A/N: well, i'm back! after a not so long hiatus. I've been working my ass off with this story. I have four chapters done already so if you guys actually like it then i won't make you wait for too long.
I think you guys might not like my version of Bella. But don't really care, because a girl is bound to become cynical and angry when the love of her life leaves. anyways, theres lots of language, so be warned!
disclaimer: don't own anything. not even the bands i mention. snaps fingers damn.
now! onto the show!
Seven months. That's how long it took me to finally realize that I shouldn't be so fucking depressed and sad about the situation he left me in. He wanted me to live, and that's exactly what I would start doing. He wasn't worth it if he didn't love me anymore. He would forever be carved into my mind, and he would only be a memory.
Jacob Black had become my best friend. And no matter what, he would stay that way. He was my savior, me safe harbor. My light at the end of the tunnel. I was glad to have him, and now I had Embry, Jared, Paul, Sam, and even Emily. I found it sort of ironic that I practically traded a family of vampires for a pack of werewolves. I didn't think they would be too happy about that, but they weren't here. They didn't matter anymore.
"Hey, Jake?" I asked, breaking the silence between us. We were sitting on a blanket, on a cliff that overlooked First Beach. If I wasn't mistaken, this was the same cliff that I had seen Sam and the others jump off a little while ago. It looked a little tempting, but I didn't want to worry Jake by spontaneously jumping off a cliff. He wouldn't appreciate that too much.
"Yeah, Bella?" Jacob turned to face me.
"Do you think I'm crazy?"
He frowned and looked confused. He blinked a couple of times before answering. "Well, if you want the truth, then yes. I do think you're crazy. But not in the way that you're talking about."
A smile played across my lips. "You mean I'm nuts for hanging out with a bunch of werewolves, and having a vengeful vampire stalking me?"
Jacob laughed and pulled me into a hug. "Exactly. You're so calm about everything, Bella. It worries me sometimes."
"But you don't think I'm crazy because I hear his voice in my head, then?" I asked.
"Of course not. It's your way of getting a little wish fulfillment," He said.
I frowned and shrugged. "I guess. When you start putting it that way, then maybe you're right."
Jacob laughed and shook his head. "I'm always right Bella. You should know that by now."
"Don't flatter yourself." I laughed and pushed him away.
We fell into silence once again. The only sounds were the waves crashing into the rocks below us and the occasional car driving by. I fell back on the blanket and propped my head up on my arm. I was staring at Jake. He was looking out into the water. He looked so calm, so serene. Like he didn't have a care in the world at that moment.
"Jake," I said suddenly. I didn't even realize I had wanted to say anything. The statement shocked me a little.
He looked away from the water and stared down at me. "Yes?"
I smiled at him. "Do you remember when you promised you'd take me cliff diving?"
He held up a hand to stop me from continuing. "Oh no! Not happening. Nah-uh."
I pushed myself back into a sitting position. "Oh, come on! Please!! Don't be a douche about this."
"No," He said fiercely.
I started pouting. "You're no fun, Jake."
He sighed and got up. "Come on then," He said, holding a hand out for me to take.
I gave him a toothy grin and gladly took his hand. I loved how I always got my way with Jacob; I used it to my advantage a little more than I should. He pulled me up and caught me when I tripped on the blanket corner.
"God, Bella. You're such a health hazard," He said righting me on the ground again.
"I resent that, you bastard!" I yelled and punched him in the stomach.
Jacob just rolled his eyes. He knew I never hurt him, and he loved to point it out, but for some reason, today he didn't.
We were standing on the edge of the cliff now. It was a long fall, it was perfect. I couldn't wait to jump. I was probably smiling profusely, but I was too distracted by the rush of adrenaline seeping its way into in my veins.
"If you let go of my hand, I'm going to have to kill you. Kapeesh?" Jacob grabbed by hand and looked at me.
I sighed melodramatically. "Yes, sir." I gave a mock salute with my free hand.
The next thing I knew, we were flying through the air, hurdling toward the water.
"Holy sh…!" I managed just before we hit the waves.
so, what'd you think? feedback please!