Give a Little Bit Chapter 1, a law and order: svu fanfic

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Olivia had never been successful with men. She holds that to her biological father, whom she never met. The circumstances around her creation and birth were never far from her thoughts when she was dating. Men were scum. She saw it every day; at work, on dates, and in her absent rapest father. It wasn't that she didn't wonder who he was, or if they'd met in her work as an officer. Who wouldn't want to look their father in the eye just once in their life time? She just wouldn't go looking for him.

Men are scum.

Elliot wasn't scum. Elliot was her best friend, protector, and in a way, her family. The unit was a family. Cragen was her father-figure, Olivia decided. He was a good man who cared about her well-being, and was very kind. Although Munch and Fin teased, they became her 'brothers' in her mind. They worked together to help people like her mother.

It took a few years, but things were going smoothly. There were a few rough patches as she was too close to Elliot. He should have gone after the boy, not to her rescue. She should have shot the man, not faulter when she saw fear in Elliot's eyes. She wanted to rewind the clock one day and fix this.

However, this had been several months ago. Things were back to abnormal. They were back to the usual kinds of cases, which were always plentiful. Late nights, long days, and sleeping at work for a few days at a time,

"Liv," Fin said, glancing over her paperwork. "Turn your calender. Its the 15th, not the 8th."

"Have I been here that long?"

"Yeah girl. Go home! Sleep!" Olivia tore the pages from her desk calender, and took note of how quickly time had gone by.

"Are you sure?" she asked, looking at the calender

"Yes, I arrested a dude yesterday, the 14th, so today must be the 15th."

"Actually Fin, Its the 17th. You've been here a few days as well." Munch tossed a paper ball at his partner. Liv rubbed her forehead and left quickly. Cragen nodded towards Elliot.

"I'll go," Stabler said, following her, sensing something not right. She just seemed off the last few weeks. He caught up quickly; she was parked near his car, sitting in her car staring blankly. "Hey, Liv, open up." She rolled the window down. Elliot could see now that she was crying.

"Elliot..."

"Need me to drive?" She nodded and he lead her to his car. "What's going on, Liv? Where are we going?"

"Drug store."

"Oh, God, Benson. I'm not buying you tampons." Liv shot him a dirty look.

"I don't need tampons. I need...I need a..." she stumbled, not sure how to say the words out loud. "I'm late." Elliot nodded silently and drove in the direction of the store.

"How late?"

"About 5 days."

"You've been living at work, and its been stressful." He rested his hand on hers.

"I don't want to talk about my period with you, Stabler."

"Oh Thank God. I heard more than enough with three daughters." Liv was grateful for his light mood. He knew what she needed to hear. He always did.

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"Liv, you okay in there?" he called, knocking on her bathroom door. There was no response. Olivia had been in there for a minute. She opened the door. "That was quick."

"We just wait." She sat on the closed toilet while Elliot took the edge of the bath tub. The silence was thick, and he could feel how scared she was. In an effort to calm her, Elliot took her hands. "What if its positive? Jimmy said he doesn't like kids. We broke up because he didn't want kids and I do. Not right this second but I know I do eventually."

"What ever happens, I'll be here for you, Liv," he said softly. She looked at his watch.

"One more minute," she whispered.

"Everything will be fine," he said. Olivia's hands were shaking. Elliot wanted to hold her and make it all better, but she would have to eventually look at the stick. "Give it a look." Liv took the little stick and gazed down at it. She stared for a long time before showing her partner. "It is going to be okay, Livy, you got me, and I'm not going to let you go through this alone. I promise." Elliot pulled her into a hug and let her cry into his shirt. "You're not alone," he whispered.

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Desk duty did not sit well with Olivia Benson. The day after the test, she had doctor confirmation, and Elliot helped her tell Cragen. The second the words were out of her mouth, she was put at a desk, where she and her baby would be safe.

It had been one hour. Elliot brought her a hot chocolate, and Cragen asked if she wanted to take the afternoon off to get some rest. Fin and Munch were oblivious.

"Okay, what is going on?"

"Nothing," Olivia said, resting her head in her hands. "I'm just taking a break from the field for a while."

"Voluntery?"

"Yeah."

"What is going on, Olivia?" Munch looked worried. Olivia turned and walked away.

"I'm not dealing with this right now," she said as she walked out the door. Elliot followed her, grabbing her coat from the back of her chair as he left.

"I know you know, Stabler! Talk," Fin called.

"Its not your business, Fin. shut it."

He should be getting used to chasing Olivia, but it always upset him to see her in pain, pissed off, or just annoyed in general. After 8 years, they were pretty much codependent. A baby wouldn't change that; he hoped it would help it.

"Not now, Elliot," she warned. He walked next to her despite her tone. "I'm not ready to deal with this. I need to just...I need to forget about this for now."

"Okay. Let's go for a walk, get a hot chocolate, and not talk about this." He wrapped her coat around her shoulders.

"Thanks."

"Anytime." They walked in silence. "You'll have to tell them eventually."

"Not for another 5 months, I don't. When they can see, then I won't have to." Elliot laughed. "El, I really do want this baby, I just don't think I'm ready."

"No one is ready, Olivia."

"You weren't?"

"Not one time was I ready for the baby to be here. It is the scariest thing on Earth in my opinion. These ass hole criminals we deal with; they earn their spot in prison. But to be responsible for starting from scratch to make sure someone doesn't become one of the people we arrest...its terrifying."

"Thank you," came a sarcastic reply.

"Oh, it has its rewards, too. The first time you hold that baby, and its a part of you...nothing like that either. Best feeling in the world." Liv sighed peacefully.

"Thank you," she said, very sinscerely.

"Liv," he said gently. "Please, listen to me for a second." She turned to him. "You are my partner, my best friend, and if you need anything, I'll be here to help you."

"So you've said," she reminded him. Elliot smiled and they walked on.

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