."
"Then please the jurors to ignore the questions."
"I don't know."
All the attention in the room just grows to my angel.
"Mr. Ishida, you don't have to answer the question." The DA immediately warns him. But Yama-chan seems didn't hear it.
"I don't know if I'm a gay or not. I just never thought about it. After my parent divorce, it's just so hard for me to believe in love. How could I believe there is an everlasting love if I couldn't see it? It took me years for finally except others as my friends. But that's all the love I could offer them. Just friendship's love. I think I would be able to love someone in that kind of love if I have time by my side."
He paused for a moment. He took a deep breath before finally continue with his words. "I never have anything against gays people. But what he did made me afraid to think about Homo relationship. So right know, I really couldn't answer that question."
I could see everyone's sympathy grows to him.
"I know you wouldn't believe me, Mr. Tanaka. And I don't have anything to proof what I have said. I never thought I would say this… but you just made me feel worse for being safe. At least if I die, I wouldn't have to proof you anything, would I?"
The attorney suddenly speechless. He tried to say something but he fail. Finally he managed himself to say that he didn't have anything to say.
Yamato
It's finally over. I'm glad it's over. I don't think I could handle this any longer.
"You could back to your sit, Mr. Ishida." The judge said kindly.
I get up. To my surprise, my legs just disobey me. So I fall back to the chair. The judge asked me if I was all right. I couldn't answer that question. I was too ashamed for showing my weakness in front of the people. Great, Ishida. Just show how a freak you are in front of the strangers!
I tried to get up again when suddenly I could feel two people support me in the left and the right. I looked up and saw Taichi and Takeru. The judge didn't say anything about their acted that disturb the court and just simply nodded. So they just gently lead me back to the others. I just put my head down, too ashamed to see others reaction.
Taichi
He so tensed up. I want to tell him to ignore everything. Don't think what others would think. He always likes that. He always cares what others would think about him. I squeeze his hand gently to relax him. He looked at me and he tried to smile weakly. But I could feel his body loosen up.
I really proud of him. All of us thought that he could never pass this one. That he would be breakdown when that damns lawyer pressed him. But he didn't. He showed us hid dignity. He always is a fighter. I guess we from all of these people must known it already but we just forgot because from all that has happened in the past months.
I don't pay any attention to what happen in the court next. All my attention is my angel. After hearing the final statement from the DA and Sawai's attorney, the jurors leave the room. It's only take thirty minutes before the jurors make their decision. It's a good sign, is it? I beginning to feel worry.
"Have the jurors make their decision yet?" asked the judge.
"We have, Your Honor."
The judge read the paper and gives it back to the chief of jurors.
"For the trial of first degree murder Ozaki Toru, we found defendant guilty. For the trial to abuse and kill Ishida Yamato, we found defendant guilty."
I couldn't help my happiness when I hear that Sawai must spend the rest of his life in jail. We all just talking happily that the bastard got what he deserve when suddenly there's a riot.
Yamato
I didn't really know what happen. All I know is suddenly there's a riot. And the next thing I know someone grasped me so tight and made it hard for me to breathe. Then I saw Taichi lied in the floor with a pain in his face. He looks at me with fear and anger. All the officers point their guns on us and yell something like surrender.
Then I heard his laugh. I could never forget his evil laugh. And I found myself froze when I realize I am under his mercy once again. I could hear all the yelling. Sawai's attorney who yelled that it was his knife. His mail's knife. The DA yelled at him about how stupid for him to bring a sharp object in the room. And Sawai's attorney that yelled back about how could he know Sawai would found it and use it.
"So finally we together again. Even in your wildest dreams you never think something like this would happen, wouldn't you?" He said teasingly.
I couldn't stop my body to shaking. I feel tears try to fall from my eyes. I try my best to hold them. I don't want him to know the fear inside me. Well, it would works if my body could stop shaking violently.
"Release him, Sawai. You only put yourself in a more deep trouble," Taichi scold at him with hatred.
"If I can't have him then no one can!"
Then I could feel his tongue lick my ear. And he sucks it. I feel my strength left me. My legs just couldn't support my body anymore. The only reason I didn't fall is his hand, which holds the knife, that blocked my way to the floor. I could feel his other hand touch me in the private area and then began to squeeze it. I couldn't help to squeak and began to sob. I feel like I would be pass out any time.
