Thursday, September 9, guest bathroom at Grandmère's

I am going to kill Grandmère. I mean it this time, too. When I did the interview, I hated no idea they were TAPING IT! And now it's all over TV that the interview is going to come on tomorrow night! What if Michael sees it?!

Wait. Do I want him to see me saying that I still love him and that I am sorry? Because I'm sure that I did, even if it emotionally scarred me and my subconscious mind is trying to repress what happened.

I just want him to forgive me.

Anyway, I KNOW Grandmère did this on purpose. She probably wants me to realize I need to get over Michael. But that plan would only work if Michael does watch it.

Urgh. Grandmère is calling for me now.