Error 404: Crazy

By Candied

Disclaimer: I went to Agrabah and found the magic lamp, and asked Genie for the rights to Kingdom Hearts. He heart me wrong, and now I am the rightful owner of some pretty-looking socks.

Summary: The Prequel to the highly acclaimed S!CK. It starts where Hayner met Axel and goes all the way to Axel's version of meeting Roxas. The thoughts and actions of the two before Hayner dies, and Axel's coping with his death. I'm so bad at summaries...

Warnings: Yaoi and het pairings, coarse language, death, and perhaps some tissue-needing moments. You guys asked for it, and here it is.

Author's note: Man, work is driving me insane! You wouldn't believe how little I actually make! + Anyways, here ya go with chapter three of Error 404. I hope you all enjoy it as much as I enjoyed writing it! Chapter four will be up in the near future, 'cause I'm trying to complete this one quickly so I can get on with what will be the glory of the prequel. It will be entitled D3RANGED So look forward to it coming out quickly! Enjoy this slightly short and a tad bit depressing chapter!

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Chapter two/End Script

I hate being nineteen. No, seriously, everything was so much easier when I was like... three. I woke up, watched cartoons, played, ate, and took my afternoon nap without a care in the world. Now, however, I had a job and a flat to pay for, not to mention the affairs of the heart that come with age.

Not my own heart, naturally, as I liked to keep that dumb old thing as far away from my daily life as possible. The heart in question is Hayner's.

I liked Hayner. I really, really, liked Hayner. He was funny, tempermental (which is also funny), wild, and nearly as insane as I am. However, said boy was terribly in love with me, and I still could not return the feeling.

Even after everything we'd gone through together- me beating up his dad, nearly setting fire to his kitchen a few times, and having various innocent arguments that I had caused, and him with his wild antics and showing up on my doorstep at all and any hour... I still could not love him.

And it hurts me to say so. He was amazing, everything anyone could ever ask for in a signifigant other, but somehow, I still knew he wasn't right for me. We'd been together for just over three months now, and it was killing me.

Every time he told me he loved me, every time he would say that he cared... I could never say it back. He told me that he didn't mind it, but I still did. I felt like I was living a lie, leading him on with hopes of something I could never give him- my heart.

In fact, I was beginning to wonder if I would ever be able to give anyone my heart. If not Hayner, than who? Who else deserved my heart of hearts? Why could he give my heart and I not give anything in return?

My thoughts were interrupted as he strode back into the livingroom, a carton of cookie dough ice cream (my favorite) in hand. "Are you ready for the movie?"

I sighed, patting the couch next to me and took a drag off my cigarette. I would have to tell him eventually, right? Sooner is better than later, I guess...

He raised one golden eyebrow before he plopped down next to me. "You look weird. What's up?"

I leaned back into the plush of the couch, staring at the ceiling. "Hayner... I..." Damn... How do you let down someone you actually care about, when you know you're going to hurt their feelings? "I guess what I want to say is--"

Ding dong!

Both my and Hayner's heads turned to the door where the obvious visitor would be waiting on the other side. He looked at me with wide eyes, and I shrugged. How the hell was I supposed to know who was there, anyway?

We both stood, and walked to the kitchen, Hayner striding over to the door. He peered through the little hole, and turned to me with a face stricken with horror. "Quick, it's Roxas!"

Well, my little break-up speach would have to wait until later, for now I would have to leave. I made my way to the window that would lead me to the fire escape, and heard the door creak open.

FUCK. I opened the window, and slid out.

"Who was that?" I heard a voice say.

"No one!" replied Hayner.

I moved quickly down, determined and on my way home.

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"Seriously, who was that guy?"

I shook my head, laughing nervously. "I... uh... That guy is... er..."

He raised an eyebrow, crossing his arms. "Are you selling drugs or something?"

What? Yes! Thank you, Roxas!!!

"Yes... but I'm going to stop. I didn't tell you, because I didn't want to worry you."

He sighed, and slumped into a seat beside me. "You are seriously strange, you know that? If anyone finds out-"

"They won't," I interrupted, "That was the last of the stuff. From now on, I'm good old Hayner."

