Armor or Truth

Author – Kirachan

Rating – FRT

Pairing – Now that... Is a secrete!

Warning – Will contain Yaoi! I can't think of anything else at the moment.

Disclaimer – if you recognize it I don't own it. Harry Potter and Fullmetal Alchemist belong to their own respective creators!

Summery – What's in a mate? Well that's what Harry Potter is going to find out. After all he is owed. Owed in Blood. Owed in Soul. Yaoi Swearing

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Rain… The feeling of rain on my still form is the only physical sensation I can remember from before. From the time I was actually a being of flesh and blood. Living a fast life of adventure you only dream about. Truth be told, I couldn't remember why… No that's hardly it; I don't want to remember why because it would hurt too much if I did. All I want to remember is the sense of accomplishment I felt in my final moments. Safe in the knowledge that despite everything thrown my way, I succeeded in the goal I had set myself.

My life for his, My body for his, My soul for his.

Equivalent Exchange.

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:Harry:

It should hurt less… Why doesn't the pain lessen? Something is happening to me. A fire has ignited inside of me; fueling the fires I have kept in tight control since I started going to school at Hogwarts. The fires are blazing now, growing hotter with each passing moment and giving me the mental energy I need to search. To search for my hurting mate.

The distance I must search in… Confuses me beyond all sanity. I know that my mate is physically on the British Isles… Yet I feel he is much further away than that…

"He…" I utter in the stilled chaos that has become my room. The winds around my twitching form have stilled for a brief second as I ponder this new revelation. Even my body stops writhing on my now half destroyed bed.

'He... Yes a male is my mate. My mate I will have and all the world had better stay out of MY WAY!' With that hart felt declaration from within the depths of my soul, the rest of my rapidly diminishing energy goes into my unspoken oath as the winds pick up in intensity. My window is blown out, easily shattering the bars that had obscured them. The winds also blow the door with all of its locks clean of its hinges. The noise wakes my relatives, the suddenness of the sound terrifying them as the thunderstorm rages outside. Angering one of them as my change reaches a pain filled end, ripping an agonized scream from my throat.

In the vague distance I can hear angry muttering, but I care not. Right now I concentrate with all my being on the links inside my mind. I can see them, all different colors and ages. The black one, the oldest one, the one link that links me to Voldemort. I reach out with mental claws and shred the link with extreme prejudice and extreme effort. I mentally sigh in relief, now moldywarts will no longer strangle my dreams or my gifts. I'll deal with him as soon as I find my mate. On to the next link. The link that is a deep emerald green in color. A link that seems to lead me to Professor Snape.

Is he the one?

I wait for a moment, testing my thoughts against the link. Sighing in disappointment, I realize that Snape is not my mate. This is a good thing I suppose, as there is no love lost between myself and the greasy git. I snap the link, which must have formed during my lesions with the Potions Professor. I wonder how the link got there. Humph. I'll ponder that later.

On to another link, this one was blue in color. It's an empathy seal… WHAT THE FUCK? This has Dumbledore's magical signature all over it! Snarling in rage I shatter the seal… no wait, Seals! As in plural! More than one seal that keeps me from my full potential. All of which where placed on me while I was still an infant. With the seals gone a wave of energy flows through my form, triggering long dormant DNA into life. DNA that was as old as the ancient Potter line. The change makes me want my mate all the more, knowing with absolute certainty that he is the only one to keep me sane and in the here and now. The only one who could stop me from killing all the idiots that reside one the earth if he so desired. With all of my being I hope he does because my rage has become all consuming, which has triggered my change into such a terrifying creature that my now scared stiff Uncle screams in fear and runs out of my room. Serves the spineless pig right. He shouldn't have tried to interfere with me anymore. Not that it'll help him stay alive that much longer. He, like all the others are living on borrowed time.

Whatever, with a mental shrug I turn to the next links. This one is burgundy while the other one beside it is amber. They link me to my two best friends. I frown at these, both links where created during my first year. I know not how. With trepidation I test the links, hoping neither one was my mate. I love them dearly but I don't think I could stand being mated with them for the rest of our lives!

Nothing… No pull what so ever… YES! I can still have my best friends. I do a mental search around the links and something interesting. Both links seem to be tied to another seal created by my now much hated Headmaster. With a growl I go to shatter the links but suddenly stop. A thought so painful hits me before I touch the links. What if I loose my friends by destroying these links? What if they'll hate me now that the links no longer hold them to their places? May more doubts cloud my mind but not my purpose. My mate is the only one who matters, all other things and people are second only to that. If they are true friends then they'll stay by me even with the links gone and if not…

…if not then they had better stay outta my way! With a howl I shatter the remaining seal on my powers as well as the links too my friends and gap… Why? Because of the light that spreads out from that part of my brain. The light grows brighter so that I can make out a circle and patterns. Many difficult patterns somehow work together in a complicated state of union. Separate yet interwoven with each other to create and hold at the same time. Instinctively I know what I just saw was important and sear the image into my brain. Somehow knowing I'll need that Array. It looked like that Alchemy stuff Luna had shown me. Well, she lent me the one book she had on the subject. The array spread throughout my body. The five main points of the array interlocking with the magic lines in my body.

Wow… I feel rally different now. I feel… Almost whole. All I need now is my mate and I shall be complete in mind, body and soul. I destroy the rest of the links, instinctively knowing that my mate is not any of them. I happen upon the last link. This one puzzles me because it was hidden. I know not who this link belongs too but I'll test it anyways…

The result… The result is startling. I'm being pulled by a very strong force. My mate! My mate lies on the other end of the weak golden link. I'm excited, happy, and joyful even! At last I have found the link which will help lead me to my mate. I frown in worry.

Something is wrong. The link it's self is weak. With my reserve energy I shore up the line to my mate.

I must find him immediately.

Somehow I know…

I know my mate is dying…

"I make this vow. I, Harry James Potter will not allow you too die!" I cry out into the dark depths of the night.

Lightning flashes from outside. The thunderstorm becomes the worst one in centuries, as it bares witness to my vow. The storm's winds blow through my tiny room, giving comfort to my fevered body.

Deep in the depths of my mind I hear a strange metallic voice whisper to me.

"Help me… Please."