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A/N: I'm mainly intending this to be a one shot, but if you readers want more than that...review and tell me. :)

A Small Secret

The sun had just set when Seras woke in her coffin bed. Her body slowly coming alive, or undead, she touched the remote control. The mechanism clicked easing the bed from it's underground chamber back up to her room. Awaiting her, on the table, was her customary two packets of blood on ice.

Even though she still hated drinking it, she didn't hesitate now. Those days were over and long gone. Alucard helped see to that! But she had reasons to take better care of herself, so the blood had to go down. Gulping the thick, red nourishment, she let out a rather indelicate belch. "Oops. Excuse myself."

As a little girl she'd always been told it was unbefitting a lady to belch. Of course her parents were nowhere around. They were dead and had been for several years. She giggled hysterically over the belch and she didn't know why. Maybe it was all the changes taking place lately that had her emotions swinging wild.

Emptying both packets, Seras disposed of the plastic containers. Walking to her dresser she picked up her brush and gently ran it through her growing hair. When she'd first been turned the length had been short, but now, it was a little past her shoulders. Alucard loved to run his fingers down the long, blond strands and he took pleasure in it's new length. Speaking of her lover she wondered where he happened to be right now. Sourly, she mused, 'He's probably in Integra's office because she was lonely and didn't have anything better to do.'

"Now, now, Seras. There's nothing to be jealous about. We're discussing upcoming missions. If you're ready to join us then feel free to do so."

His dark laughter echoed in her mind. He always enjoyed her jealousy. That one very strong emotion let him know just how much she cared. At times she'd taken on some of Integra's more unsavory characteristics. She was sometimes icy, then others she was snappy and verbally bit everyone who crossed her moody path.

Seras thought about joining them, but decided against it. Instead she wanted to go to the roof and watch the moon and stars. There was just something about the night sky that spoke to her and invoked such wonder and merriment, like when she was a little girl.

Following the mental thread back to Alucard she told him what she planned to do and where she'd be. With a gesture, she opened a void and allowed it to swallow her form. Stepping out onto the roof, the petite blond sat down on the roof ready to stargaze.

Meanwhile in Integra's office, Alucard's attention wandered. His master noticed this and couldn't pass the chance to comment about it.

"Problem, Alucard?"

He recognized her tone for what it was. She wanted to play a game. Alucard excelled in this area and was a master of games. He'd played with people for so long that sometimes he kept them going for months on end. "No problems."

The pale, slender blond scented trouble from the vampire. Digging in with her teeth, she refused to let go. "There's got to be something wrong. Trouble in paradise? Neither you or Seras seem like yourselves. Here lately, with you, she's been pretty moody."

Glaring at the gloating heiress, he angrily prodded her back. "What's your fucking point, Integra?'

Picking up her box of specialized cigars, she removed one and lit it; blowing the smoke up in his direction. "Oh, nothing much. Just the other day Walter and I were in here working and Seras happened to walk by and she was whistling! Whistling, I tell you. And she exuded happiness. Her cheeks, usually pale, were glowing. I'd go so far to say they were rosy. I'd go so far as to say she might've found someone else to ring her bell. If you ask me." Inhaling another hit from her cigar she marked on an invisible scoreboard in her mind. Integra:2 Alucard:1.

The thought of another male, vampire or mortal, touching Seras made his blood run cold then hot. Fury bubbled to the surface and a growl escaped from his fanged mouth. His normally crimson eyes deepened to a blood red glowing in his apparent anger. "Seras would not do anything like that; she can't. Seras is nothing like you. She's never been able to hide anything from me. Ever."

Leaning forward, cigar in hand, she replied, "She's been hiding something lately. She was talking to the doctor the other day so I wonder if she's fallen ill and doesn't want you to know. Integra loved to taunt Alucard. Just like the multiple times he'd taunted her, driving her to insanity and distraction. "They were in a pretty serious discussion, so something is going on whether you want to admit it or not." Pounding the nail further in, she hoped to nail this coffin shut!

"Integra, if there was something wrong, why would Seras ever tell you? You've always treated her as less of a vampire than anyone else here. In your conversations with her, you've unloaded your contempt, despise, scorn and every other negativity you could. She can't even be in the same room as you without wanting to rip your throat out. Which if you treated me like you do her, then I'd do the honor myself." The dark vampire's tone was cold and harsh. But it was nothing but the truth.

Pissed off, she snapped back, "Maybe so, but I'm not the one walking around with secrets now am I?" Seeing the narrowing of his eyes, she'd finally struck the last time to drive it home. The doubt was there and that's all that mattered.

"Do you know why you're going to die an old maid, Integra? Because you won't let anyone close and those you do, you treat like shit! No one wants a withered husk to make love to and unfortunately you're already there. You're just a sharp tongued bitch and you'll die one!"

Without a further word, Alucard disappeared. He didn't even mess with a void. Surprising. Integra sat back in her chair continuing to smoke with the moonlight streaming in her windows.