When Roxas left that night, we were both full of ice cream, and far beyond giggly. Remembering my boyfriend, though, I picked up the phone and dialed his number as soon as the blonde was out my door.

"Axel," he said when he picked up.

"Hey, it's Hayner. What did you want to talk about earlier?"

A long sigh, and the sound of shuffling blankets. Oh... it was kind of late.

"Look, Hayner... I really like you. You mean a lot to me, and I love hanging out with you," I felt my heart sink, "It's just... The way I care for you isn't how a person cares for their boyfriend."

"Like brothers?" I asked, choking on the ball that had formed in my throat. So, this was the end of us, huh?

"Kind of, but even more than that. Look, I still want to be friends with you and everything, so don't get the wrong idea. I know how cliche it is, but I really mean it."

A tear rolled down my cheek, but I was smiling. Never, ever going to get me down. "If that's how you feel..."

"I'm really sorry."

"It's ok."

There was silence for a moment, and I was wiping off the tears that came, trying to find my voice. "Axel, can you promise me something?"

"Yeah, sure. What is it?"

"If anything ever happens to me... I want you to take care of Roxas. He's... really a strong person, but sometimes he just needs someone to show him the way, y'know? If a time ever comes where I won't be there to do that for him, I want you to take my place."

"I will, I promise."

"Thank you."

I couldn't take it anymore, and I gently placed the phone down. I would not sob for him, I knew all too well that this day would come. I loved Axel, I loved him more than anything, but I knew that he was no more mine than anyone else's. I didn't know who his heart really belonged to, but I knew they were lucky.

I slumped into one of the chairs of the kitchen table and sighed, wiping the warm tears from my cheek, and staring at the ceiling. I didn't regret any of it, not even a little. The time I had with Axel was precious to me, even if it was over. I felt a part of me die in that moment, a part I was sure would never return.

So many pieces of me had been broken throughout my life; when my mother died, when my dad became an abusive drunkard, and now, when the love of my life told me it was over. Maybe it was silly teenage angst that lead me to my decision, or maybe I was actually right. Whatever the case, I knew then that life for me was over, whether I had a say in it or not.

Don't get me wrong, I wasn't going to go into the bathroom and slit my wrists like a blubbering idiot. I'm not that stupid. This was not insanity, this was not mere self-pity... I wanted to be happy, and I wanted to be free.

Free. Freedom, yes. This world was not the one I wanted to be in anymore, I wanted to go to the other side, experience a new adventure.

My next adventure would be the after life... but not just yet. I wanted to go out of this world with a happy farewell to my best friend there by my side, not in death, of course, but I wanted him to be there when my life came to an end. He was the one person who stood behind me in every decision I made, and was always there to remind me how wonderful life could be.

My time on this plane is over, now. Tomorrow, I will be saying goodbye to my best friend, and I will start a new journey. Axel would be there to help him- he'd promised, so I knew I wouldn't have to worry about Roxas. He was so strong, no matter what life threw his way. I wish I could have been more like him, but this was me, this was just the way I was.

My mind was made up, tomorrow, after school, I was going to commit suicide with Roxas by my side. He would see me through to the end, and though I knew it would hurt him, I also knew that he would want to be with me in my last moments. Roxas was just a good soul like that.

Maybe he'll think of me fondly, and he'll see me in his dreams.

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Author's note: Yes, Chapter four will be from the perspectives of Hayner and Axel again, with their POV's of what Roxas talked about in the first chapters of S!CK. Anyways, If any of you can give me the direct quote from where I decided the names for Error 404: Crazy, S!CK, and D3RANGED, leave it to me in a review and I'll give you a one shot of your couple choice! But you only have until next chapter to figure it out!!! O.O Here's your hint- 'Error 404' is not in the actual quote, but 'crazy' is. The quote is in one of my stories.

Side note- Puh-LEASE review for Do Not Use While Sleeping or I shall not update it. I only have a few, and it makes me sad. .

Now review, or I'll put Axel in my dungeon and never let him go!