I could hear Taichi growl in anger and frustration. Then I feel the squeeze stop. And then he tries to pull down my pant. It's just too much for me. I prefer to die than being humiliated in front of these people! I try to struggle but he just too strong for me. Back then, he was stronger. And now my condition just weaker than before. The only result I got is he pressed the knife deepen to my neck and blood begins to flow.
"Yama, please calm down."
I could hear the fear in Taichi's voice. Fear for me. But I just couldn't let Sawai rape me in front of the people. If I think calmly, I would know that if Sawai try it then his guard would be down. And I would be safe before he could finish what he desires. But I just couldn't let him do that to me. I got enough humiliation and fear from him already. I just couldn't let him continue.
But then from the corner of my eyes I saw him. That officer is different from others. Others just hold their guns with both hands. He seems like does that but one of his hands didn't hold his gun. His pointed three fingers. When he realize I notice him, he nodded. His fingers just went from three to two and then one. After that, he put his head down.
I puzzled. But then I realize what he tried to tell me. He saw that and he smile to reassure me. I try not to make Sawai curious. I hardly feel his other hand that tries to pull my pant down again. From the corner of my eyes I saw he count silently. One. Two. Three! And I move my head down to my chest so quickly as my life depend on it.
Taichi
There's a loud explotion. The next thing I saw was my angel's golden hair cover with blood. And then his body and Sawai just fall lifeless. I scream with terror as I rush to my fallen angel. I hold his body desperately.
"Yama! Please, Yama! Open your eyes! Doctor! Call the doctor, dammit!"
And then I feel someone kneel beside me and check at my angel.
"Don't worry, Taichi. He just unconscious. But we need to treat the cut in his neck quickly." Jyou's voice came to reassure me.
"But…but… The blood in his head…"
"It's that man's blood. Someone shoot his head just a second after Yamato put his head down."
Jyou's words snapped me back to reality. I immediately look for Sawai. I need to be sure that it's finally over. And yes it is. I saw him lying lifeless in the floor. His eyes just open so wide and his mouth opened with disbelief. That's a hole in the middle of his forehead. This time I really believe everything would be just fine.
We took Yama-chan to rest room where the doctor could examine him carefully. The doctor said he would be all right. He just too shaken with all that has happened. He will need a lot of rest and of course we must avoid all the things that can depress him. But outside of those, he would be fine.
Just after the doctor left the room, I heard my angel screaming in fear. I rush to his side and hold him tight to comfort him.
Yamato
My fear just climax when I feel somebody hold my body so tight. But then I hear Taichi's voice tries to reassure me. As soon as I know it was him, my body just loosen it's tensed. And I began to sob. He whispers soothing words. I couldn't help to get angry to myself to breakdown right this. But it's really feel so nice to be in his embrace.
There's a knock in the door. I quickly pull myself from his embrace and wipe my tears. I could see him disappointed from my reaction but he smiles to me to show me it's all right for him. And then an officer came. I recognized him already as the man that safe my life. He is a fine looking man in his mid twenty.
"I see you already awake. So how are you?"
"Fi…Fine, I guess. Mm, officer, thank you. Thank you so much."
"Yes, we really grateful for what have you done for him," said Taichi as he finally realize who is that man.
"Don't be. I didn't do it for you only, Yamato. I have unfinished business with him too. And from the look in your eyes, I knew you already decided to die than let him got what he wanted. So I have to move. For you, and for Ritsuko."
"You… You know Ritsuko?" My eyes suddenly wide with surprise. "But… But how…?" Suddenly it hit me.
"Ritsuko said his fiancee was a police officer. It was you?"
Taichi looked at me and to that man. He looks so confused.
"Who is Ritsuko?"
"His manager before Sawai's hurt her. I won't lie that I was mad at you before, Yamato. The woman I love must spend the rest of her life with a stick. And what for? Just because some crazies fan of a rock star that I never know. But she never shows her regret. And then I knew why. You show us that you care. That you consider her as your friend. You show me that you are worthy to be depend for."