Seras, watching the sky, saw a falling star streak across the heavens. Squeezing her eyes tight, she made a wish. 'I wish Alucard could know.' That was it, nothing else did she wish. There was nothing else she could wish for or that she wanted at this point in time. Her thoughts were interrupted by a voice in the dark.

"Seras, may i join you?"

Turning, to face him, Alucard was rewarded with a bright smile. Nodding her head, she gestured for him to sit next to her. For a while they sat in companionable silence until Alucard couldn't bear it any longer.

"I must speak with you, Seras." His voice sounded between confusion and being lost. Wandering in a place of uncertainty. This was a place he'd never been to or experienced before, and he was trying to figure it all out.

Wrapping her small arms around him, she asked, "What's wrong, Alucard? You're not usually like this." She was a little worried about her lover. He was always about confidence and bravado, but where was it tonight?

"I need to know what's going on with you? It's been mentioned that you might have someone on the side, which I don't believe, but the way you've been acting lately, sometimes I'm not sure about what's in front of my face."

Feeling her good mood dissipate, she instantly grew angry. "So you're saying that I've got a man on the sly? You think I'm screwing around behind you're back? Bullshit! I would never do that to you. Never! Who told you such ridiculous nonsense. I want to know. I'll drink their blood and burn their body to ashes, scattering them to the four corners!"

Combating anger with a cool fury, he replied, "It doesn't matter, does it? What's said is said and can't be taken back."

Standing up, she yelled, "It was Integra, wasn't it? She loves to spout gossip and lies about me. Now almost every soldier in Hellsing is afraid of me. They won't even acknowledge me! Hell, maybe I should become an evil, bitch vampiress of the night! Is that what they want? I know you do...or at least you did. You've even dreamed about it. Don't deny it! I've heard your dreams, hell , I've even shared them."

"So there's no one else?" Icy tones spread over her body causing her to be chilled.

Lowering her head in defeat she believed that he'd never fully believe her after Integra spoke her venomous words. Softly, she touched his cheek; tears in her crimson eyes. "No. There's no one but you. But I don't think that's a good idea anymore."

Watching the confusion and hurt on his face, hot, bloody tears poured from her saddened eyes. Pulling him down, she briefly touched his lips to hers. When she spoke again it was the voice of an woman broken. "I'm sorry, Alucard. I must go. I won't stay where I don't belong and where my actions will be questioned and second guessed all the time. I love you and won't forget you. Take care. Goodbye."

Stepping from the roof, she flew through the air, and it suddenly began to rain. It was as if all of mother nature felt her pain and wept with her. When she reached her desired destination, she stared at the sky again. This was how her night had begun. Concentrating hard, she felt the thread between her and her master snap. Not completely aware of how she accomplished it, she didn't care. It was done. He was blocked and wouldn't be able to locate her to bring her home to the queen viper's nest.

Leaning back hard on the doorway, absentmindedly, she placed her right hand over her abdomen and massaged it tenderly. "It's just you and me, baby. We'll be fine on our own. Everything will be fine." Sincerely she had confidence that she could do this. "We'll be much better off out of that nut house, away from Integra and even your daddy. I couldn't raise you in such an emotionally violent home. I just couldn't."

Night was quickly coming to an end. Seras had sat outdoors all night wondering if she'd come to regret her actions. She missed Alucard dreadfully already. Did he miss her? 'Now that I'm gone, Integra will probably move in on him. God, how I hate her!'

The beginning of the sun's rays rising above the horizon alerted her to go to her resting place. Crawling in her place of completely and solitary darkness, she lay down and slipped into a vampire's sleep.

Her dreams haunted her. A vision of Alucard and Integra making love in her bed, his bed...everywhere. These lies, felt so real, she almost could still hear the stinging insults delivered to her by both Alucard and his master. Images swirling in her sleeping world woke her causing her to throw up her night's meal.

'Damn. I guess this isn't going to be as easy as I had hoped.' Tears of hurt and frustration leaked from her eyes. She was so sure her dream was real that the betrayal cut like a knife. Every word and gesture had seemed so real. She could've sworn that she heard Alucard say that she was just a means to an end and Integra had cackled at the hurt clearly written on her pale face.

Had they just been using her to populate the vampire species? If so, why did Alucard actively hunt them as he did? Chaos running loose with free reign, Seras didn't know what to believe. So many questions and no answers. Sadly, trying to reassure her growing baby, she said, "We may have to go on the run, baby, just you and me. We'll see."

Tomorrow, she thought. She'd try to sort everything out the next day, if that was possible. For now, she needed to sleep and rid herself of those painful dreams that came to her. Forcing herself into a trance, the young vampire fell into a deep sleep where even her nightmares couldn't touch her.

A/N: Hey guys! That's it! Just read/review and let me know if you think it should stand as a one shot or continue on and work the storyline out. L8r!