Hi there. Well this is my first song-fic.
Warning: Angst, tragedy and mild shonen-ai
Disclaimer: I do not own Beyblade, nor do I own the lyrics to the song 'Hurt' By Christina Aguilera
Enjoy!
Hurt
The screech of a car then the sickening grinding of metal on metal rose up into the air, the nauseating scent of blood following soon after.
Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face
Kai clutched a pillow close to his chest tightly, tears trailing down his cheeks sluggishly, his shoulders heaving with sobs, as he stared blankly at the large picture hung up on his wall, his heart breaking even more as the seconds ticked away.
Flashback
You told me how proud you were…
"Well done, baby. You did well," a silky voice whispered in his ear, arms coming up to wrap around his waist from behind, but he pushed away, scowling
…but I walked away
"Not now, Tala. I have autographs to sign," with a shake of his head, Kai stalked off, oblivious to the flash of hurt in serene blue eyes.
End Flashback
If only I knew what I knew today
Ohh ohh
Falling into a fitful sleep, Kai clutched brokenly at the pillow in his arms, the fallen tears drying on his cheeks and becoming nothing but a mere memory.
I would hold you in my armsImages of Tala flashed up in his mind, as he desperately reached out to grasp one of them, only to have it slowly move away from his touch and dissolve in to thin air. He collapsed on the floor of his mind, heart-wrenching cries filling the dark air.
I would take the pain awayThank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
Tala's figure suddenly materialized and bent down, scooping Kai's broken form in to his arms lovingly. Kai stared up in shock, a hand rising and gently brushing the smooth skin of Tala's cheek before he wrapped them tightly around the older teen's neck, whispering softly, "I'm sorry, Tala. I took you for granted. You've always been there for me. Helping me along the way, no matter what. Through all your faults, you were the only one who held me up."
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
All of a sudden, Kai found himself back on the floor, wrapped in the cold embrace of loneliness, and with desperation in his eyes, watched as Tala gently faded in to the background, his lips moving, yet no words sounded through the black abyss that surrounded Kai.
Sometimes I want to call you"Tala!" Kai scrambled up, chest heaving, "Come back!"
But Tala had gone and Kai was left fighting with smoky tendrils, rising up from the ground and wrapping themselves around Kai's body.
But I know you won't be thereOhh I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
Flashback
Kai growled and grasped the nearest object, which happened to be a paper weight, then chucking it at the opposite wall, watching as it shattered and dropped to the ground in the form of crystal tears.
"Kai?" a concerned voice echoed through the room and Kai turned to face Tala, who was leaning coolly against the doorframe.
"Go away, Tala! It's your fault! If only you had of gone away last week instead of this week, I would've finished composing my lyrics," Kai hissed, fists clenching together tightly.
Tala frowned, "Kai, my going away or being here does nothing to your inspiration," Tala turned to walk out of the door, throwing back a quiet, "I though I was your inspiration."
End Flashback
I hurt myself by hurting you
Kai woke up with a gasp, the memories playing around his head mockingly, torturing him.
Sometimes I feel broke inside but I won't admit"Hey Kai…are you okay?"
Kai scowled but nodded his head, hiding his grief in the presence of even his closest friends. He had ventured out of the house; unable to take the memories that kept resurfacing every second he was in it.
Sometimes I just wanna hide 'cause it's you I missWalking aimlessly through the park, Kai came to rest underneath a large willow tree, obscuring him from the outside world.
And it's so hard to say goodbyeWhen it comes to this, ohh
Drawing his knees close to his chest, Kai wrapped his arms around them, resting his cheek on them, tears once more running track down his cheeks.
Would you tell me I was wrong?Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?
Kai raised red-rimmed eyes to the sky above, the gorgeous clear blue sky mocking his grief.
There's nothing I wouldn't doTo have just one more chance
To look into your eyes
And see you looking back
Kai closed his eyes, his heart clenching painfully. Blue eyes stared at him in the depths of his mind and he could do nothing but stare back, his throat constricting with emotions.
"Tala…"
But when he opened his eyes, they were gone, now only a figment of his memories and imagination.
Ohh I'm sorry for blaming youFor everything I just couldn't do
And I hurt myself ohh
Kai stared bleakly down at the coffin, drained of all emotions over the last few days, leaving him an empty shell of the person he had been.
If I had just one more dayI would tell you how much that I've missed you
Since you've been away
Ooh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line
To try and turn back time
Kai watched as the coffin was slowly, gently lowered down in to the hole in the ground. His barriers finally breaking when the first handful of soil splayed across the pristine white and blue of the coffin, shoulders shaking and sobs erupting pitifully from his throat.
I'm sorry for blaming youFor everything I just couldn't do
Kai's legs gave way from underneath him and he clutched desperately at the headstone, fingering the smooth engravings.
Tala Ivanov
Loving, supportive boyfriend and friend
January 2 1989 – February 20 2007
May your soul rest in peace
And I've hurt myself by hurting you…
-sniff- Wow...I absolutely love this song...though simple...it holds alot of emotion for me. Anyway, what did you think.
Please review and tell me your views on this songfic...it would be very much appreciated and will help me improve my work, a short paragraph, maybe even a sentence, a word or even a letter!
Take care all
Ja ne