I just speechless. The thing I regret most from all that happens are what happened to Ritsuko and Ozaki. I couldn't stop the feeling that it was all my fault. I the one who made that happen. That it's should been me. But now he told me all these! I couldn't stop the tears falling down my face.
"Don't blame yourself for what happen. Don't you think you too hard to yourself? I know Ritsuko doesn't want you to feel that way. None of those are your fault. It was his fault. But now he already dead. You could carry on with your life. That's all I want to say. I must go now. Get well soon, will you?"
And with that he just leave the room.
Taichi
It has been three weeks now. Yama-chan refuses to meet anyone. Not me, and not the others digidestined. I feel so depress. I miss him so much. I want to be near him, to support him or just company him. But he refused. The only news about him I got from Takeru. And it's seemed not only me that miss him.
His fans wrote a lot of letters. Asked him if he all right. When will he return to the show business. Many mass media talk about him lately. About how much his fans miss him. How they waiting for him to return. Some of the reporters even said that my angel become phenomena now. And a lot of people couldn't wait to see him recover.
A phone distracts my day dreaming. Without any enthusiasm, I pick up the phone.
"Yagami's resident."
"Taichi, Onnichan is missing," Takeru's voice is full of depress.
"What? How could it happen?"
"We don't know! He hardly left his room. But this morning when I wake up, he already gone. One of the neighborhood saw him left about 7 A.M. He left a note that he was going to your place."
My brain just couldn't think anything. It's almost 11 A.M now. My house isn't that far! Why didn't he arrive already? And why did he want to go to my house? He avoided me lately. I don't think he would ever want anything to do with me again.
"I'll find him, Takeru. And you must search around your area too. Keep tell me the news, okay?" Without waiting for his comment I put down the phone.
I immediately write a note to tell my family about it. I rush to the door only to find my angel stood behind it. He is shaking slightly and looks a little pale.
"Yama-chan! You're all right!" I hold him so tight until finally I realize what have I done. I quickly release my embrace and murmured. "Sorry."
But then I saw him smiles softly. He didn't seem disturb by what I've done.
"May I come in?"
"Of course." I replied. My cheeks just turn crimson for my stupidity. After I closed the door, I couldn't help to look at him with curiosity.
"Where has you been? Takeru told me that you left the house about 7 A.M. That's hours ago."
"I already left the note that I would go to your house."
"My house isn't that far away from yours!"
He looks ashamed to himself. And his face turns to crimson when he continued his words. "I… I couldn't decide what road should I take. The usual one always been a busy street. And I'm not sure I am ready to face the people. Well. I could if they would abandon me. But how about if there's people who know me? Or I should take a quiet shortcut. But if something happen I would be helpless. So…"
He just couldn't finish it. I feel so sorry for him. It's must be took all his might to finally arrive here.
"May I have a glass of water, please?" He asked softly.
I nodded and went to bring him the water. Then I remember Takeru.
"Here you go. Please wait. I must call Takeru so he could stop worry about you."
There's nobody answers my call. I guess they all still searching for Yama-chan. So I just left the message. When I return to my angel, I saw him holding the glass with both hands which still shaking slightly. The water only been drinking a little. But then I remember. I gasped.
"Yama-chan, you're… drinking! How…How could… Are you all right now?"
"Well, yes and no."
"Why the 'no' part?"
"I mean I still not fully recover. I just try to be better step by step. And I really try so hard because I have my reason."
"What is your reason?" He looked uncomfortable because of my question. So I quickly said, "You don't have to answer that if you don't want to."
"I do."
So I wait for his explanation. But his mouth was still locked. I saw his fingers hold the glass very tight for comfort. I thought he would never open his mouth. But then the words that he said were not what I expected.
"Taichi, you said before that you loved me. That you loved me for years now. Do you really mean that?"
"Yes. I mean that. I love you so much. But why do you asking me this now?"
He took a deep breath. And then he looks at me with sincerity.
"I didn't lie in the court. I didn't know if I was a gay or not. After the court, I didn't want to see anyone. I needed time to think. And one thing I know for sure is I really miss you. I miss you so much. I remember all the things we've done together. All the time we've spent together. And then I realize. Outside of my family and Gabumon, you mean more to me than anyone in my life."
