Wilkommen to my first serious fruits basket fic! This is just the beginning of Haru and Yuki's friendship, or hatred as it started out as being. This may or may not be continued. If it is, there might be possible shounen ai in the process. However, I'm trying to make this rather unconventional, so it's not going to be a lot of "Haru chases Yuki" sort of deal. I'm not sure yet. Regardless….here's how this all began.

Disclaimer: I don't own fruits basket. And I never will.

Since as far back as I could remember, I hated being the Ox. I had the worst luck of anyone in the entire family. Because since I was born, everyone told me how I had been used by the rat. The scheming, conniving rat who thought only of himself.

I hated Yuki the moment I first heard of him. It wasn't until I was about three that I first actually met him—before then I was too young to meet him and he was "too delicate" to have playmates. Even in our first meeting though, I regarded him with an uncharacteristic coldness. I wouldn't share. I wouldn't let him use the blocks. I think I even hit him. The little brat didn't cry, though, he just looked at me with sadness in his eyes. Little did I realize that he would continue that habit of suppressing his feelings for the next thirteen years.

Even worse than Yuki were my parents. Most of the parents of children in the Zodiac were at least somewhat ashamed of their children, but it was even worse to have given birth to the Ox. Before I even opened my eyes, I was big, slow, and stupid. And that stuck with me from an early age. Even now, I don't eat a whole lot of food for fear that I will turn into that loathsome cow. But getting back to the subject, my parents were horrible. They sucked as parents. It was obvious that they envied Yuki's mother and father, and wished they had Yuki as their son. Yuki, who was speaking in full sentences since he was three. Sure, they were mostly, "Thank you for lunch, Sohma-san" and "May I have a cookie?" but still, they were sentences. I had a select few words for any situation, and I often confused my parents as to what I really wanted. They never really knew that all I wanted was love.

As horrible as it sounds, I eventually got used to the coldness I received from my parents. What I never got over was the lack of attention. Whenever the Sohmas got together, I was excluded. Yuki would talk to the adults in his cute little way and tilt his cute little head and be so fucking cute it made you sick, and I sat in the corner and pretended to play. Really, I was watching them—and waiting for someone to call me over so I could act cute, because I thought I was pretty cute. All children are cute, even when they are the year of the Ox.

No one ever called me. So those days I started to cry, cry as much as I could and wait for someone to pay any attention to me. Nothing happened. Ever. I don't understand how parents could sit around and ignore a little child of four, sitting in a corner and crying his eyes out because Mommy and Daddy don't want him as their son. He is a shame and a burden. The ox should never have been born.

The night my Black side was born was when I was about five or six. It was another family get-together, and as usual Yuki was entertaining the adults. But this time, he was actually sitting at the grown-ups table. Sohma children didn't sit at the grown-up table until they hit adolescence, but Yuki, being the Rat, was special. So goddamned special. Anyway, I looked at him, sitting at the table, talking to the adults and being charming when he looked over at me and made the worst mistake of his life—he smiled at me.

It was an innocent enough gesture, but all the weight of the lack of attention, the favoritism for another child, everything in my five or six years crashed down upon me like a boulder. And I cried. No, that's not quite accurate, I sobbed. I cried as hard and as loudly as I could, wails that nearly shook the paper door and certainly got me attention. I was waiting for that golden moment, when my mother would come over and scoop me up in her arms, which always smelled nice even though she hated me, and say, "Oh, my little Hatsuharu, what's wrong, sweetie?". She didn't even come close. She turned around in her chair, stared straight at me, and said, "Hatsuharu, stop making a scene and be quiet."

I lost all control and decorum I'd ever had. I began to kick, punch, rip, and destroy everything in my sight, while screaming the sentence I knew best, "I HATE YOU! I HATE YOU! I HATE YOU!" My mother sighed wearily and grabbed me forcefully by the arm and yelled at me to stop, but it was impossible to reach me now. I gave into hateful voices that had haunted me since…since I was born. She screamed at me again, and this time I whirled around to face her and I hit her. I punched my own mother and screamed, "I HATE YOU! YOU'RE THE WORST MOMMY IN THE WORLD!"

Time froze in that moment as she reeled from the blow. Maybe her skin was weak, maybe the angle was just right, but soon a bruise began to bloom on her eye. She shoved me away, turned to my father and said, "We can't keep him anymore. He has to go". As if I was some sort of farm animal.

The silence that followed this was broken by the sound of Yuki half-sliding, half-falling off of his booster seat and walking slowly over to me. He looked at me with those bright eyes and whispered, "Haru…"

"What do you want, dirty rat?" I spat at him. I was never to address Yuki this way, or anyone. I was far too angry to care. He went unaffected by my statement, and repeated my name. "Haru…"

I lashed out at him just as I did with my mother. This gained quite a reaction. Yuki's mother screamed and snatched her son away from me while shrieking horrible insults directed at my parents. The other parents also started yelling, and pointing, and staring at me with these eyes, eyes that said, "He's uncontrollable. What have you done? Look how dangerous he is." Yuki was the only one who seemed to show any compassion. He wriggled in his mother's grasp, saying, "Mama, Mama, Haru's in trouble. He's sad, he needs a friend. He has no friends."

"It's no wonder he has no friends, the beast!" his mother retorted. "I don't want you to ever see him again!" I merely stood, bewildered, and felt the emotional pain ooze throughout me as in a blur; I was taken from the house and shipped off to a dojo where my hatred could be controlled.

Nothing could help me with that anger. Sure, I became a lot stronger after my intial clumsiness, but even with this new strength the Sohmas never accepted me. It wasn't until I was…nine? Ten? That I even bothered to talk to Yuki.

I found him sitting in a window seat in one of the far rooms of the main house. I didn't even perceive how alone he was until much later. All of that anger and hate spilled out at once as I screamed at him.

"It's all your fault!"

"You're the reason I'm slow and stupid!"

"You're the reason why everyone hates me! Why my parents ignore me! Why nobody will ever accept me!"

I screamed and yelled at him for I don't know how long, and he just sat there and took it with a surprised look on his face. Once I'd finally ceased in screaming at him, he looked off into the distance and spoke with carefully chosen words.

"Are you really slow? Are you really stupid? You are very smart, Haru-kun. You could see through grown-ups and how they play favorites. Most kids don't even notice that. But is it true; that you are slow, and stupid? Is it real?"

I waited for my breath to level out while I digested these words. You see, the easiest way to destroy hate is to really think about why you're angry. As soon as I found the reason—the real reason—I was so angry, everything disappeared, and all I felt was guilt and shame. It wasn't Yuki's fault that I was ignored and rejected. It wasn't mine, either. I was "slow" and "stupid" because of the superficial judgments of the adults who surrounded me.

"No…." I muttered hoarsely. "I'm not slow. I'm not stupid. I can do math and I can spell and I can read and I know that I was really mean to you, Yuki. I'm sorry….I'm sorry!" I threw myself onto the windowsill and began to cry in earnest, cry for someone other than myself. The rat looked surprised again at my outburst, but smiled and placed his hand over mine. He reached down into an awkward sort of embrace and gently tilted my chin up. "Yuki…" I whispered through big, sloppy, ten-year-old's tears. There was probably snot all over my face. He smiled gently at me and said three words that changed my life forever.

"Let's start again."

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