Prologue

Lorelai closed the door behind her, trying to shut everything out. But she couldn't, and unwanted, the words from the previous night came back to her. He didn't want her anymore, hedidn't want to marry her. She felt the tears she'd been holding back ever since then start to trickle down her cheeks, and she slid down the door and onto the floor.

She didn't know why she had gone to Christopher last night, but he had done his best to comfort her, in his own way. And when she had asked him if he would just hold her so she could sleep, he had obliged.

In the morning, there was a split second when she couldn't remember how she had ended up in his bed, but then the memories had come back, thrusting the pain back in her heart.

What was she supposed to do now? She wasn't sure that she knew how to live without him anymore, at least not when she had to see him every day, see him with April, living the life he didn't want her to be a part of. And she didn't know if she would be able to forgive him, if he against all odds would show up and try to make things right. Because no matter what he said, the fact still remained; he didn't want to marry her, because if he did, he wouldn't have turned her idea of eloping down so fast, he would have at least considered it.

So she would do what she had the last time they weren't together. She would take it one day at a time, and maybe sometime in the future, it wouldn't hurt to see him, to talk to him. Maybe they could even be friends.

But right now, she didn't want to see him. Because she was still so angry, so heart broken, and she didn't think she could stand facing him. Maybe she should leave town for a while, take a week off and go somewhere warm? Rory could come with her, school was out for the summer. Yeah, that would be good.

She pulled herself up from the floor and started walking into the kitchen to get something to eat, when there was a knock on the door. She frowned, wondering who would be there so early, and went to open the door. When she saw who was outside it, she froze.

"Lorelai..." He started, but she cut him off.

"What are you doing here?" She asked him, crossing her arms in front of her body as if it would protect her from what he would say.

"I just... I needed to talk to you, explain." He tried.

"There's nothing to say." Lorelai said, her voice calm despite the fact that her heart was beating so fast that she thought it would jump out of her chest,plus she was practically hyper ventilating.

"Yes, there is." He insisted.

"No, Luke, there isn't." Lorelai replied. "You said everything you had to say last night."

"No, I was just... surprised, I wasn't expecting that." Luke said. "Please, just listen to me."

"No." Lorelai shook her head. "I can't, not anymore. I'm tired of being the third wheel, the last priority in your life, I won't do it anymore."

"Is this about April?" Luke asked. "Because if you really want to meet her, you

can."

"It's not about April, not just about her anyway." Lorelai replied. "I've been insecure and scared for the past few months, and you haven't even noticed."

"Can we just talk about this? It doesn't have to be like this, we could..."

"I spent the night with Christopher." She cut him off, knowing it was probably the one thing that would make him leave, and she really needed him to leave before she caved in.

He didn't say anything, but she could see the pain in his eyes, and for a moment Lorelai wondered if she'd made a mistake. But then he turned around and walked away, and she knew she'd been right. He didn't love her anymore.