this is my second songfic but my first slash. its about ponyboy realizing that he loves johnny after he dies. the song is The Scientist by Coldplay. enjoy & review.
Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry,
You don't know how lovely you are,
I had to find you, tell you I need ya,
And tell you I set you apart,
Tell me your secrets, and ask me your questions,
Oh lets go back to the start,
Running in circles, coming in tails,
Heads on a science apart,
Ponyboy's POV
Johnny, please wake up. Seeing you lay here is too much for me. Dally's gone. Because of you, he reached his breaking point. You're not the only thing I love so I guess I can take you dying and leaving me alone. I just wanna talk to ya again, Johnny. I'm praying that you sit up and smile at me. I imagine you and I in the church in Windrixville and how I could've told you how I felt. I need you to breathe. Please, come back. Let's go back to the beginning when we first met. Take away my broken heart, take away the pain and confusion I'm feeling.
Nobody said it was easy,
It's such a shame for us to part,
Nobody said it was easy,
No one ever said it would be this hard,
Oh take me back to the start
Ponyboy's POV
I alerted the nurses about you, Johnnycake. You just had to die didn't you? Even after I told you how much the gang needed you around, you still decided to die. This isn't easy, damnit. Seeing you being zipped up in a body bag is breaking my heart. This pain won't stop. Johnny, I'm sick of begging you. Go ahead lay there dead. Thinking of the past, when I fell in love with you the night you killed Bob and anything before that, is helping a little. Only a little. The start is better than the ending.
I was just guessing at numbers and figures,
Pulling the puzzles apart,
Questions of science, science and progress,
Do not speak as loud as my heart,
And tell me you love me, come back and haunt me,
Oh and I rush to the start,
Running in circles, chasing tails,
Coming back as we are
Ponyboy's POV
Oh, who the hell am I trying to kid? Inside I'm dying. Inside I've been dead since you passed away 5 minutes ago. I should've told you how I felt. Maybe you loved me. Did ya, Johnny? Come back to me. Appear in my dreams. Say those 3 little words to me, Johnny, so I can sleep easy tonight. Remember when you dyed my hair? My heart skipped a beat each time you rubbed up against my back. Oh, God! Calm down, Pony. Think of the past and all of the good times. Just let your mind wander to the beginning...when Johnny was your friend and nothing more.
Nobody said it was easy,
Oh it's such a shame for us to part,
Nobody said it was easy,
No one ever said it would be so hard,
I'm going back to the start
Ponyboy's POV
I'm leaving you. I'm running home to Darry, Soda, Two-Bit and Steve. They'd never leave me like you did, Johnny. They're loyal to me. Maybe I'm taking this so hard because I caused your death. If only I'd stayed in the car with you and Dally...if only the timber would've fallen on my back...if only I pushed you ahead of me when the roof was about to cave in. While I'm running to be with our gang, I won't think of you as burned, cold, dead and pale. No, you'll be alive. In Windrixville with me in that church. I'll stay gold till the day I die. You'll be with me forever, Johnny Cade. I love you.
if there are any errors of any kind, oh well.