LONELY in GORGEOUS by Alyssa in Wonderland
III. Winter Solstice
She cried until she herself turned everything she felt for him into snow.
Tohru stepped into his old room and looked around. It was cold now that the snowstorm started. She began to fix his bed numbly, unable to stop the thoughts going through her head. Years…it was years. She cried over him for years. Finding out that Yuki loved Machi tore her apart.
"I do love Machi but I'm no sure if it's the same with Tohru."
Tohru pushed the bed sheet tightly under the futon. For some reason, during the four years she lived with the Sohmas, she fell for Yuki. He rescued her, comforted her, and made her feel like a true princess.
"Not his though…" She whispered to herself as she stopped fixing the bed. Tears suddenly escaped her eyes, "Ah?"
How is it possible that she still hurt?
Yuki looked at the spot Tohru had been in for some time. The only reason he was here was for her. Finally, he moved to head upstairs. Each step reminded him of the time he lived here with all of them. He smiled slowly at the times when Kyo and he would fight over trivial matters. However, it was always Tohru who would calm them. But…she didn't know then. Only he and Kyo knew the reason they continued to fight. Under every argument, every fight was the real reason—Tohru.
The door of his old room was open. Peering inside, he saw Tohru fixing his bed. Yuki leaned over the doorframe and took everything in.
His room was exactly the way he had left it. It felt nostalgic. Tohru turned around, "Ah, Yuki. I didn't see you there. Your room is ready." She said as she made her way out the room.
"Kagura called me to come back here…" Yuki started.
"So why are you leaving?" Hatsuharu asked him.
Yuki looked at him from across his room. His luggage on top of his bed as packed a few more things into it. "Study, get a job, get rich…the usual things that people go to America for." He said sarcastically.
His cousin smiled, "Sad excuse." He commented.
"Well, I didn't really ask you for your opinion." Yuki said.
"Looks like you're running away from a little problem here." Haru said as he lounged himself comfortably in Yuki's chair. "Just because you love Tohru."
Yuki stopped packing and threw a shirt at his cousin, "Idiot. It's not that, I just don't know what I see her as." He said.
"Kyo, you know, he knows how he feels about her with utmost certainty that I can't even top." Yuki continued. "I just need time away, to get my thoughts together." He finished as he began packing his clothes once again.
"Can't you do that without leaving the country?" Haru asked as he attempted to neatly fold the shirt that was thrown to him earlier.
"I can," Yuki answered, "But, I'm not brave enough to see watch her look at Kyo in that way."
Hatsuharu stopped and looked at his older cousin, "The way you look at Machi?"
"Machi?" Yuki asked.
"Yes, Machi."
"Machi…she—I just want to take care of her. She's a very good friend."
"I think she wants to be more than friends with you."
"Ridiculous."
"Ridiculous? What ridiculous is that maybe, Machi is like Kyo, and you're like Tohru. Get what I'm saying?"
Yuki paused, "I do love Machi but I'm not sure if it's the same with Tohru."
"At least you've got one thing down." Hatsuharu replied sadly. He had hoped that Yuki and Tohru would get together if it were possible. "Whatever makes you happy, Yuki. I'm there with ya." Haru said.
Tohru's surrounding was starting to suffocate her. Yuki was staring right into her soul it seemed and she couldn't take it.
"You're getting married, I heard." Yuki finished quietly.
Tohru looked at his saddened eyes. The silver haired man seemed grief stricken as he said it. What would he know? I told him before he left, I told him and he couldn't answer me. She thought to herself.
What would he know, she had thought, of being hurt?
…of being rejected?
"I do love Machi but I'm no sure if it's the same with Tohru."
His voice echoed in her mind and she looked up at him now and replied, "Yes, I'm getting married with Kyo."
Shigure Writes…
He stared at her in shock, unable to answer her as she ended her confession. He had no answer for her, but an apology for not knowing what to say as he turned around and walked away from her.
He wasn't brave enough to tell her the truth.
Author's Note: Alright, updated! It's been almost a year since I updated this. This was a little sad, yes? Hope you enjoyed!