My heart is beating so fast. Is he really saying what I think he say it? That's he loves me too? I look straight to his eyes with a hope to see any clue in there.
"What I'm trying to say is… I guess I love you too. I just didn't realize it. I'm sorry I hurt you before. It's just… it's all too sudden for me. And because what Sawai did, I… I really…"
He just couldn't finish what he said. He just stares to the floor. He took my silence as a rejection. He looks so fragile, made me want to protect him so much. And then I just follow my heart. I hold him so tight. His body tenses because of my sudden movement. But then he relaxes. I lift his face up and then kiss him gently.
He didn't respond to my kiss but he didn't refuse it too. So I deepen my kiss. And then I knew something is wrong. I mean, he didn't do or say anything to stop me but I could feel his body shaking slightly.
Yamato
He releases his embrace. I just couldn't look at his face. I guess he is mad at me. And he has a right for that. I told him that I love him but my act didn't show it. He kissed me with all his love… and then I just chicken up?
"You really didn't lie in the court, did you? Homo relationship really scare you now." There's no anger in his voice.
I still couldn't stop staring at the floor. And then he holds me so tight.
"It's all right, Angel. You don't have to do anything that you don't prepare yet. I'll wait. I'll wait for you forever."
"But… but it's not fair for you," I sobbed. "I'm so sorry, Taichi. I really love you. It's just… I just…"
"You need time. And that's what you will get. And a lot of understanding and support too."
I look at his eyes. And I know he really means it. I could feel love and understanding radiant from his eyes. And it's just making my tears fall more torrents. I don't deserve him. He just too kind for a person likes me.
"Please at least let me explain. I do love you. It's just I need time to forget all the terrible things that happen. It's not that I didn't try. I try really. I came here, didn't I? And I could drink even a little bit. It's you. You're the reason for me to not give up. And I just know that I would finally pass all these if you would stand by my side."
I look at him, still crying. He just smiles softly. He moves his hands to wipe my tears. His kindness gives me the courage to continue. I guess that's why he became the bearer of courage in the first place.
"What you offered to me just too much for me to accept. I can't ask you to wait for me. Because I myself don't know how long it takes for me to finally move on. It's just not fair for you to wait in unsure. I'm not worthy enough for you to do it. I couldn't make love with you or kiss you or do any other things that lovers do. It's just…"
Taichi
That's all he could say before I kiss him again lightly to stop his words.
"Please don't say that, Angel. You're worthy! God, you don't know how much you mean for me. I love you. I love the really you. Not just your body. If we could never kiss or make love, I can accept that. Not that I don't want it. But what I really want is you. So just like what I have said, I will wait for you. I wait for you then, I wait for you now, and I wait for you forever."
His eyes just glisten with tears. I kiss his left eye and then the other gently.
"One thing you must sure, you would never lost me for anything. I love you too much. I waited so long before I finally have you. So I would treasure you more than anything in the world."
And then he hugged me. He hugged me so tight and sobbed. And he murmured thank you over and over again. I smile happily. And then I remember all things with his fans and news.
Yamato
"Angel, can I ask you something?"
He seems so use to call me angel. It's embarrassing me. I'm not an angel. Not even close! But I would lie if I say I don't like it. Its make me feel so loved, so wanted. And yet I feel not worthy for it.
"Don't call me that. I'm not an angel."
"But you are, for me. So can I ask?"
I just nod, a little worry about what would he ask.
"Your fans ask for you're come back. What would you do about it?"
I just speechless. I never suspect him to ask me that.
"You don't have to answer that if you don't want to."
"No, not like that. It's just I don't know. Just… We do it step by step, okay?" I look at him and pleaded.
He smiles gently to relax me.
"Okay. Just remember I will support whatever you will decide."
I smile and hug him. He hugs me back so tight. I close my eyes. And for the first time after all that incident I feel so safe and secure.
The End
God, finally! It's finish! Sorry it took me so long to finally finish it. Thank you for all of you that have been so patient for me. Especially thank you for Kae Ti who introduces me to FFNet. I finally finish my fic. I'll wait for the last two chapters of A Love Born of Hate. ^_^
My already write my second fic, A Long Road to Journey. Its still Yamachi/Taito but Matt would be the main focus on it. I hope you will R&R too…