Hey guys long time no see! Oh my god I'm so so so sorry I took so long to update! I've been busy with college but I'm done now until January! Yay! I've probably lost like all my readers by now noooo! Well enjoy the chappy I'll have the next one done soon, I have to warn you though, this chapter does have adult implications, nothing too detailed cause I didnt want to scare anyone off. Haha.
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Chapter 18: A First for Both
Her heart ached; she felt empty. It had been only a few hours later, after they had boarded the Black Pearl. Her heart was filled with anger and frustration towards her friend. Sure she was being a hippocrite. She knew this. She also didn't give a damn. Why should she? All the heartache she'd endured in the past few days was numbing.
Jack sat across from her at the old wooden table in his cabin, marking his map with deep concentration, a half-empty bottle of rum to his right. He tapped his compass lightly every few seconds, the only sound that was heard in the room. Michelle had no idea what the captain was doing, nor did she care at the moment.
Jack looked up from his work and glanced at the girl across from him. He knew she was upset. Hell, who wouldn't be? He thought he'd be much happier about his ship being returned to his posession and the kraken being called off the hunt, but he wasn't. He didn't understand why her being happy was something he wanted so much. Since when did Jack Sparrow care about anyone else's happiness? It was unheard of.
"Jack." Michelle said suddenly, breaking the dead silence that surrounded them. Jack raised his eyes once more from his map, "Yes love?"
"Why do people do that?"
Jack raised an eyebrow, not understanding the question, "Do what?"
"Why... do they all end up leaving? Why do they all end up leaving and not take into consideration anyone's feelings but their own? They call themselves your best friend... they swear they'll always be there for you..." She said, her voice was monotone. No emotion came with it at all.
Jack set his marking tool down and sighed, "People come and go love, it's just a part of life." He replied, his eyes not leaving hers.
"Does that mean you're going to leave too?" She asked, her voice cracking at the end of her question. People come and go? What the hell was that supposed to mean? Did it mean everyone she ever met in her life would end up leaving? More importantly, did it mean he'd leave too?
A smile appeared on the captain's features, "Don't be silly Michelle. You should know better. I'm not that easy to get rid of."
She smiled for the first time that night. Did he really mean that though? Her eyes turned to him once again as he stood up and began to appraoch her slowly.
"Michi I've... been wanting to answer that question you asked me earlier." He said, stopping inches from where she sat.
"Q... question?" She knew exactly what question he was talking about, she didn't know why she decided to play stupid so suddenly.
"Aye question. Don't tell me you've forgotten it love." He responded. She stood from where she sat nervously, shaking slightly. Why was she so nervous about it? She wanted to know the answer and he wanted to give it now, so what was the problem?
"No Jack I... I haven't forgotten. The question was have you ever-"
"Been in love? Aye, I 'ave been. Very well may be right now. To fall in love is easy, but to remain in it is difficult. You've always got to remain cautious love." He said, moving a bit of hair from her face and touching her cheek lightly.
A chill ran throughout her body. She couldn't believe it, did he actually just kind of admit to being in love?
"But Jack, caution in love is perhaps the most fatal to true happiness."
"I agree. In this case being too cautious is the greatest risk of all aye?" He said with his very Jack-like smile before touching his lips to hers. She kissed him back, still surprised at what was happening. He wrapped his arms around her waist gently.
Michelle kissed the pirate back and wrapped her arms around his shoulders, her left hand tugged lightly at the loose end of his red bandana. This was the second time the two had kissed, and even though Michelle wanted it, she had to admit it was much more awkward this time. She'd never kissed anyone in their room before... or cabin in this case.
She wondered suddenly if this was going to lead to something more. To be completely honest with herself, she wouldn't mind it. Never would she had ever guessed she'd be ok with something like this before she was married. She was ashamed of herself. It was disgusting! How could she be ok with even thinking of doing anything like that with Jack!? He was a pirate!
How could she consider giving her purity and goodness to a man who had been with so many women before her? To a man that wouldn't care either way how much this meant to her? A man that would probably forget all about it the very next day? She did though... she did want him to be her first... Why? She was in love with this man; this pirate.
She broke the kiss and stared into his dark, lust-filled eyes, breathing heavily. He stared back, wondering why she broke the intimate kiss.
"Jack?"
"What is it?"
"I... I know this is really wrong of me... I can't believe I'm even thinking this.. You know I'm a virgin right?"
He nodded in response, "No worries, I'm aware and I've no intention of going that far with you so you can lay your worries to rest." He said reassuringly, his lips appraoching hers once more.
She put a finger up to his mouth to stop him, "Why? Am I not good enough?" She asked. Jack raised an eyebrow, was that offense he heard in her voice?
He moved her hand with his and cleared his throat, "All right, you've lost me love. You're more than good enough. All I meant by the statement was I respect your wishes to remain pure until you've married. That is what you want is it not?"
She realized Jack was all she had left anymore. Her family, the friend she grew up with... her revenge.. all of them were gone. If he were to ever leave, what would she do??
"That's what I wanted... I'm... not the same girl you met on Curacao anymore Jack... I've changed... as well as what I want.."
Jack still didn't understand, what did that mean??
"Michelle I still don't understand where you're going with this."
"Then I'll tell you where I'm going Jack... I... I'm happy.. with you.. when I'm with you. After Beckett's death I was honestly not sure of what I was going to do... but I'm sure now. I want to remain on this ship.. Even if that means turning pirate I don't care. But right now I... want you to... go further."
Jack's mouth dropped open at her words. Was he drunk? Did she mean what he thought she meant? Usually when he was with a woman he didn't wait for any such words to be said. Strangely, even with them being said, he still was hesitant when it came to her.
"Are you... certain?"
She nodded and covered his mouth with hers, not wanting to hear any more questions about why she decided so. Maybe her decision was for all the wrong reasons. Maybe it wasn't. She didn't know. All she knew at that moment was that this man was the last of what she had in her life.
Jack decided not to ask any more questions. Although he'd been with many women before, he'd never actually "made love". In that aspect, it was indeed a first for captain Jack Sparrow as well.
I'll update soon since college is over! Please review I missed you guys! Also, hope I didn't offend anyone, I tried to keep it light as possible in that area.