She walked inside of the humid bathroom and closed the door, wiping her eyes with the sleeve of her shirt before she reached for the lock. The mirrors were already clouded up with steam, fore she had left the shower running before she removed the bloodstained sheets from her bed and set them in the washing machine. Her thoughts were speeding in a frenzy throughout her mind as she slowly stripped naked. The room was getting hotter and hotter as she stared at herself in the mirror. Her eyes slowly observed her body. With her finger she traced a stain on her thigh, and slowly her face broke into a menacing smile. She had deserved it. After dressing like a ho she had asked for it. She had spent months flirting with him. She had been begging for her best friend's boyfriend to rape her.

Tears steadily flowed from her eyes as she stepped inside of her shower. She had turned the water on for at hot as she could stand it, and it was burning her sensitive skin. She needed to cleanse herself. She needed to forget about what had just happened to her in her home; in her bed. Her window had been open and as he lied on top of her the wind had blew onto her skin, adding a chilling effect to what would have been a passionate sex scene in a movie if she had wanted it. She couldn't deny how she had physically felt. Her body had been betraying her in ways that would've shocked those who heard about it. She cried out "no", but because she wasn't fighting back he felt like he could keep going. He didn't think he was doing anything wrong. After all, she had invited him to her house. She was the one who told him that her parents weren't home and that her brother had fallen asleep after his basketball game.

"Do you like that?" He had asked her when he planted a kiss onto her lips. She had nodded that she did, and then she leaned in for another one. When he scooted his hand onto her thigh she had giggled childishly, broke the kiss, and then smiled at him. They teased each other continuously, kissing and then breaking the kiss, until enough was enough and he pushed her back. Still, Lil felt like everything was going her way. In fact she had been planning for all of that to happen. That was until her cell phone began ringing. When she reached for it she saw that Kimi was calling her, then she looked at Tommy and showed him who it was. He took her phone from her hand, and dropped in on the side of her bed before jumping her bones. That's when she began having second thoughts.

By that time her shirt was across her bedroom and Tommy seemed to be in some kind of trance. She couldn't deny her attraction to him. He was doing everything right. He was touching her in the right places; saying the right things at the right time. However, what she was doing couldn't have been right. It was against everything she was raised to believe. She was being immoral. She had never been the kind of girl that messed around with guys like that. Then suddenly she was losing her virginity to a guy who her friend was absolutely in love with.

Someone sped by her window blasting "S-E-X," by Lyfe Jennings, and it felt like another bad omen. She felt she needed to try harder to get him off of her. Her phone was vibrating against her wooden bedroom floor and she knew that it was Kimi. It was unbelievable how much Tommy was feeling her. He had obviously felt the way she had been feeling for a long time. Lil didn't want to sleep with him though, so she kept telling him to get off. He wasn't listening.

Now she was in the shower. Her skin was turning red because it was so hot. She wasn't sure if it was the tears that were on her face, or if the shower droplets were splashing around. Lil wasn't sure how she was feeling. There was definitely some guilt and anger, but she felt like she was as much responsible as Tommy was. Once he was finished he tried to talk to Lil, but she reached for her blankets and turned over to face the wall. She wanted him to leave. She needed him to leave. She didn't want to see him again. She didn't know what she was going to tell Kimi. She hated lying to someone that she adored so much. She had always admired her self-proclaimed "sister", one that she considered a best friend. How could she even reveal what had happened between them?

In just a few minutes everything had changed. Why did Kimi have to call her? Then she would've told Tommy to keep going, and she wouldn't be feeling so lost. She was sure that he had raped her because she had told him to stop, but she wasn't sure she was angry about it because of the way it made her feel. She was only hurt about betraying Kimi. She didn't want Kimi to know about what happened. She didn't want anyone to know about what happened.

Lil brought her arm to her mouth and bit herself. She wanted to cry out in pain. She wanted to scream and feel something. She should've told Tommy to keep it between them. He'll probably go bragging to Chuckie, and then Chuckie will spread it to Phil before he told his sister. By the end of the upcoming week it will be going around that the two of them had slept together. No one will know that she was raped. She will look like a slut because she was the one who had invited him over when no one could walk in on them. Kimi will find out that while she was calling her friend, her "friend" was fucking her boyfriend.

That's not how it happened.

She had told Tommy to stop. She had told him more than once that they shouldn't go too far. He laughed and told her she was amazing. He complimented her on her personality and told her that she was beautiful. He made her feel like putty in his hands. Every time she revealed her worries he would say something to sooth her mind. Has anyone ever done this to you before? No? I don't believe it. Well I know other people tried to. The only thing else she needed him to say was that he loved her.

Lil wasn't sure on where she stood. She felt guilty, but she felt like Kimi deserved it. Kimi knew how Lil felt about Tommy before she decided that she liked Tommy too.

Lil reached for the water faucet and turned it off. She couldn't feel bad anymore. Kimi was the one who had betrayed her in the first place. After stepping out of the shower Lil grabbed her dry towel from the closed toilet seat and wrapped it around her body. Her skin was freezing when she exited the bathroom. I have something to do, Lil thought, excusing herself for leaving her clothes on the floor. She walked into her bedroom and got on her bed, holding her towel up while she reached over the side of her bed for her cell phone.

Revenge's a bitch

With a satisfied smirk on her face Lil sent the text message to her best friend immediately, anonymously of course.