Hey I bet A LOT OF YOU HATED me for that last cliffhanger so NO MORE! Because I have experienced a cliffhanger and it almost killed me…so…

ON TO THE STORY:

Last Time:

Edward's POV

The day of the funeral was hard for me. The weather was perfect, grey and raining. More like pouring, everyone had umbrellas except for me, I felt no need for it, and it was symbolic to me, because, while I could not cry, the rain down my face could for me. I stayed at the sight until they lowered her to the ground. Renee had come over to me and had given me a hug. She told me that Bella loved me a lot. She handed me her diary, she told me to look at it, and that it belonged to me. I thanked her, she left me in the rain watching as Bella's casket was lowered to the earth.

And here I was sitting on the hill watching the sunrise. I had her diary next to me. I had read it cover to cover. I found some things out about me and about her. Every little thing I did reminded me of her…I now had no purpose on this earth.

I stayed on the hill till I watched the sun set. I thought of all the moments we had shared together and the ones we could have shared. I would miss the slight blush of her cheeks, the warmth of her breath, and the salty tears that ran down her face as I cradled hers.

NOW:

Edward's POV

I breathed out a held breath for what seemed like hours. I could see my breath in the cool night as I inhaled. Exhale, inhale, which was all I seemed to be doing lately. Breathing, an unnecessary thing for us vampires, our cursed existence forever dammed. I heard someone walk behind me and place a comforting hand on my shoulder. But I shrugged it off; I didn't feel like acknowledging anyone right now.

"Please leave me alone, I just want to be left alone." I said quietly without turning around.

"You just came back from her funeral; you need to be with someone…" They said as they sat down.

"Just because she isn't living doesn't mean you have to stop too." They said as the hugged me.

"I was never alive to begin with, and dammitt Bella, you aren't alive either!" I screamed as I turned to her.

Her tawny eyes stared back at me with calm and a heartrending smile. Her long auburn hair was down framing her striking heart shaped face. Her skin was unblemished and perfect. She was beautiful and ethereal.

"Edward…do not blame yourself for what happened to me. You did everything you could, you did nothing wrong." She said as she lay down with her head on my lap as I stroked her cheek.

"I remember I did this before when you were dying…" I said as I trailed off into the memories.

BACK WHEN BELLA WAS ATTACKED:

(A flashback to the attack)

"Edward, you have to save her. "He told me

"How? I said starring at my love.

"Suck the venom out." He said stitching up one of the many wounds.

"But, I can't. I don't think I could…stop myself." I said ashamed.

"Then we watch the transformation." He said softly as he held gauze to her many wounds.

"NO, I can't do that, I…couldn't handle that, and I don't want that for her." I said as I stroked her cheek as she tossed and turned in writhing pain.

"I looked down at her convulsing form and held back a sob as she held my hand and mouthed words of pain. I could feel myself thinking that if I waited any longer, she would never be the blushing Bella I know now, but the one question would be could I restrain myself.

"I…think I can do it." I said as I lifted her hand. I first kissed it, thinking it might ease some pain, but I was answered with a cry of pain as molten lava flowed through her arms.

I brought my lips to her hand, and I sucked the blood from my loves hand. Her blood was just as amazing as it smelled, it was sweet, yet tangy, and it was one of a kind. I felt the feeling of blood lust in my body and the tug from Alice as I pulled back. I licked the blood up and separated myself from her just to allow myself time to compose myself.

"Was it enough?" I said as my black eyes glanced at her unmoving form...

"I don't know yet." Carlisle said as he checked her body status.

Bella was unmoving her hand limply hanging there as I held it. Her eyes were blank as if she was seeing something we were not. Her face was sliced and bandages were on her face. Her arm and leg in a makeshift brace to support the broken bones. Her red mouth was slightly open letting small gasps letting me know at least she was breathing. Carlisle was checking her pulse when suddenly he gasped and began pumping her chest as he began the CPR.

"WHAT HAPPENED? WHAT ARE YOU DOING?" I asked as I watched her body in the hands of Carlisle. He removed his hands and I saw her unmoving chest and no gasping breaths from her lips. My eyes widened and held her hand tighter.

I heard Alice hold a sob in and then scream, I looked back and saw a glazed look on her face and realized she was having a vision. She snapped out of it and she looked at the lifeless body of Bella and hugged her and whispered words I never wanted directed toward my Bella. I searched into Alice's mind and saw her vision, and I sat back, unbelieving the vision she had….my Bella. My Bella….she was so badly hurt, and I was so late to arrive…if only.

(THIS IS WHAT I DIDN'T SHOW BUT HAPPENED THAT DAY)

Edward's POV

I saw that she still wasn't breathing, so I took over Carlisle's job and continued to perform CPR. I must have done it for it seemed like twenty minuets. I felt Jasper pull me back and try to tell me that she was gone, but I didn't want to accept the fact. I kept pumping her chest and blowing in her mouth. I heard the distant cries of Alice as she sobbed into the arms of Jasper. I again felt another arm pull me back this time more forceful as I resisted and continued my futile attempt. Emmett then with both arms pulled me back. I snarled a feral growl and fought against him. He struggled and it soon involved Jasper, Carlisle, and Emmett to tear me away from trying to resistant Bella, but they knew she was gone, but I would not accept it.

"NO, SHE IS NOT GONE! LET GO OF ME! I'M TRYING TO HELP HER!" I screamed.

Carlisle held me back with a strong hug as I tried to push past him, but it seemed my strength was failing, I fell to the floor with my eyes wide and gasping for breaths. I growled a painful snarl and punched a hole into the wood floors sending splinters everywhere.

I felt Alice get down on the floor to and hugged me close as I called out her name over and over again.

She was dead, and I didn't even save her this time, when I could have. I wanted to die right there and then. Let the earth swallow me up whole and die.

END FLASHBACK:

With Edward

I was still sitting there with my imaginary Bella in my lap as I sat there in the field. I truly felt someone come up behind me standing above me.

"It's time to go." Jasper said softly.

We were moving again away from Forks…it was just too painful for all of us.

"Bella will always be with you Edward." He said as he crouched down.

"I know…I'll see her around sometime." I whispered as I got up. I looked up once more at the heavens and all the blazing stars in the endless pool of black.

"She's always watching you Edward, just as you were her angel, she is yours." Jasper confirmed as he hugged his brother.

"I hope so." I whispered into the field.

"Jasper, I'll be there in a second, just give me a moment." I asked as he started to walk away.

"Okay, see you." He said as he turned around and disappeared.

I felt the cool breeze on my skin. I heard the faintest sound, as if someone was talking.

"Forever with you my angel…"

"I know Bella…I know." I breathed as I walked away from the field with so many memories.

I hoped you all enjoyed it. I re-touched somethings because I had a reader complain about my writing so I am in the process of editing the story.